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iDiet[a weight loss story]
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::31.7.06:: Decisions I'd planned ages ago that I'd train for the City to Surf then after that for the half marathon of the Melbourne Marathon - now I'm having second thoughts. I hadn't counted on being sick for so long. It's over 3 months now, which can't be normal. I swear, if I had sick leave and could take a week off to recouperate, I'd have been over all this ages ago, but since that isn't a possiblity, I think I want to cut back on stuff for a while instead of increasing it. There'll be other runs. I'm thinking if I don't do it, then I'll do the Burnie Ten and go visit my mum for the weekend. Your health is a priority so do what's good for you hon. I really hope you shake this thing!
You have to look after yourself otherwise it's just going to get worse isn't it? What about a couple of days off? It would be better than nothing and might help you get better quicker. This thing seems to have been hanging around you forever. Take it easy.
Hope you get over this bug thing soon.
That's probably not a bad idea Kath - your health has to be your priority, and your body is obviously feeling a bit run down and is sending you some signals that it needs a rest. What a shame that you can't take some sick leave! What about taking a Friday or a Monday off and making it a three day weekend - yeah you miss a day's pay but it might be the little break that helps you finally get over this!!
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I think that is the hardest thing to do...listening to your body and slowing down, especially when you set yourself goals.
It's a bugger that you have been struck down for so long with these bugs. It's a crazy thing your body is doing at the moment. I wonder if it is just clearing itself out - readying for the run home to goal??
::30.7.06:: Weigh In - 71.8 kgs I actually weighed myself yesterday but didn't get a chance to update. Arrrggh! I've been eating far too much. I don't know what it is but I'm in love with food at the moment. Even when I'm not eating, I'm ogling fattening foods at the supermarket or on cafe menus. One of my problems is that I start havng treats but then I do it so often it becomes a habit so then I have that and more treats on top. I started having an ocassional mini muffin at the coffee shop near work and now i have a mini muffin every day. I've got to cut all that out. The other thing I'm cutting out is BAD food. I know some people say there is no bad food - just everyday food and treat food, but seriously some food is just plain bad - not because of the calories but there is no reason for eating it other than it's there. The other night, my sister and I went out for coffee and the cafe had the most fab looking cupcakes. How could we resist? But when I started eating mine, it was stale and not at all enjoyable. Still I ate the whole damn thing. What I *should* have done was send it back. Why the hell should I pay for (and eat) something that is substandard? That's what I'm going to do next time. Yesterday I did a 14 km run. Well I ran a lot of it, probably walked about a third. Every single step was an effort and I had to push myself but I'm glad I did it. I was very sore last night but instead of staying home and resting, I went out to see some bands.
Sub standard food is SO not worth it. I would rather have small and divine than plentiful and sub standard.
ye god! I know what you mean with the cupcakes... them and those cream cookies are really messing me up.
Congratulations on getting through 14km. What a great effort. You'll soon be telling everyone about the 1/2 marathon you did on the weekend!! I got that way with the red licorice and macadamia and choc cookies lately...every day. Stop it! I have to too :-P
Substanard food is so not worth it and you are worth the good stuff!! Love the new look!! So professional, did you suss it yourself? Sorry haven't commented for ages, do drop in but find it hard to get thoughts out of my head at the moment.
::27.7.06:: Cupcakes Cupcakes are my new obsession - I've even been dreaming about them. At around 150 calories a pop, they aren't too damaging (compared to say a slice of mud cake from your average cafe) and you get a whole cake! My sister calls them little magical cakes of completeness, or something like that. Check out 52 Cupcakes for some excellent food porn. I've been thinking of buying a fabbo cupcake stand but fear the temptation to fill it (and then empty it). *** The other night my sister and I were arguing, as you do, about which one of us our Nan hates the most. She told me that I was the favourite grandchild now because I've lost so much weight. We tend to think that with age comes wisdom and maturity but there you have it - you can reach 90+ years of age and still think like a high school girl. My nan is like if Barbie grew up into a grandmother - she's all about the thinness and how you look. Academic or professional success mean nothing to her. To get in her good books all you need to do is be thin. I think I'm growing up because hearing that I'm in Nan's good books doesn't make me want to go out and wolf down a pavola just to pack the weight back on in a fit of defiance. It's sad and scary but it's also so remote from me that it means nothing. *** I'm thinking late August for the clothes swap (see previous post). More details to follow.
Oh dear, I better not look at those cupcakes! Oh my godness a barbie Nan thats a bit different ay!
Thanks for the link about the cupcakes - how totally wonderful and evil at the same time. GIVE ME CUPCAKES!!! Its funny how tucked into every family there is a barbie wanna be - you know you have really grown up when you dont feel you have to please them anymore.
Barbie Nan - that's just so wrong in so many ways!
Before I got back on the exercise train my big downfall was in part to a cupcake addiction. Actally, I think it was more the frosting... I too have been wanting to buy a cupcake stand. They are so cute when they're all filled up, but that's the problem! *LOL*
::25.7.06:: Party Time! Do you:
Yes. Well how does this sound? A gigantic, fun-a-rama bloggers clothes swap party. Bring along the clothes you no longer wear and pick up some spangly new threads. Stick around for dinner and drinks and fun. Probable location: Fitzroy Probable date: TBA Any thoughts, suggestions, etc welcome. Great idea! Awesome idea! Damn you Melbournites, you should all move to Sydney (or vice versa) LOL. Hey Kathryn - I have always thought this was an idea that made sense - good luck and hope it all goes well. Now - how are you feeling....hope you are getting back on top of things. Not sure if I mentioned the new blog looks great and the photos are terrific.lb
By That sounds great Kathryn! My pile of too-big clothes is getting out of control and I have been trying to think of a way to re-distribute them to weight-losing people that might need them. Some have been barely worn, which is such a shame! Hopefully whenever you have it I can get down there to join in ;) Els Good excuse for a catch up. I'd be in that.
What a good idea, wish I lived in Melbourne too!! That sounds like fun... too bad I'm in Colorado! What a fantastic idea - if only I didn't deposit 8 bags of clothes in the local charity bin 2 weeks ago. Hmmmph.... I'm sure I'll be able to hunt out a few worthwhile things!
::24.7.06:: WTF I'm sick - yet again. It's not faaaaaaair! Every time I start feeling well, I seem to overdo things and relapse. It's a viscious cycle. The worst bit is that I get so frustrated with not being able to exercise and not being able to go out. I can't just sit in my room staring at the walls until I'm 100% better. That would kill me. I woke up this morning with zero energy and thought about going to work. I thought and I thought then I went back to bed. I woke up again at 11.00 am and decided I would go but first I had an errand to run. Since my sister moved here from Tassie she's not had a bed. She has a couch that she sleeps on but no bed. She expected to be working and being able to buy a bed long before now but then she got sick so has had no income for the past 2 months. She finally got some sickness benefits payment from Centrelink on Friday. On the weekend we went to Ikea and she looked at bed (I curled up on one and napped while she did that). We went to the cafe and she debated buying a cheap bed vs waiting to get the one she wants when I remembered I had a mattress in my storage space. Der! It's not a big mattress - I used to have a day bed in my old sunroom which was one of those old cast iron beds. It's narrower than a regular single bed and had a base and mattress made to fit it. Still a narrow mattress beats no mattress. So anyway we went to my storage space today to get it. First off I'd lost the key to the padlock on my storage space so I had to get it cut off and buy a new one ($12) then we had to try to get the mattress into my car but still be able to use the rear view mirror and the gear stick. We managed all that and I finally got to work. My poor storage space is looking very empty - next month I'm moving out. It costs me a fortune (more than the furniture in it would cost to buy new over the period I've had it) and it's too far away. I can get something much cheaper close to home. Oh yeah, I forgot to mention this before - with all the flatmate debacle last week, I started looking on realestate.com.au for a new place then decided I want to buy not rent but I can't afford to buy at the moment so I'm going to stick it out here with my cheap as chips rent for about a year until I can buy a little place of my own. Anyway I had to go to the gym after work because I had a session booked with my personal trainer. I'd been planning to do cycle class straight after but felt like shit. I couldn't cancel the PT session without giving 24 hours notice so I went along and did that then came home. Grrrr! I hate not being able to exercise when I plan to.
