[a weight loss story]
*kathrynoh at nemesis dot com dot au*
Last night I found out my sister had a copy of some photos scanned on her computer. These photos are from around 1999-2000 when my sister and I were producing our show on community television. We needed some publicity shots and so had a friend take these (I've cut my sister and friend out because I didn't think they'd like their mugs plastered all over my blog, especially since they don't know about it).
She didn't want to send them to me because she thought it would upset me to see how big I was then and, to be honest, it was quite a shock, but the thing that really struck me was how happy I looked.
My sister said our lives were shiny back then. We had so much confidence and really thought we could do anything we wanted. It was like we were on the verge of something good. About six months after these photos, I sunk into the biggest depression like I was in a giant hole with no way out.
It's funny though to think that I was so much happier then. You'll never hear that in any story in a diet magazine - this is when I was fatter but happier. But the reality is the two things aren't related. There is no magic equation. I've been fat and happy. I've been fat and unhappy. Now I just need to work on been healthy and happy.
Just for comparison, this is me in October 2005:
you are looking so great...so much to be proud of...happiness is something i'm searching for too...i'm hoping being happier in my body will help that...in response to ur question, my gym is pretty cool, there are nice ppl there i'm too selfconcious to talk to anyone, I keep my head down and try to finish as fast as possible...when my friends came it was easier (although they were pikers) wish there was like a lil blog gym...now how cool would that be!!!!so much support...anyways, have a fantastic sunday x
Wow...you have come such a long way!!
WOW what an awesome effort...you look unbelievable! You should be so proud of yourself!!
Oh my lordy lordy lordy ( very magda subanskiish) i cannot even see that that picture is you! Congrats sweety - you have done so well!
You look incredible. The difference in those pictures...well, I am lost for words.
You are looking fabulous hun! But depression is quite common in people who have lost weight. It's something you need to jump on top of. It's something you're probably going to need help tyo jump on top of.
what a difference! you look amazing
The difference is incredible. On the outside, from the chin down you have completey changed, I guess that goes for the inside too.
Wow!! I know you've come a long way, I've seen and read over your stats always, but to see it.
i so appreciate that you have been so honest about the whole skinny not necessarily meaning happier... thank you for telling it like it is. i really love your entries and often read them two or three times.
An amazing comparison! I agree, size and happiness aren't necessarily linked, but it seems I don't have to WORK quite so hard at being happy now that I'm not so big.
I just almost fell out of my chair...I am no good at the kg/lb conversion so when I saw what you had lost, it never really struck me until just now...you are effing amazing!
People need to know that losing any weight is not the magic pill that makes everything better. But it might just be the thing that gives you the strength to find out what will.
You are awesome, and a great inspiration. You should be very proud of how far you have come, it has been a damn lot of hard work for you. Well done.
Look at you babe! I can see a gothy type ;-) I can totally understand that our physical appearance does not make us instantly happy but being healthier sure helps us deal with life's curveballs better I reckon. Keep up the great work!
Amazing photos - you have really come a long way.
WOW! look at you! u r looking amazing! u have made huge changes - so inspiring!!!
I've been wondering what exactly to write, you look different! But what I noticed even more in the difference was that you looked years younger as you are now.
Wow! Thats unbelievable!!!!!
boobs: 100 cm
waist: 81 cm
hips: 109 cm
thighs: 50 cm
Weekly Goal Lifestyle Changing Challenge-A-Rama
Week 1 - Drink more water
Week 2 - Cut out sugary treats