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[a weight loss story]

*kathrynoh at nemesis dot com dot au*

::31.12.06::

2006

Since it's the last day of the year, I've decided to rate myself on how I met my goals for the year:

Health and Body:

The word for 2006 is tone. Weight-wise, I want to lose 11.4 kilograms to get to my goal weight of 70 kgs but the largest task ahead is to firm up all the jiggly bits.I really want to get to my goal weight before the end of March - that's when my friend is getting married and my other friends will be home from the UK.

Well I got to 70 kg but sure as hell didn't stay there. I'm thinking this is like bungee jumping, I go down then bounce up then back down until eventually I settle at the bottom. Just need to work on the down bit! All up I lost 5 kg in 2006 and that's just not good enough. I was going to give myself a big zero for this goal but figure I lost HALF my goal and weighing less at the end of the year than the beginning is a huge tick - so I reckon 5/10 for effort. As my report cards said every year, Kathryn needs to try harder.

I want to be able to run 5 km by the end of the year and continue pushing myself at the gym. I'd like to have the stamina to do a RPM hi performance (1.5 hour) class. Once I start working again and probably studying as well, I want to find ways to ensure that I still get in my gym time.

I mock this goal. Phht - run 5 km! After the Run for the Kids and the City to Surf, 5 km seems like nothing. I give myself 10/10 for exercise.

I want to get off my diabetes medication and control it by lifestyle only. I also must have all the diabetes checks - I'm a real slacker about these. Must go to the eye doctor and the podiatrist and try to get an appointment with a dietian as well.

Woohoo, I did it. I'm a star. 10/10.

Healthwise, I'd also like to be weller in 2006. In 2005, I had all manner of little worries - colds and flus galore, not to mention back problems.

Not so good, but what can you do? I think the plan for next year is when the colds start, rest rather than try to push through it. And get a flu shot.

Get a massage once a month.

I didn't get a massage every month, but some months I got more than one so on average I reckon I did it. 10.10.

Appearance and Self Image:

I want to work on being more confident on the inside and less slovenly on the outside.

Nope. Still slack and slovenly!

Work/Career:

For me, work is a two pronged thingie. On one side is the stuff I do to make money - usually IT or admin work and on the other is my writing. In 2006, I want to find a good way to balance these two things. Ideally, I'd like to find a part time job that gets me enough money to live on but leaves time for other things.

Nope. Still want a part time job but it's so hard to find anything that isn't reception or accounts, neither of which I can do.


I want to finish the final draft of my novel and get it sent out to publishers by mid year.

Ha, still working on it.

I want to get at least 6 short stories written and published.

Prolly about 3 so half points.

I want to get into my course (which, for those who asked, is the Diploma of Professional Writing and Editing) and get higher distinctions in the subjects I do.

Started studying. Not sure about my marks yet.

Finances:

I want to stay out of debt this year and save money.I want to buy a laptop. I want to spend some money getting my car in tip top condition.I'd also like to travel a bit this year.

Ha ha. I did none of this but I bought some pretty dresses. Oh I did get my car sorted.

Living Environment:

This is a hard one - I'm not 100% happy with the place I'm living mostly with my housemates but I'm dead lazy about moving and there are definite advantages to living here - it's cheap as chips and I have a huge room.

Still here. Still hate my housemates. I have made things much nicer though.

Friends/Social Life:

I had a heap of stuff about improving my social life but I did none of it. I think mostly I felt I should do this stuff but I have no real commitment to it. I should just accept my anti-socialness.

You really have achieved a lot this year. Don't be too hard on yourself. Looking forward to following along to see what you achieve in 2007

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 9:51 am  

Kathryn I commend you on at least having goals that you worked towards.

Me, I just ambled my way through the year with nothing really specific to work towards.

I hope that 2007 brings your goals closer.

Have a great new year.

