Payday today! As a contractor, I never quite believe I'm going to get paid until I see the $$$ in my bank account - too many bad experiences with employment agencies in the past.

So, this morning I was thinking; when I moved earlier this year, I had nothing. My son, Andrew, took all the good stuff - the tv (which was his), the dvd player (ditto - his PS2), the computer. At the same time, I started a new job with monthly pays so it took 6 weeks before I even started getting any money. It was a tough time plus I had a huge amount of debts to pay off. Slowly, month by month, I've built up my material possessions - computer, internet connection, television, dvd player. Ipod :)

My thought this morning was that I finally have enough. I have all the material possessions I need, well the big ticket items anyway. Sure, if someone were to give me a brand new shiny car or a trip overseas or a plasma tv, and sure there are somethings - clothes, books, cds - that I'll always want to go shopping for, because shopping for these things is a pleasure in itself, but as far as most things go, I have enough. I am satisfied with the things I have.

The concept of having "enough" is something I've been exploring with my shrink, in as far as food goes anyway. It's amazing to experience that feeling, to know that if I give myself what I want and need, I am capable of knowing when to stop.