I realised today that I don't really have any kind of plan in my weight loss at the moment. Over the past year I've had weight loss goals and been calorie goals and exercise goals. Now I have nothing, I'm just floating around and going through the motions.

At the beginning of the year, I wanted to be able to run 5ks. Once I did that, I kind of slackened off on the running. I've been working up to the Run for the Kids, going to training sessions and running at the gym but I've found myself more likely to take a walk break later rather than pushing myself harder.

I've actually been pooing myself thinking about the R4tK later, then today I realised I only need to do 6 kmh to finish in 2 hours. I can walk faster than that. And, I figure if I take over 2 hours, I'll be running on pure nicotine withdrawal (must find out if you get disqualified for scabbing smokes from bystanders... just joking... kinda).

But anyway once that is over, I'm going to work on building up my running. Over the weekend, Simon and I discussed running a marathon as a (very) long term goal - not this year but one day. So that is something to prepare for. I want to run faster and longer. There is a 4 week running programming in this month's Women's Health and Fitness magazine so I am going to try that out.

It isn't just the running, but all my exercise has been haphazard. I used to write up my weekly schedule on the fridge and it took almost a natural disaster for me to deviate from it. Then, with my weirdarsed work routine earlier this year, I just fit in what I could. If I had time, I'd do some weights. If a class was on when I got to the gym, I'd join in. That is going to change.

I want a definite weight program with clear goals. When I get into a regular pay cycle, I think I'll book some more personal training sessions and get a program done with clear cut results. I want to keep pushing myself instead of doing a few weights here and there.

I also want to fit in some classes. I've found spin classes are great after a running day. It sounds stupid but if I am all achy from running, the spin class really helps me feel better. Simon told me this actually makes sense - his dad has run for years and swears by a bike ride after a big run. Something to do with lactic acid and other technical stuff.

The other thing I want to do is fit in some pilates/yoga classes. These have always been my bottom priority. Sometimes I'll do a body balance class if I get there. It's a hard thing for me because 1. I'm so graceless that I feel like a heffalump esp amongst the young, Asian girls in the class 2. I like to see instant results and instant improvements and 3. I like to sweat. Still I think I need the toning benefits of these classes. I did a pilates reformer class a while back and loved it but you have to book in for them so I've not bothered.

Foodwise, I've not been tracking or counting calories or even making that much of an effort for a while. Then, over the past few weeks, with everything that's been on I've just not even worried. I think I've got into a maintenance mindset which is going to rapidly turning into gains on the scales (I'm heading for a gain this week). I want to reach my 70 kg goal and, even then, I'm not sure if that's the weight I want to be. My new, just decided goal, is to get to 70 kgs by the end of May.

That's a lot of plans and goals but I can do it. I just need to get organised. Then victory will be mine.