How horrible to be sick AGAIN! Very, very frustrating :S Saving to buy is a brilliant plan. Every time you want to throttle them, just imagine how great it will be to have your own place! (and maybe picture yourself banging them on the head with your broken frypan...)
It totally sucks when your are sick!! I am 10 days into head cold and still don't feel any better!! I think the cold, cold winter weather doesn't help.
::23.7.06:: Warning! If you live in Melbourne and you want to go to the Jam Factory, they now charge a $15 flat rate for parking over an hour. If you purchase something over $5 and have a receipt (note: you get no receipt for food purchases) you get it half price but that's still $7.50. I'm so very mad. That sounds a bit much but if Melbourne is becoming anything like congested Sydney, it kinda makes sense. It may force us all to use public transport more. I don't know...just trying to put a positive spin on it and nope, I'm not a car driver. I should just shut up hey. That is one of the reasons I don't get to the city more often! $15? That's disgraceful. I can park in the city all day for less than that.
Gorgeous I can't believe it - I've been bitching about how cold it is for months then today - slap bang in the middle of winter - I went for a run and actually worried that I should have put on sunscreen. Admittedly, I am very sun conscious but this gorgeous weather for winter. I ran 12 km today, I think. The signs around here are so dodgy - I ran to Royal Park with a lap around Princes Park in the middle. One sign said it was 4 km to Royal Park then you go along a bit further and it says 4.3 km to Royal Park? Weird stuff. I had a lazy day of shopping and massage and eggy brunch yesterday followed by a night of Australian music legend, Don Walker, at a country pub. Today I cleaned and dusted then ran. Tonight I'm cooking my favourite Coriander and Lemon Chicken for dinner then chilling out. Kathryn, that is great. Sounds like you are starting to get the distance back in your legs to feel confident for the city to surf.
You are going to whoop City to Surf's but at this rate. PS you're too skinny - go eat a cookie or two yourself!! hehe Good for you recognising the need to stop worrying about every mouthful. And running 12km. I am so jealous.. You are obviously a very capable runner. Great weather in the morning, but how was the pelting rain this afternoon?!!! Having said that, great effort with your 12K run! Sounds like you've had yourself a weekend. BTW, I'm having your coriander and lemon chook recipe as well tonight!! I really have to try this chicken dish don't I? Does it have magical powers to make me run as far as you do!??!!
Do you have something you can wear that tells you how far you have run? Can those Polar watches (or a cheaper version) do it? I'm sure you know what you're average per hour is by now anyway hey. Either way, good going with the running!
::22.7.06:: Weigh In 71.5 kg Yeah, I'm up again this week. I'm not too fussed about it because I had poo issues again this morning. Also I've been back to the gym this week and it always takes at least a week for cardio to show up on the scales for me. Andrew came over to watch the football with my sister the other day and so I went into spend some quality time with him (okay, I went in to scab his chocolatey football treats). We were talking about something, I can't remember what, and he said if I'd be the type of footy coach who, if my team were on a winning streak, I'd change the lineup just for the sake of it. And it's true. That's what I did. Before I would average 1,500 calories a day and I'd do around 500 calories worth of cardio a day. Doing that, I averaged around a 1 kg loss a week. Then I read stuff about as you get closer to goal, the less you should eat. So I cut back on my daily calories. Suddenly everything became a stress: I'd debate over my morning coffee or a piece of fruit. I couldn't eat the food I needed because I didn't have the calories. I felt like I could *never* have any kind of treat. So, in the end, I'd think stuff this, and threw the plan out the window. I haven't counted calories or tracked my food in weeks. I'm going to be at goal before I go to Sydney. That's 3 weeks to lose 1.5 kgs. I know I can do that. I'm going back to the winning formula.
Its always a good thing to go back to the basics that you know work for you. Especially when the scales get a bit stubborn! Good girl! Back to basics.... You WILL do this!! back to basics sounds like the key! hav a great wknd! You've got a good level head about your weigh in and I think that's a great way to be about this. I hear you about the winning formula and I am going back to counting and doing things the way I did when my losses were big too! You'll definitely be at goal with that attitude babe :-)
Back to bascis is the best weigh to go - it obviously worked before!! Wow, haven't checked in on you for ages...you are doing really well!! Good for you.
What ever works huh?
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::20.7.06:: The Sweetest Words... I picked my new top up off layby tonight and had a look in shop for a skirt to go with it. They'd had it on a mannequin with a red pencil skirt but I couldn't find any in the shop so I asked the girl about them. She pulled out the last one in stock and said the most magical words I've ever heard: "You'd be a size 10, wouldn't you?" Yeah, that's right. She thought I was a size 10. I love her. She is my angel. No one's ever thought I was a size 10 before, except for maybe when I was about 4 years old. The skirt was a bit on the tight side but it fitted! She trying to get me in a size 12 tomorrow. oh that is just a sweet, sweeeeeeeet moment :) Did you kiss her??!
By Is there a law against hugging shop girls?
*nods* Yup, kissing would have been in order.
By sounds like another photo shoot coming up. how cool. that is a moment to be treasured!!!!!!!!! :) Love it!!!!! THat sounds lik ea truly magical moment, one which you have earned with all your commitment.
WOW size 10, Just wow! I want pictures damn it! New top and cool new skirt, nice.
Kathryn's Guide To Eating Apples Since I'm such an expert at consuming large quantities of apples, I thought I'd share some handy tips:
See it's simple to eat 4 kgs of apples a week. The hard bit is carrying them home from the market! 4kgs! Far out! I'm more of a banana lover. Apples don't do it for me really.
Isn't it funny, I just started eating apples again today!
By I hereby christen you Blog Apple Queen - what a great list packed full of sneaky ways to get one's fruit intake up! Love the grating over cereal idea :)
you are SO on the money. pink ladies rule! I'm into Fuji apples, myself, though the Pink Lady definitely has its place. Thinking of getting some and making a nice crumble, though I would really struggle to get through 4 kilos a week!
OK This is like a punishment list for me!! Mmm, I like the grated apple over cereal idea. I'm more of a Royal Gala fan, myself.
