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[a weight loss story]

kathrynoh at nemesis dot com dot au

::20.3.06::

Sniffles

I was going to go running tonight but I've got the sniffles so I thought I should rest up - can't afford to take a sickie in my first week of work. This morning was ... well, interesting... I am working in a different building to the one I was interviewed in and realised on the weekend that the woman at the agency had forgot to send me the address. By the time I'd stuffed around, trying to get in touch with her, my housemate had beaten me to the shower so I ended up running late, but it all worked out in the end.

My new boss only works part time so he gave me a quick overview this morning. I felt so overwhelmed, I wanted to run out screaming - so much to take in. Then he left me reading through stuff and it started to make sense. I always have that crisis of faith moment when I start a new job.

I'm not sure what to do about bridezilla. When I started feeling sick today, the little devil on my shoulder said - if I'm sick, I can skip the wedding (and use the travel/accommodation money on a pair of kickarse boots. If it wasn't the last chance I get to see my friends before they go back to overseas, you'd definitely see me in those boots real soon.

I really want to say something about her behaviour on Saturday night but I know if I do, she'll turn it into a total drama queen moment ... and I'd end up looking like a bitch upsetting her the week before the wedding. But, this has really reinforced some stuff I've been thinking.

This girl acts all quiet and unassuming but she is quite nasty and competitive beneath it all and that mean streak always comes out when she's drinking. And mostly it's aimed towards me. The thing is that I can be all mouthy when I'm around my friends and so she thinks it's okay to say these things but the difference is, I'd never intentionally say stuff to hurt someone.

And, to be honest, I have been really hurt by her behaviour. I feel like I've done everything I can to be supportive over the last few months and, as soon as she has other people around, she treats me like shit.

She is such a jealous person - I know she's jealous of my weight loss because other people have told me but it isn't just that. She is so bitter about anyone having anything she doesn't. Another friend went overseas last year and she got so worked up over that. I don't think she'll ever be happy because she feels like other people's achievements or possesions somehow diminish the thinks she has in life.

Anyway, what I'm thinking is that I'll play nice until after the wedding then just cut her out of my life. I really don't need that shit. I have some great people in my life who are really supportive and wonderful, I'll leave the stupid games of bitchiness and oneupmanship for those who have nothing better to do in their lives.

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i think that is a good plan! some friendships are just plain toxic. a good friend is happy for you if you've done something with your life, not threatened...

hope day 2 of the job goes well :)

By Shauna, at 8:59 pm

Congrats on landing the new job. And for realising that some people just don't deserve friends like you. I hate with a passion bridezillas. I know that weddings can be stressful but you know what - they don't have to be either. And it's no excuse for treating your friends like shit.

And yep, enjoyed most of my weekends exploits. Mostly the bourbon bits. But the apple scroll was pretty good too. And the pie with sauce. Everything else was just crappy and I would be happy if I never saw another chicken nugget again!! Live and learn. LOL.

Can't wait to see your boots :D

By Margaret, at 10:44 pm

Sometimes some "friends" just aren't worth the heartache!

Best of luck with your new job. Hope your sniffles stay away.

By Suzy, at 8:47 am

I'm with you on the 'be nice until after the wedding and then cut her out your life' - you don't deserve to be treated like that by anyone never mind someone who calls herself your friend.
Looking forward to seeing you tomorrow night - hope your second day has a less stressful start to it and that the sniffles don't develop into anything worse.
Take care and have a great day !
Me

By Me, at 9:34 am

I used to have a friend like that who would constantly belittle me because I was better off that her in some regards. I ditched her, and ditched her good. But I agree with you, wait until after the wedding and then sever the "friendship". You don't need her crap and it's quite evident that she's not just suffering from last minute bridal nerves.

Hope the first week at the new job goes well for you! How exciting :)

Sarah

By Sarah, at 11:15 am

LOL that's so typical of a first day but glad it all worked out in the end. Sounds like a good plan about the supposed friend. You don't that in your life. Schizopops!

By Mary, at 3:27 pm

God, it sounds like she hasn't grown up and she's still in school girl mode. That would shit me to tears too. Don't let her get to you, you're much better than that. Just let the 'friendship' dwindle once the wedding is over. She sounds like she's more of a noose than a friend anyway. She's not a true friend if she treats you like that anyway. Jealousy is such a curse. If she wants what you've got she should do it for herself instead of just sitting around feeling sorry for what she doesn't have. People like that just fuggen shit me. (sorry).
You're worth much much more than that! Be good to yourself, you are so worth it matey.
Also looking forward to hearing about the boots. Everyone seems to be boot buying at the moment.
Bri

By Briony, at 9:57 pm