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 9:56 am  

Wow- it is so easy for me to forget about my goals, but yours are there set in stone almost - and you did such a great job. Happy New Year and keep up the good work.

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 10:41 am  

All in all a pretty good year for you! Good on you! Who needs to be a social butterfly anyway? There'd be less time for blogging - LOL!

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 10:46 am  

And what is wrong with anti-social?? It's not so bad - what does socialising do for you anyway?? I mean, apart from friends...

Kathryn you have been an inspiration to me as I started my journey this year. I look to you as someone who is well down the path I want to follow.

Thanks for your continuted support and all the best in 2007. :)

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 11:56 am  

I'm with jaykay, at least you have goals. Maybe that's where I'm going wrong I achieved little because there were no goals to work towards.

I've throughly enjoyed reading your blog over the past few months. You know what, there's something you've achieved without even trying. You've kept alot of us bloggers amused, motivated and thinking.

Think I will make up some goals right now. Happy New Year Kathryn.

By Blogger Debstar, at 1:00 pm  

I reckon you did pretty bloody well, Kathryn. Onwards and upwards.

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 1:29 pm  

Your exercise and motivation has been amazing Kathryn. Thanks for the amusing and 'real' blog. Have a great 2007 and I'm sure to see you soon. Linda xx

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 3:17 pm  

I should be able to say something profound about the importance of setting goals, but three glasses of Pinot Gris are making it hard enough to type straight...

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 7:09 pm  

I think you have done amazingly well in your goal department. You, my friend have at least achieved some (this is more than I can say), so this is a good thing!!!! Hope 2007 is a good one!

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 8:46 pm  

I've done a years review too! It's great to look back on isn't it!

Wishing you a year full of joy and success, health and prosperity! Happy New Year! xox

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 10:30 pm  

I think you have had a awesome 2006, Kathryn, and you should be pretty darn proud of yourself!!

Happy New Year and may all your dreams and aspirations come true in 2007 :)

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 10:50 pm  

I think you did great in 2006 too. I stopped making goals for the New Year long time ago since I never even get close to achieving them. But you did very well with them. Be proud of yourself (I am).
Have a happy, healthy and great 2007 Kathryn!!

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 12:27 am  

You are a legend, what more can I say! Reading your blog constantly makes me laugh, cry and inspires me :-)

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 8:13 am  

 

::30.12.06::

Good Things

Last night some friends came over for dinner. The best kind of friends - they bought the food and cooked it then washed up! You gotta love that. We went for a run before dinner - well it ended up being more of a walk since I'm having running shoe issues - but managed 13 km around the city circle trail (that is 6.5 km then home).

Yesterday my housemate moved his car from the front of our house for the first time in 12 months. Since he has 3 cars, he seems to rotate them and I swear he does it at like 3.00 am so no one else can ever park there. So I saw the space and quickly moved my car. Now my car is out the front and I'm never moving it again.

Things are turning to a war zone here - yesterday the housemate woke us up hammering the side fence (right outside our bedrooms). Since it was 9.30, we couldn't really yell at him. Then we went out and shut the front door so he got pissy because he'd gone out without his key. Tough shit, I reckon. If he doesn't have the sense to take his key with him, it's not my problem. Oh yeah and he's stolen the plug from the kitchen sink!

I made the yummiest french toast for breakfast this morning. I had it with a little yoghurt and stewed fruit. Yummo!

Tonight we're off to see M Ward at the Corner Hotel then I think NYE will be a quiet one. NYE tends to be such a sucky night out so the plan is to go to the bar down the street (the same thing I do every weekend). I can't deal with trying to get anywhere else plus I hate all the drunken yobs around so a few quiet ones then home sounds good to me.