Wow! 4kg's of Apples....that's amazing! Yum, yum, yum! I'm an apple whore too and love a good apple in season. They're great in a Date & Apple Slice too :-)
::19.7.06:: Run Baby Run There's a run I do along the Merri Creek, 2 kms each way. I've never cracked it in under 30 minutes. I'm sure I've done 4kms in under 30 minutes elsewhere (and definitely on the treadmill) but never along this track. This morning I went out for a run and did the first 2 kms in 15 mins. I turned around and pushed my legs to the limit on the way home, convinced that today would be the day... 32 minutes, damn it all. I swear, despite signs to the contrary, it's more than 4 km. Also instead of stopping to check the time when i turn around, I should keep running. It all adds up. Tonight I went to the dietician. I had to tell her what I normally eat and, as I reeled off the bircher muesli for breakfast and the turkey salad rolls for lunch and the stirfries and things for dinner, I had to laugh. It just sounded too perfect. 'I do eat chocolate,' I told her. She thinks chocolate is a fine thing to eat sometimes. So do I. She did give me some helpful advice: instead of just having an apple as an afternoon snack before the gym, I should eat more - some nuts or fruit toast or a yoghurt; I do eat enough protein but not enough carbs, and while she didn't believe I eat 4 kgs of apples a week, she did say to get more variety in my fruits. She gave me a booklet on foods to eat for diabetes and I freaked out at half the stuff in it. No way would I eat some ofthose things - far too many calories!
Saint Kathryn of the Angelic Foodstuffs, I kneel before thee.
4kg of apples a week is ridiculous! LOL. I wouldn't eat that many in a year. Actually maybe I would, i'm eating 3 or 4 a week now, so .... hmmm. But then you know how I feel about apples!! hehe what's the saying? "she'll be apples." I'm sure you'll crack the 30 minute mark soon. Well done for getting out there in this freezing weather. Catchin up on your posts - your flatmates need a reality check - to add to the sayings today I will add "give them an inch and they take a mile". The only way around their behavious is to do what you did and remove everything....your doing great with the running too and the PB will be not in the too distant future 8-)
By Wow - 4kgs of apples a week! I battle to get a lousy one into me a day. I'm impressed! Good going with your eating girl, you're a legend!
::18.7.06:: ...and the not so good... I got home tonight and rescued my saucepan but as I was taking my cookware into my room I found my broken frying pan. The handle was completely busted yet the person who did it had put it away and said nothing! I can't believe it. If they'd told me they'd broken it accidentally and apologised then well and good, but that's just a crappy thing to do. Also someone defrosted meat in my sister's microwave and when she went to warm up her wheat bag it was full of congealed blood. Obviously the "please wipe out the microwave sign on the door" isn't enough. I found a notice up at a nearby cafe for a 1 bdrm flat to rent but I can't afford it at the moment and part me feels like I shouldn't have to move because of other people's crap. I think I'll just stay here and declare war. Man, this is so turning into a "I hate my flatmates" blog rather than a weight loss blog but then everything in life is interconnected and stuff. I think I did remarkably well today considering - all the housemate crap, plus I had a meeting with my writing teacher to explain to him why I want someone else to mark my work (ie. that he's such a dusty old academic that he doesn't really 'get' what I'm doing and therefore the feedback I get from him is not really helpful) and did I use that as an excuse to pig out? Did I get all wah-wah, I can't cope with confrontation? Nope. I ate well and wagged my novel class to go do a spin class instead. As I walked down to meet my teacher, I felt bad - am I being awful for not just accepting what I'm given and who am I to complain - all those undermining thoughts. Then I thought hey, he'll turn up late and forget he arranged to meet me and be completely disorganised and that spurred me on. And I was right. Plus if I don't stand up for me, who will? This is my novel, my baby, my really important life thingy. And this is my home, the place I live and pay rent for. These things are worth fighting for. As a few commenters said, I need to make a stand to get the respect I deserve. On a completely seperate whinge - I went to Fitness First at Melbourne Central today instead of my usual branch. Holy moley, I thought my gym was crowded on Monday! I got into the change rooms and there were NO lockers. People hovered around waiting for lockers to become free but people kept coming and no one was going. I decided to take my bag into the spin room with me, which would have been a helluva lot easier if I'd not been wearing my big boots and big coat! The guy on the bike next to me told me that the Collins St branch gets so crowded you have to queue for a shower! I really appreciate my nice branch now. The class itself was good though - full on. I think that's the hardest I've worked in spin in ages, or maybe I'm just unfit from being sick. I tell you though, the dance remix of Australia Crawl's Reckless was just wrong! Btw there is no way I'll miss the Sydney Blogger's dinner (see Mary's blog for more details) -- I'm staying with my sister and she's the queen of organisation and general bossiness! She'll get me sorted.
I must say, if I came home & found one of my pots busted, it would be SO on! I'd be raising hell & asking who broke it & demand that they pay for a new one. Yes - time for a meeting and sort it all out. You shouldn't have to feel like moving. The others need to learn to respect other people's property. I loved how u wagged your novel class to go to a spin class instead. Not good about your frypan.
I'd be stashing my pots under the bed. Possibly stealthily removing one pot at a time, because I'm not exactly confrontational... And I meant to say - I really like the new template! Yikes! How many flatmates do you have? Is it time for a nice cup of tea, a sit down and how about some fucking respect around this place?
Gotta Love This... Going to Sportsgirl at lunchtime and getting a cute purple cardi reduced from $70 to $25. Even better - it's a size M. Is that a 10 or a 12?
I thought M would be a 12 - but you just don't know with those shops, they don't really have 'real' sizes do they?
who cares> its fricken tiny.
By LOL in Sportsgirl I reckon it'd be more close to an 8! YAY for new purply clothes :-)
::17.7.06:: Is This Reasonable? In my house, we don't really live communally. We all have our own stuff - my stuff is in a separate area of the kitchen. So twice lately I've been in the kitchen and found my housemates using my cookware. They've asked if it's okay and I've been a total wussbag and not said anything even though inside I'm screaming - USE MY SAUCEPANS AND I'LL KILL YOU IN YOUR SLEEP, MOFO!!! I don't know what to do. I mean, they wash things up after they use them but I feel like I don't touch anyone else's stuff so they should leave mine alone. It also bugs me that they ask if it's okay when I'm in the kitchen and they have half cooked stuff in my pans. I should say it's not okay and make them remove it just to be a bitch. The worst of it is the guy who lives here was cooking sausages in a pan FULL of oil. I kid you not. It's a nonstick frypan and he needs a whole bottle of oil? I washed that pan out very thoroughly before I used it. The other thing that bugs me is that I buy everything non-stick and if they don't wash things up properly then they'll scrape the teflon which means my stuff is wrecked. Maybe I should just take all my stuff out of the kitchen or maybe I'm just being a princess. I don't know. I got Andrew to replace the blown kitchen light on the weekend and I'm almost wishing I hadn't. With no light, none of the housemates cooked. Didn't worry me that much cos I'd just use my bedlight but the others aren't that ingenious. Now they are using my light to cook with my pans! *** I went to the gym tonight and did a big hilly run. I hadn't been planning on running since I was so stuffed after yesterday but I finished work early and didn't want to hang around waiting for spin class. Afterwards I did a weights session. I got really pissed off because Monday is always crowded at the gym and there were heaps of personal trainers working out with clients. Some of those PT's think they own the gym. It's bad enough without them doing boxing sessions in the middle of the weights room and shit like that. I so didn't want to go to the gym tonight at all. It was the biggest effort to drag myself there. But I did it and even upped my weights - except the Lat Pulldown. Last time, I put it up 10 kgs more than my trainer suggested, this time I couldn't even manage the weight she said. Different gym, different machine - who knew it would change that much though? *** Now I must go to the kitchen and make sure my pan has been properly washed up then investigate lockable cupboards (I have a feeling secondhand office furniture shops could be the best bet -- an old stationery cupboard with a lock).
