I saw my counsellor tonight for the first time. There was quite a bit of stuff come up, a lot of it buzzing around in my head. It might take a while to get it all sorted but there was some main issues that I need to think about.

We talked about comfort eating and she asked me how I was comforted as a child. I'd never thought about that before but I can't remember actually ever being comforted.

We also talked about not being in touch with how I feel, with eating and in other areas not having a guage to judge when I am "empty" and when I am "too full."

I'm going back next week to deal with these things more. Which is good because I have much more to say about my mother.