[a weight loss story]
*kathrynoh at nemesis dot com dot au*
Today is weigh in day - > 86.3 kgs! Woohoo! That is another 1.6 kgs gone. I dunno how I lost it and I'm a bit concerned that I've lost muscle mass since I haven't done a lot of exercise of late, but hey, it's a loss and that's a good thing.
I ducked into Jeans West at lunch time to get some clothes. It's so weird how someone can say something not even realising, just an everyday comment but it can change your whole attitude. See, I have this paranoia about shopping in 'regular' shops - like they are going to know that I'm a big lardy and I shouldn't be shopping there. Sometimes I pretend I'm buying stuff for someone else and sometimes I run off without buying anything.
Today I had a few things in my hands and the shop assistant came over and asked if I wanted her to put them in the change room. I just looked at her in shock for a moment then realised that she was just treating me like any old customer. She didn't know or care how much I weighed last year or what size I used to take. I'm just a normal customer.
I guess that's hard to understand unless you've been overweight all your life, unless you have never shopped at 'regular' shops. To me, they have always been no-go zones. It's like going into a menswear store or maybe a store that specialises in Muslem clothing or something, and buying myself clothes there. I expect to be turfed out on my ear (not that I'd expect that in the menswear or Muslem wear store, just that sense of shopping somewhere I don't belong, if that makes sense).
I wanted to thank that girl today, but what do you say? To her it was just a routine part of her job but to me it was like a door opening to another world.
Oh I so totally agree on that one! To go into a 'regular' shop and actually look at clothes without feeling that the size 0 girls are looking at you and thinking 'wtf is that fat girl doing in here'is an amazing feeling. And to actually to be able to try something on in those shops and think 'oh that the colour just doesn't suit me' is amazing. I think I could easily get addicted to that feeling!
Oh I can't wait to go into a non plus size clothing store - it would be bliss and i am sure you felt as light as a feather.
Yaaaaaay. That is fantastic. And what a revelation. You are a normal person! I hope that you take a good hard look in the mirror and realise that the normal shops are now your domain. They can just be called shops now. They are your territory and whilst perhaps marking it would be a bit over the top, they are yours.
wow i so know what you mean about normal shops being a no-go zone. I too have no idea what it is like to be "normal" and shop in those normal shops. It is one of my main motivation factors. I want to buy a pair of sexy jeans (not just ugly ones) from jeans west or just jeans. I want to go in and know they will ahve something to fit me.. ah I cant wait!
I'm with u on this one!!! still being a bit of a teeny bopper, i like some of the Supre stuff & i fit the sz XL & some L's but all the girls who work there are like sz 6 & i always feel they look at me like i shouldnt be there!
oh yeah - congrats on the loss too, thats a huge loss!
Congrats on the fantastic loss! Well done! Yay for great shopping experiences too!
I know what you mean, I always used to think people would laugh when they saw me trying on clothes as if to say those will never fit you. I still look at other people in fitting room queues who are holding the same size clothes as me and start to worry that I'm not meant to be there. Even though I know that size fits, I can't believe I'm the same size as other people who shop in those places, if you understand what I mean.
I am really enjoying your blog! You have such a wonderful way of expressing yourself. And I can so identify with everything you write.
By 7:08 am, at
1.6kg?! My goodness has is amazing! :)
I totally understand this situation and have been there too! You do feel like telling the girl how great she has made you feel. YAY for walking into regular shops and feeling that sense of being *allowed* to be in there!!
Well done on the bloody awesome loss too babe!
boobs: 100 cm
waist: 81 cm
hips: 109 cm
thighs: 50 cm
Weekly Goal Lifestyle Changing Challenge-A-Rama
Week 1 - Drink more water
Week 2 - Cut out sugary treats