Hmmm tricky situation when you still want to be on good terms with people, and when you know they can sabotage it all when you are not there anyway. I think you are on the right track with a lockable cupboard of some sort. It is not princessey and you aren't making too much of a big deal about it. It is all about RESPECT and I think it would have been respectful to ask you first and then be OK when you told them to Piss off. (not that I think those would have been your exact words LOL). I had that problem on the leg press machine in Kerikeri - until I realised it already had a 40kg weight on it permanently! It's a difficult situation darl, but like M said, it's all about respect isn't it. I think it's perfectly reasonable to not want other people to use your stuff. Maybe you might have to store your cooking equipment in your room from now on!!
By I think you are entitled to keep your own things in good condition for yourself. You don't use their stuff! Keep it in your room. It would be SO annoying if someone else damaged your things when you are so careful.
Totally sympathize. The last time I had housemates, they didn't use my stuff without asking, but one of their boyfriends did. *urgh* yep, plain and simple respect. Time to kick the repeat offender out so you can find another housemate. Yes, they're are great ones out there!
::16.7.06:: Tired I've been reading all about the blogger meet on everyone's blogs and am so sorry I missed it. The photos are great - everyone looks so happy and shiny! Today I went to Princes Park for a run. I'm such a doofus - I sat around trying to work out if I wanted to run or not. See before my car got fixed and before I got ill, I'd run down to Princes Park (3km) then do a lap or two and run home. Today I thought about doing that but didn't want to get stuck with a 3km run home if it started raining. On the other hand, I really wanted to run outside, not at the gym. Eventually my pea-brain worked out I could drive to the park and run. Der! I did 3 laps (around 9.5 km) - the first one I ran, the second two I needed to take some walk breaks. Wah! Where has my fitness gone? Come back fitness, I need you. I thought about doing a fourth lap just as a walk but was bored of the same track around so came home instead. It really knocked me out and I had to have a nap afterwards. How weird is this? I got home and our wheelie bins were out on the nature strip. I seriously had to check the house number on the bins against the house number on the gate to believe they were ours. I couldn't work it out because I knew I hadn't done it and I knew my sister hadn't. Then I remembered our landlord had been around earlier in the day so he must have done it. One day my housemates will put the bins out and I'll surely faint! The rest of my day was quiet. I wanted to do some rewriting of my book for class this week so printed it out and went to the coffee shop and had a chai and worked on it. Now I'm waiting for my sister to wake up. We bought canneloni at the market and were going to cook it for dinner tonight and I don't want to cook just mine (we have our fridges in our rooms - weird, I know, but that's how our house works). I don't know if I mentioned this before but since my sister moved in she's been plagued with sickness. Even worse than me. She's had glandular fever and tonsilitis and all other manner of disease. Now she had to go have tests done cos she has some mystery illness. It bugs me cos she's always sleeping when I want to watch her cable telly. I thought about going to body balance today but decided napping and writing were more important. I had a big thinky moment after body balance the other night. I spent the whole class thinking 'I'm so crap at this, why am I here?' but as I walked out of class all calm from the meditations, I realised I had it wrong. The reason I'm there is BECAUSE I'm crap at it. I need to do the stretching and core exercises because that's where I'm really weak. My flexiblity is non-existant. At the end of the day, it's not like any of us *need* to be the best at these things. We aren't going to run in the Olympics or become the world Body Balance Champ (if such a thing exists). How often do we get discourage because we aren't the best at something (often, if you are me)? But, newsflash, the chances of being the best are pretty remote. From now on, I'm going to focus on becoming better - a better runner, more flexible, better flexibility, better fitness. I'm there because I *need* to be, not to impress anyone else, not even to impress myself. Words of wisdom! Focus on improvement, not competition.
I agree, you don't have to be better than anyone else, you just need to better yourself.
Thats it girl - BFL mantra "Focus on Progress not Perfection" I love Body Balance and I am crap at it too! I seemed to have lost my balance in my old age, lol! I have noticed I get so much more out of it when I soley focus on me and not how great everyone else is at it. i totally know where you are coming from in regards to housemates not using your stuff properly!!! i got a brandy new wok for xmas and within the week my housemate was using metal tongs in it!!! scratches everywhere!!! common sense did not occur to her!!! im usually a wuss too about telling them to be careful how they use my stuff. i was so upset thou! so i dont't buy anything new or good anymore - our lease ends in oct and i am moving out!!!!
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Wow, good going with the running. I totally understand the "where has my fitness gone?" scenario but you'll get it back and I will too.
::15.7.06:: Oops I so wanted to go meet up with the other Melbourne bloggers today but it wasn't meant to be it seems. I could lie about my reasons for a no show but I'm not the kind of person to hold back from making myself sound like a doofus. I got up nice and early this morning, planning on a 9.30 cycle class but I felt like shit so went back to bed. When I woke up again it was 11.45 and I freaked. Then I checked the train timetable - if I caught the 12.13 express into the city, I reckoned I could make it. I rushed through my shower and chucked on some clothes then threw all my stuff into my handbag. As I left the house, I decided to take my ipod and ran back for it. I got to the train station in plenty of time but, when I went to buy my ticket, I realised I'd grabbed my backpack instead of my handbag! I had no money, nothing except my scungy post-gym undies from last night and some supermarket receipts. Arrrgghh! I could have almost ran home and changed bags and made it back to the train in time except my shoes were sodden from the wet streets plus I had no house keys (they were also in the other bag) so had to get my sister up to answer the door. To make things worse, my old mobile is now officially cactus so I've changed phones but have no one's mobile number. I decided it was a sign from the universe to stay at home. Damn it. I expect to see lots of lovely photos on everyone's blog and I'll definitely get my shit together for the next meetup. Shoe Alert I went to the outlet shop to get my comfy but ugly shoes yesterday. Luckily I ended up with comfy and cute shoes - a pair of black mary janes (called Doris which doesn't sound too groovy). They were $90 with full orthopedic support, perfect for walking to work and other such activities. When we walked into the shop, they had a table filled with the grooviest shoes - lots of little flats in pinks and greens and reds. We 'oohed' and ahhed' until the lady told us they were samples and only in size 6. If you live in Melbourne and are a size 6 foot, I highly recommend you get to Walk On Footwear on Queen's Parade. $40 a pair, bargain!
Oh Kathryn, sounds like you were the victim of a comedy of errors (or stuff-ups, really) :)
Aww sounds like a crappy day hun! No wonder you didn't reply to my sms and my calls wouldn't go through. Will swap details on msn again. Sorry should have said meet up with you
I agree with the gals! No problems at all. Just know that you were missed, but you havent let us down.
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Bummer, I hate those days, but it's definitely the Universe trying to tell you something. LOL days like these, you just gotta laugh and have a drink :-) Cute shoes! I like Mary Janes (or as they call 'em, Doris).
Those shoe's are ssoooo cute, Kathryn! Thank's for the link, it seem's I also have to start buying shoe's outside of running with full "orthopaedic support".
