[a weight loss story]
*kathrynoh at nemesis dot com dot au*
It's weird when you know something in your head but don't really understand it then suddenly out of nowhere - ping! The lightbulb moment when you realise what it really means.
Yesterday I got sick of lollygagging around being broken rib girl so decided to walk into Borders for some coffee and book reading fun. It's about 4kms so I figured I could walk it then get a tram home.
I had my flat white and a vegetable frittata then ended up walking home because Sunday trams are impossibly not there - and my impatience always overrides my laziness and my common sense at not walking too much when I'm injured.
You know, it's not the rib pain that stops you from exercising. It's that you can only take shallow breathes. That really screws you up. But that wasn't my big epithany.
I'd been reading through the Trinny and Suzanne books on how to dress and, walking home it hit me: I'm always going to have this body shape. See I'd been thinking I just needed to lose some more weight and I'd eventually have a nice flat belly - that the middle fat would get the hint. But that aint going to happen, is it. Sure it will get smaller and lesser but it's not going away. I have this shape for life.
That's why people dress for their shape. It's not because I'm fat - it's because that's the type of body I have.
For some reason, I'd been thinking this was like an exam. You get to the 'right' weight and you pass, or you don't and you fail. But there is no pass, no fail. There isn't a 'one size fits all' goal at the end of the rainbow.
And that's an amazingly liberating thought. We're brainwashed into the thinking if we do everything right one day will be a collection of perfect body parts but it's never going to happen. Ever. There is no finish line, no prize giving ceremony. There's just me with my imperfect body and you with your imperfect body - and some of those imperfect parts are damn fine.
We're more than the sum of our parts, more than just a 'renovator's delight'. Once you realise you can't reach perfection, the pressure's off. Today I'm best version of ME that I can possibly be and that's better than being some ideal cookie cutter girl.
As a friend of mine used to say - be yourself, and let yourself shine. I'm starting to get that.
I'm glad u came to this realisation. It's very healthy and uplifting and I love it when people are 'loving themselves sick'.
Thx for the reminder...glad you got yr 'miracle cure'... MUCH better than broken ribs!
By 3:34 pm, at
Awesome post Kathyrn and yeah, we're never gonna have those figures in all the mags. That and the fact we're not 14 anymore to have them either. We do have to come to accept our body shape and I really think the main thing is to be in our "Healthy Weight Range". Gotta feel pretty damn good about that :-)
By 9:25 pm, at
Very healthy attitude! Honestly, even if you got the bod you longed for, you would then find other things about yourself to focus on. When I was skinny I started to obsess about my spider veins.
I look at those young skinny chicks and think "One day you will have children & then you're pert breasts will drop to your waist and your belly will get big & you'll have cellulite"
boobs: 100 cm
waist: 81 cm
hips: 109 cm
thighs: 50 cm
Weekly Goal Lifestyle Changing Challenge-A-Rama
Week 1 - Drink more water
Week 2 - Cut out sugary treats