My eating is still out of control. I've got to do something about it. Got to stop this runaway train. Otherwise I'm going to undo all the work I've done.

I was thinking today about my Rule of Three. This got me back on track last time I went off the rails ( I'm not sure what's with all the railway talk here, but anyway). The Rule of Three is just having three little things that I am going to do to get me headed in the right direction. I mean three little things is infinitely do-able. Anyone can do three little things.

So the three things I'm going to do from tomorrow, considering I can't get back to the gym until I'm feeling a bit better are:

* drink more water
* eat real meals instead of snacking all day
* only eat fruit between meals

My main problems are that I am bored but can't do anything to alleviate the boredom while I'm feeling ill. I should learn to cope with that without resorting to food. When I first got sick, I wasn't eating much so I ate what I wanted when I wanted to eat. Now I'm eating all the time.

The other problem is that I haven't been feeling up to eating regular meals so I have just been snacking, and snacking and snacking.

Plus I've been feeling miserable. From tomorrow, this will stop. I also want to do some light exercise, maybe some walking. I was going to do that today but my muscles were aching so bad. At one stage, the muscles at the back of my legs were so sore I could hardly bare to stand. That can pass real soon.

I don't want to blow this. Screw that. What I mean to say is that I am not going to blow this. I'm the one who is in control and I decide what I eat and don't eat. This is just a setback not a sentence or a curse.

The other day, I was reading an article about exercising with the flu (ie don't) and it said that you should look at this as a chance to prove to yourself that you can get back into after a break. That's how I'm going to see it. After all I'd said about learning to trust myself, I now have the chance to demonstrate exactly that.