::14.7.06:: Weigh In - 70.8 kgs A gain on 0.3 kgs in the past 2 weeks. Not good but not unexpected since I've been unable to exercise for most of that time. And yeah, I have been living on lozenges and chocolate. My eating habits can be so bad when I'm sick. I can't even be bothered heating up something from the freezer so I just eat junk but I have tried to get a decent amount of vegies into me. It amazes me when people talk about struggling to eat their 5 serves of vegies or whatever the recommended level is. It's something I've never had probems with. I guess I've been lucky in a way because even though I've been overweight all my life (oh yeah, except for now!), I've always eaten healthy meals. I prefer to eat lean meat and have never eaten stuff like chicken skin (yuk). I go crazy if I go for a day with no vegies. Five serves - phht! I'd happily eat that in one meal. Even when I was a kid, I loved vegetables. I bet my Mum used to wonder why other parents complained because my sister and I would whinge if we didn't get enough vegies. We loved it when Dad wasn't home for dinner because we could talk Mum into making us a huge pot of vegie mash. We'd bitch if she made us eat *gross* stuff like steak or chops. My other big love is fruit. I probably eat too much fruit. I can buy a huge bag of apples at the market and still run out before the week is out. There are few fruits or vegetables I won't eat. Eggplant is the only exception I can think of. It's never been what I've eaten at meal times that's been my problem (well, when I cooked myself, otherwise it used to be pizza or Thai), the main issue for me has been what I ate between meals. I have the sweetest tooth ever and would eat a family block of chocolate every night after dinner. We'd have a big meal then Andrew would say... mmm, how about I go to the shops? And we'd get a block of Black Forest chocolate and wolf it down without really tasting it. If I had a moment of boredom at work (which was often), I'd run to the vending machine. I'd eat "healthy" stuff like Boost smoothies and sugar laden muesli from the coffee shop. So yeah, when I started losing weight, the main thing was not changing my meals but changing my snacks and cutting out mindless eating. I've never cut down my portion sizes but will serve up a huge bowl of food that is 75% or more of vegies. I'll snack on carrot and capsicum sticks with some yummy low fat dip. And, on that note, I must dash. I'm picking up Andrew and we are going to Preston market to do our shopping before work this morning - I hate those weekend crowds. I love going to the market with Drew. For starters, it's the only way I can ensure he gets some heathly food into him now he's left home. Plus he's my pack horse, because someone's got to cart those apples around for me. And it's nice to spend some time with him. That's great about your fruit n vege habits....I really don't like fruit. I think it comes from my mum forcing me to eat lots of cheap apples and oranges as a kid. I think you have given me an idea for a challenge this week - 2 pcs of fruit a day. Have a great weekend and enjoy your shopping.lb.
By I was expecting to come here and find you'd reached goal this week. 0.8grams to go! Come on girl............
oh - you are sick too? it sucks doesn't it? I love working out and HATE when I get too sick to do it! Like now! Then, I start to eat shit too out of pure frustration.
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Sounds interesting - I have always ated veggies. And never cooked before I started BFL earlier this year. My tastes have changed! There's only a few veggies I dont like. Pumpkin, sweet potato, beans, brussel sprouts Peas are OK if mixed with corn or something else. But anyway I eat veggies now but no way do I get 5 servings of veg and 2 of fruit per day. I love fruit but I rarely eat it. I do have some bananas yellowing up on my fruit bowl though.
Cant wait to meet you tomorrow!
By I am very VERY similar to you in this respect and the snacking has been minimised! I generally do eat well but it's how much and yep, the snacks that are the factor.
::12.7.06:: Oops... I decided I was well enough to go to the gym tonight and do my weights workout but when I got on the treadmill to warmup, ended up doing a bit of a run for half an hour. I'm feeling fine so no harm done. Tonight was my first time doing my new weights program without my personal trainer. I wanted to get in and do it before I forgot what I had to do. I think I did most of it right. She had down 35 kgs for the lat pulldown and that felt incredibly light so I put it up to 45 kgs. Not sure if she'd written it down wrong or my lats have just become super strong! Afterwards, I headed to the steam room. I'm not a fan of the steam but humidity is very good for bronchitis so I sweated out 20 minutes in there. It worked a treat going by what I hoiked up on the way home. Oh yeah, that is definitely too much info! Sorry. Tomorrow I'm planning on some light cardio and then body balance class, Friday an easy run. Hopefully I'll be all shiny new by then. I've decided I'm going to be at my goal weight before I go to Sydney. I can do that. We can call you 'Super Lat Girl'. Half an hour running and you're not feeling well??? You're my hero! You'll definitely be at goal, well done!
::10.7.06:: Feet I went to the podatrist on the weekend. She said my feet were great, they aren't diabetic feet at all. That rocks. I always thought I had great feet but it's nice to have an expert confirm it. She gave me a list of running shoes that are best for my feet so as soon as I get some funds, I'm going shopping. I guess there is no point buying them until I get over this sickness because it would kill me to have new running shoes and not test them out. She also told me a place to get good orthapedic ugly but comfy shoes for walking to work. It's a factory outlet and just around the corner from home so worth checking out. I am looking at running shoes now. Man, someo of them are ugly. I'm sure my podiatrist said I need purple shoes. Or maybe red. Red make you run faster. Hey, I figured it out - they make running shoes ugly so you run faster. You don't want anyone to see you in ugly shoes.
LOL! I heard him say purple.
By hehe - yip you'll definately want to be going at a fair speed to avoid being seen. ;)
My dumb feet only fit in running shoes made in blue - usually baby blue with silver bits!
I don't care how comfortable and how 'good for my feet' ugly shoes are - i'm soooo not wearing them!!
My sis and I call orthopedic shoes, 'chemist' shoes. Yeah! Red definitely makes you run faster and purple well, they're the best colours :-) I think most gym shoes are ugly and those that aren't are bloody useless for support. Run baby run....LOL. I hate buying sports shoes - there aren't many in size 11. The ones I have now are comfortable but they're so old the white bits are a dull mushroomy grey/taup/pink - I think the soles have entire new life forms growing in them.
::9.7.06:: Weird Weekend On Friday night, my friend Dave come over for birthday drinks. We watched a movie and sat around chatting then he left to drive home. Within minutes, he knocked on my window. His car was gone. I went out and it definitely had disappeared. Then my sister came out to help check, even though it had been directly across the road from our house. It felt unreal, like when you think your car has gone from the shopping centre car park but really it's on another level. But there are no levels outside my house. The car was most definitely gone. I drove Dave to the police station then home. We cursed out the scum who do these things. Anita and I decided to become Veronica Mars style detectives and solve the case. We had some nifty ideas, like asking the neighbours if they'd seen anything and looking for clues. Saturday the cops rang Dave. They found his car. Around the corner from my house, with the stereo and ashtray stolen. Don't get me wrong, I'm absolutely overjoyed that Dave got his car back and all, but it kinda kills your girl-detective rep when the car is discovered around the corner. I had thought of searching the nearby streets on the way home but I thought the perps (and car) would be long gone... and it was late and petrol isn't cheap. Now Dave says I'm a horrible detective. But I would have found it eventually. Who knew the cops were so on the ball? Last night Anita and I watched National Lampoon's Barely Legal - a great movie if you like purile teen humour (we do) and made pretty sparkly signs to educate the housemates. Signs like - "please flush the toilet" and "don't leave your washing up in the kitchen for a week." I'm sure they'll welcome the opportunity for self-improvement. My doctor said I could go back to the gym this weekend. He lied. I could no more go to the gym than I could... well find a missing car parked around the corner. Maybe I could go, but I sure couldn't exercise while I was there. I'm getting fed up. I feel like every weekend all I do is rest and sleep so I'm fit enough to go to work on Monday. I want my life back. My City to Surf running schedule is gathering dust. I haven't been eating much because I've lost interest but when I do eat, I've been living on lozenges and chocolate. Not such a balanced diet. I have a new favourite drink - water with lemon juice. It's like lemon cordial without the annoying, sickly sugar. Yum. I did get some things achieved this weekend - changed and laundered the bed linen (esp nice after having night sweats last week), rewrote a chapter of my book. Tonight Anita and I were chatting about stuff, like if we could time travel back and met our past selves, what we'd say to them. Our past selves had an excitement in living that we lack now. The sagest advice we could up with was to stock up on Dusty Rose lipstick before it gets discontinued. Yep, we are that shallow. But I think, looking back on any of my past selves, the main thing I'd say would be to believe in myself. So now I'm giving that advice to my current self, to save my future self from the need. I will believe - that I can finish my novel and get it published, that I can get to my goal weight and maintain it, that I am fabulous and sexy, that what I want to do right now is the right thing to do. Hey nice template change.
Great new look!
oh i love that last para...
Hey! I've been lipstick shopping the past week and saw a Revlon Dusty Pink in Priceline. Is that the same thing I wonder?? There was a great story in the news here last week about a stolen car. This woman's car was stolen and when the police recovered it a week later the thieves had done it up! New tyres, new clutch, new steering cloumn, running heaps better etc. How cool is that! Love the new look. I live on water with lemon juice in the arvo's. It kills the sweet cravings. Hope you get better soon.
Have you tried an Echinacea boost. Awesome stuff - started taking it yesterday when I felt the dreaded bug coming and this morning feel wonderful again. You are a crack up sometimes. You know when they steal something like a radio and ashtray you wish the car had disappeared - it's not worth the insurance claim for a radio and ashtray but if the cars gone you can. It's just a freaking inconvenience and a huge cost. PITA! seriously, i haven't been here for ages and i haveso much to say! oh my god! the new look is gorgeous and u r gorgeous! lol at the girl detective thing! very funny and well done for the chapter!
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LOVE the new look.
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::7.7.06:: Brave Years ago, I used to make fake fur handbags to sell at markets. They were crazy bags, an explosion of colour and texture. My favourite, that I kept for my own use, I nicknamed Grungetta (after Oscar the Grouch's gf on Sesame Street). The body of the bag was lime green fake fur with red and purple maribu feather trim. I wish I'd taken a photo, you'd love it :) Selling at markets, you get a lot of immediate feedback and the overwhelm reaction I'd get was: 'I love it but I'd never be brave enough to use it'. That always struck me as strange. Handbags aren't scary, you don't need to be brave to use them. These are things that are scary: dentists, birds, people dressed in animal costumes, clowns, ventriloquist dummies, possums. Not handbags. When I painted the lounge room in my old flat bright yellow, people said 'I love that colour but I'd never be brave enough to paint my house that colour'. When I bought my purple car - 'I'd love a purple car but I'd never be brave enough.' I've never considered any of these things particularly brave. I see something I like and I go for it. It's bright, it's pretty, it makes me happy. Some things that take real bravery. Sometimes bravery is getting out of bed in the morning and going through the motions of the day, smiling and pretending nothing's wrong. Other times, bravery is opening up and saying something when the voices inside scream for you to kept quiet. It's the little things: fronting up to a gym or putting on a pair of runners and heading out the door for a walk when all your life you've only ever associated exercise with humiliation; turning up to a barbecue with your own (healthy) food when you are known as the Cheesecake Queen; refusing seconds; signing up for a fun run; walking into an exercise class you've never done before; deciding to do it anyway when your exercise buddy lets you down; ignoring the excuses you've used every other time; knowing you are going to be crap but not caring. On the surface, getting started towards a healthy lifestyle doesn't seem like that big a deal - it's the smart option and much better than ruining your health and your looks - but beneath it all, it's hella brave and hella scary. It isn't just about eating right and doing some exercise. I hate people who say that, like they'd tell an alcoholic all they need to do is stop drinking! The hard part, the gut-wrenchingly scary part, are those moments when you dig deep into your soul and defy your own perceptions of yourself. If you've spent years, maybe a lifetime, being the girl who mocks exercise and orders desert, it's a huge turnaround in who are. I come from a family where our memories revolve around overindulgence. A good night out is one where you have to unbutton your pants. We take food seriously. You have a role to play, and that role has never been the voice of reason or the voice of healthy choices. And within any group, these roles stack up like cards in card house. You move one and all the others shift. Sometimes the whole structure collapses. Bravest of all is taking a long, honest look at yourself and realising you have to change. Being obese in our society is like farting in an elevator. Everybody knows but no one acknowledges it. You put on your poker face and pretend it's not you. For years, I'd hide the shopping bags from Fat Shops and take the label off of my clothes. If I shopped with friends, I'd say I only needed shoes. If nobody knew I bought fat clothes, then they wouldn't realise I was fat. You can't change without acknowledging what you are. Everyday I see examples of people being brave, people who challenge themselves and push themselves, who fail yet get up and try again. You all are wonderful people who have said some mighty complimentary and head swelling things to me lately, without the motivation and support you give me every day, I'd be nothing. We are all brave in the steps we take, the small things we do every day and we should be justifiably proud of us.
You are about the only one that can make me cry and laugh at the same time. My mother once forbade me to get a purple car (well she was paying for some of it) because people would think that I was a lesbian. Seriously. You hit the nail on the head chick! Bravery is just the word to describe what is needed on this journey :O) Birds are definitely big on my scary list!!
Truly brilliant post. Loved it.
This is a brilliant post. Thanks for writing it. That is a beautiful post Kathryn. Very wise words indeed and you just reminded me to go for a runeven though I don't feel like it. We are all indeed very brave as we continue to step up to the plate each day even after we have been knocked down. Thank you for this post mate! Mate - on the mark. A wonderful post! what a fabulous post Kathryn! your blog looks great too!
Holey moley...I have 31 of your posts to catch up on!!
A truly fabulous post, Kathryn. You know it....luv the new blog style, luv the pics and luv your sentiment.....it is really motivating to read your thoughts Kath as I can sooooo empathise with them. Thanks for sharing - you really make me feel like I can do it.
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What a great post Kathryn - you have such a great way with words and just putting it down in such a wonderfully easy readable way (I am sure all those words shouldn't be used together but they say what I want to say right now !)
What a great post!
What a wonderful eloquent post Kathryn. You write so well.
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That was a fantastic post. You write so well. And you are dead on, changing your body and your life is more about bravery than simply exercising more.
No Weigh In I decided not to weigh myself today because I'm sure my body contains kilograms of mucus and phlegm at the moment. Plus I've been up all night coughing and drinking water. I can't sleep for more than 2 or 3 hours at the most. Then I wake up and cough and cough and cough. At 3.00 am, I woke up feeling like absolute shit. All I wanted was more sleep. And, if I couldn't sleep, I wanted a cigarette. I made do with a lozenge but I'm so sick of blackcurrant soothers. As soon as I put the lozenge in my mouth, I had a coughing fit and swallowed the thing whole! My head ached and I had period pains. Nobody has felt as much self pity as me at 3.00 am. In the end, I went into the bathroom and steamed my head then slept for a few more hours. I wish these antibotics would start working.
I hope you feel better soon - this really seems to be taking it's time to go.
Sorry to hear you're so under the weather. Definitely bed rest required! I hope you get better soon ;)
Poor thing! that sounds horrible, this isn't the same flu is it?
I do hope you are feeling much better soon! Poor girl!
You poor darling!
::6.7.06:: Before and After I thought I'd post these two pictures together. One was taken about five years (the one on the left that is) and the other is the recent one that I posted a few days ago. It's good to remember myself how far I've come for those days I feel fat and miserable.
I had to come out of lurkdom for this. In both photos your personality still shines through! WOW! You look great!
By Using the words of an old cliche "A picture (or two) say a milion words" - what an amazing difference - well done on what you have achieved !
WOW!! I would be printing this out and putting it in my wallet to carry around. That way when you next get a case of the "oh crap I don't feel like going to the gym" you can whip this out and get all enthused again.
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You look amazing, I love your new profile photo. Sorry to hear that you're not well. Hope you feel better soon. At least the weekend is nearly here.
Look at you go! Simply amazing! Fantastic before & after! You have worked so hard and come so far. I am so proud of you. You are my poster girl!! Love your style too.
You have come so far Kathryn - you should be very proud of all you have achieved!
Sick Day I had the day off sick today but then seemed to spend half my time running around so am very tired now. I went to the market and got my shopping done, which will save me having to battle the crowds on the weekend. I love going to the market midweek when it's quiet and calm. Now I'm stocked up on necessities plus I got a huge bunch of daffodils. I love daffodils, only$2 and they are so cheerful and sweet smelling. The best thing about them though is they remind you no matter how cold and miserable the weather, spring isn't far off. I need that right now. Then this afternoon we went to see Pirates of the Carribean, figuring that movie rest is as good as bed rest. I now doubt this theory. I kept hoping the movie would end soon so I could get home, but at least Johnny Depp has medicinal properties.
Hope you feel better soon Kathryn.
I totally agree with you re Johnny Depp. Yum ;) Johnny Depp has medicinal qualities!! *laugh* Very true!!
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::5.7.06:: Blush I'm blushing from all the compliments. I've got to admit, they are flattering photos and I don't look like that in real life. I wore my new dress to work today. I'm always torn when I buy something new that I love - I want to wear it straight away but I also don't want to use up all the magic. Today I couldn't resist. Normally I wear a singlet then a couple of long sleeved tee shirts with a jumper or cardigan over the top to work. It keeps me warm but sometimes I feel so frumpy and ungirlie. My lovely new dress is 30% wool and lined, so I wore it and stayed toasty warm without even turning my heater on. This morning I went to the doctor. He said I have bronchitis and I need antibiotics, he also admited my duffel coat and told me about the one he had when he was young that he loved, but best of all, he said I should be back exercising by the weekend (just in time for the NRG run with the Ausrun girls!). All things going well, I can do my first solo run through of the program my PT created for me this weekend too. It's weird... when I first went to her, she was reluctant to give me a program because she prefered working with clients.. blah, blah, blah.. now she's got a promotion to another branch so giving me a program was no bother. Suits me fine and it's a good program - exercises that work multiple muscle groups plus my core so I get lots of bang for my buck with a short routine. I have one last session with her in a few weeks to refine things and ensure my form is right so it's all good. I'm going to be buff like Buffy. Other good things include seeing the podiatrist and dietician soon. I have appointments set up and I will be picking their brains extensively. I haven't been tracking lately but think I'll go back to it so I can get show the dietician and get her to really fine tune things. It's wonderful being able to wear girly clothes! I don't think I commented yesterday (brain is turning to mush here!) but you look wonderful, just wonderful, in your new clothes. Glad to hear that the flu might finally be on it's way!
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Bronchitis is not a good thing but great that it has be diagnosed and you will be back to normal as soon as the meds kick its sorry butt back where it should be.
::4.7.06:: Dress This is the dress. I look so saintly... dunno how that happened.
Hot to trot! Where are you taking it? That dress (and the gal in it) deserve a night out.
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Feeling hot, hot, hot? You look amaaaaazing. Check those cheekbones! I love it! supahot. and i love your style, sassy and 20s and i love your hair too :) Absobloodylutely drop dead gorgeous! What a fantastic dress! If I lived near that clothes shop, I swear my Visa card would never forgive me. love the photo's - you look like a model!!
You are looking gorgous!! *wolf whistles*
By G.O.R.G.E.O.U.S! I love it - you look fantastic. wow, 1920s girl really does suit u :) u look great, check out the collarbones on u! You are a crack up. What a great outfit. And those cheekbones, and slim arms. WOW - you are sensational :) Sexy, gorgeous, hot damn woman...Foxy Lady! *wolf whistles* What a great series of photos - you look phenomenal :) *wolf whistles*
Meet Up
I plan to be there if I'm not infectious!
LOL!!
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LBD I'm so turning into one of those old ladies like my Nan. You know the type - the ones you are to scared to say "how are ya..." to because you know they'll tell you, for hours and hours. But tonight I'm feeling rather chipper! I had an awful arvo: I wanted to leave real early, like after lunch but things got dragged out and I finally got away at 4.00 hoping for some nice bed rest but it wasn't to be thanks to those pusculating genitalia heads that run our public transport system. I catch the tram near the museum, just on the outskirts of the city. So I waited and the first tram was packed to the rafters. You couldn't have fit a dust mote on there, let alone me. So I thought no worries, the next one will be better. Four very sardine-filled trams later, I cracked. I thought of walking into the city and catching the train home then realised if the trains were running, the trams wouldn't be so packed. Normally I'd think nothing of walking home but today, with my battered lungs and my work shoes on, it was the last thing I wanted to do. After another couple of trams went passed without stopping, I realised things were only going to get worse. It was nearly peak hour. I started walking then clever worked out I could catch the Brunswick St tram. Still a bit of a walk home, but not nearly so far. As I passed the train station near home, they were putting an announcement over - the trains weren't stopping between Clifton Hill and Jolimont. For those of you without an intimate knowledge of the Epping and Hurstbridge lines, what that means is I could have caught the train home and it would have actually been an express! IF one of those lousy tram drivers had bothered telling us. I hate public transport. But this was meant to be about why I'm chipper. See after I got home, I went to my favourite neighbourhood clothing store and picked up my sexy black dress off layby. Woohoo! Pictures to come. And, since I've been eyeing off these cute little cherry tops for the past few weeks, tried one on. They didn't have a 14 so I tried a 12, thinking it would be too small but would fit by spring. But it fits now. And that rocks. I mean it probably would have looked a lot better had I not taken my bra off when I got home from work but I'm prepared to make the leap of faith that bra will only improve matters. I think the top needs a red pencil skirt though. And some sexy red heels. Oh and there was the most divine 30s style tea dress with roses. That shop is going to be the death of my budget. Btw, this is the first time I've ever had a LBD. I've had many a black dress before, but at size 24-26, you could hardly call them little! I think I need to visit this shop, you make it sound divine. Congrats on the sz 12 top. Hope you are feeling better soon.
I'm with you on the LBD mine have always been BBD too!
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YAAYYYYYYYYYYY on the size 12 top that fits you now - good for you ! How exciting to have a LBD - it's been 6 years since I've worn one, so I totally understand how great this is for you! And to fit in a size 12 top is great! You'll have to tell us where this shop is, all the clothes you describe sound wonderful!
My Ongoing Saga of Illness I have bronchitis now, I'm pretty sure. Woohoo, that means I can take antibotics and get better. That is my plan anyway. In the meantime, I can't smoke and that makes me grouchy. And I can't go to the gym. That makes me grouchy too. Plus I had to come to work today. Cos I have responsibilities and .... well okay, I had to come in because I don't fax off my timesheet today, I don't get paid. I think you might be worth staying away from!
Hey don't worry honey, i'll chuck down a couple of extra ciggies for you! haha
::3.7.06:: Celebrity Slimdowns Usually I have no interest in the goings on of celebrities - I've got enough shit to deal with in my own life without worrying about Paris Hilton or Victoria Spice Girl or some other airhead - but today my sister and I got sucked into watching Celebrity Slimdowns on cable. I can only blame my raging fever. The thing that struck us both was that, with the possible exception of Oprah Winfrey, every single one of them looked better before. They showed Jennifer Aniston early on in Friends. She was a good looking girl. Jennifer Aniston now - a bag of bones in a designer dress. Same with Geri Halliwell and the chick that plays Sammi on Days of our Lives. I remember reading something that said the reason for the trend towards skinniness was because most fashion dictators are gay men. They are attracted to body shapes that resemble young boys. I'm not sure if that's true or not, but I'd say the fashion dictators today are more like necrophiliacs - they are attracted to cadavers. I watched the Corpse Bride the other night and she looked better than most of these stars. Does anyone really find that look attractive? When you look at the woman in Hollywood with realistic bodies, stars like Kate Winslet and Rose McGowan, now they are really hot.
Even the 'normal' healthy looking celebs are skinny - it's not natural to have to work THAT hard to keep yourself THAT thin. Tab (do they still make that stuff??) and laxatives (well you know about THEM now don't you!!) can't be a good diet. How funny - I was just watching an 'E' special on the 25 most sexiest people and Jess Simpson was one of them because of her gorgeous curves and 'real' body. Obviously an old show.. If TV is meant to add 10 kilos how skinny do they look in real life?? Hope your cold goes away fast. I was just lamenting the fact that Kate Bosworth has fallen victim to the trend. She looked so good in Blue Crush with a nice healthy body, but now all her bones are showing. Not a good look on anyone.
I have to agree - the skin and bones look doesn't appeal to me at all. Actually I don't know any guys who it appeals to either !
YUCK YUCK YUCK YUCK!
Eating IssuesI've been doing some thinking about my pig out on the weekend, wondering why I do these kinds of things and have really started to work out some of the issues I have towards food. When I was growing up, my family had a real feast or famine attitude. When dad got paid, we'd have treats aplenty but then things would get sparser and sparser through the month until eating anything non-essential - a slice of bread after school, some leftovers from the fridge - would be a major issue. To make things worse, my dad was a contractor working for small businesses so he always had issues about getting paid. There was no regular date when payslip would appear. Sometimes he'd have to wait a week or more after the due date to get his money. I remember being dragged along to his boss's house on weekends when dad would go to pick up his pay and not being sure why. Looking back now, I think it was because having the kids along (and more than likely whinging about being bored and wanting to go home) made the bossman more willing to pay up. When we did have treats as kids, it was all about getting in there first and getting what you could. A fight for survival. If Mum baked a cake or bought a packet of biscuits, you had to be ready to jump in before it was all gone. If you were doing something else, maybe engrossed in a book or drawing or taking a nap, then you missed out. I'm sure in some way, it was to make Mum's stuff more important than anything else that was going on. Drop everything, grab as much as you can, or tough shit - you miss out. Of course, it's all fine to analyse this stuff and work out WHY you do things, but the more important step is work out HOW to change. I think the lesson I have to learn is that I'm in charge of my food. If I cook treats, they aren't going anywhere. I don't have eat everything at once, I can save some for later and be confident it will be there when I want it. *** My cold is back. Why does this keep happening to me? I'm cursed. I've taken today off work and I'm trying to sweat it out because I need to get back to the gym. It's less than 6 weeks to the City to Surf and I'm panicking about the meagre amount of training I've done. The longest run I've done lately is 6 km.
I think you rock!
Go you gorgous forest you !
I've been thinking about the same thing lately. I posted about it on my blog. I think our childhoods had a lot in common. Feast or famine--and so I was always in famine mode, injesting every calorie available just in case. I hope that over time, showing ourselves over and over that we are not going to starve, no one is taking our food away, will let us really believe that. Which could change everything, right? aww hope u feel better again soon, i know that cold super annoyed u last time!
drown yourself in vit c and echinacea and rest!!! Or you will stretch a 2 week cold out into a 6 week cold and you;ll be too sick to even get to sydney.
I was discussing the cold thing with a friend last night.
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Re: childhood eating issues.
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::2.7.06:: Ruined? I got up this morning and got on the scales - stupid, I know - and I'd put on A LOT of weight. So, of course, I feel into a big funk thinking I'd ruined everything. Then I had stupid thoughts: I'd spend today eating nothing and exercise myself into oblivion. That is so not the way to do things. When I'd settled down, I talked some sense into myself. Realistically, I'd only gone over my usual calories by about 1,000 or so. Okay maybe 1,500. There is no way that would add a hefty 3 kgs onto my weight. I mean, if went to the gym and did 1,000 calories worth of exercise, I wouldn't suddenly lose 3 kgs. I think a lot of the gain is water retention. I ate way more carbos than normal yesterday (not that I do the low carb thing at all) and carbs hold water. Plus salty food. Then I worked out my calender. Woohoo, I'm surely in the PMT zone. I've never been happier about an approaching period. Well maybe a few times when I was young and foolish and careless. I can recover from this. Often when I think about making this being for life, I see it as being HEALTHY every single day forever, but then I realised I could look at it the other way around. Not that I can be piggy for the rest of my life, but that one day of stupid eating is not so dramatic in the broader scheme of things. It's a delay not a derailment.
You are correct about salty foods and carbs, i'm always heavier the next day if I have eaten these things. I'm sure you'll see a difference tomorrow. Like you said one day of bad eating can't make you put on 3kg, I bet what you ate didn't even weigh that much. Well maybe !!! LOL. Just kidding.
Glad you sorted through that 3 kilo gain and worked out all the reasons. I don't think it was stupid to go on the scales this morning.You knew you had "stuffed" up a bit yesterday and if you hadn't gone on and saw the dreaded number you may not have reigned yourself in and had a good day today to make up. The scales can be our enemy but they can also be a good friend and help us a long. 1 day isn't even a derailment babe - life is like that sometimes in fact you just boosted your metabolism by having that binge - now make good use of the spike :p
One day of overeating won't undo all your hard work darl. Do what you know works, pull the reigns in and you'll be fine.
By Hi there...pleased to see you didn't let the scales get you down...I think sometimes I tend to let my emotions run away full steam after a scale reading instead of taking it in my stride and thinking about what's been happening or will be happening...good on you for a positive attitude. have a great week.lb.
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::1.7.06:: Arrrrggghhh! I haven't stopped eating today. It's like some kind of wacked out sabotage. What am I doing? I decided this morning to cook up some stuff for the freezer - little quiches and muffins plus a pot of soup. Then I didn't have anything to put them in so I thought I'd get some gladwrap later. But I didn't. I ate them all. The little quiches weren't so bad - I used bread cases instead of pastry but the muffins, even if they are low fat. Not good. Not good at all. I'm not buying those low fat muffin mixes again. They are the path to bad things.
What's doing? You're so close to 70kg. Cut it out missie! haha. Maybe buy the glad wrap in advance next time! Have a great muffin and quiche free day today!
i agree, buy the glad wrap in advance next time :)
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