Your housemate needs to be seriously punished. What a jerk.
Hope you have a great NYE, I wish I could have a quiet one. I can't even think about drinking or eating. Haven't had a drink since Boxing Day (yeah I know it's not THAT long ago but for me that is a big [albeit forced] achievement). I'm actually looking forward to getting back to work and routine and normality so much now. Sad isn't it?
Good luck keeping your car space, I reckon you've started a war there! hehe
Bri

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 10:13 am  

Damn, it really sucks living with people you don't like. Definitely not good for your psyche!! Can you and you sister find another place to live together instead? I know you don't want to move but it might end up getting really nasty and you don't need that kind of angst.

We're planning on a quiet NYE too with drinks at a friend's house. Have a good one!!

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 10:24 am  

Gosh Kathryn, your housemate sounds like he has a serious problem!!

Have a great NYE :-)

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 10:40 am  

LOL about the car space. I would hate living with someone like that. Have a great New Years Eve whatever you end up doing.

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 11:44 am  

Your housemate is unbelievable. It's just horrible to live in an otherwise great place with a total arsehole ruining it all for you.

A quiet NYE sounds the way to go. Tom and I walked back from our local last night and discovered heaps of places around the corner from us that we can see the Harbour Bridge and the fireworks. I can't even be bothered going out unless it's down the street. I just can't stand all the dickheads on the streets or in nightclubs.

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 12:33 pm  

What a fucking wanker! Steal the plug? What's his issue? Has he actually got mental issues? Ok patience eludes me and I don't even live there. It is time to start making his life hard. There is 2 of you and one of him. You can easily make him wish he lived elsewhere if you put your mind to it I'm sure, In fact why not blog for annoying ideas.

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 9:41 pm  

I love Jadey's comment..make his life hard!!

Hope you have a great New Years xxx

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 10:17 pm  

 

::27.12.06::

Better

I'm feeling a bit better now. I had a most productive day doing edits on my novel then went for a 10k run - all good things for clearing the head.

I've had a lot of worries on my mind lately - money stuff and job issues. On one hand I want to start earning the cash but on the other I want to get my novel finished and I want to have the time do it without fitting it in around work - I've done a first and second draft that way and I think it lacks cohesiveness because of it. But since I edited so well today, I'm predicting a mid-Jan finish which is around when the job market should be starting to open up again after the hols. Nice timing indeed.

Another worry is the word on the street says our owners are going to be selling our house. Arrgghh... for all it's faults, I don't want to move. I love living in this neighbourhood (although not so keen on living on a main road with cars blaring doof music all night) and i love the cheapness. I've just been checking out the Tenant's Union website and they have to give us 60 days notice after the house is sold so have at least 3 months before it really becomes an issue.

Then there is my housemate. I'm going to kill. I just need to do some research on the grounds for temporary insanity pleas. His selfishness and lack of personal hygiene is one thing but I'm also starting to think he's not playing with a full deck.

I've got all my toiletries in a drawer in the bathroom. A few weeks ago, I noticed the lid had come off my Fudge hair dye and it had leaked in the drawer. Normally I'm extra careful because it's such messy stuff but figured maybe, just maybe, I'd been in a hurry and not put the lid on properly. So I cleaned up the mess and forgot about it. About a week, later the lid had come off again. Obviously someone has been into it and is being a bastard.

I think he's got away with a lot of shit because we've always had other housemates so you can't pin the blame on anyone but recently there's just been the three of us in the house so it's obvious who is the culprit.

For at least a year, we've had toilet issues - he doesn't flush so I talk to him about it and things are fine for a month or so then it starts again. Today I asked him, yet again, to flush the toilet. I really think you should not have to ask someone over the age of three to flush the toilet ONCE, let alone multiple times. He swears it isn't him. Yes, we have a peeing poltegist. Who know that non-corporeal beings even needed to go?

On top of all the issues I have to constantly nag him about, there are so many things that bug me that I can't really say anything about - you can't tell someone NOT to fry food in the kitchen even though it's so frigging messy, you can't tell someone they shouldn't own three cars and keep two of them for storage and park them in the spots outside the house so other people have to park right down the street, you can't tell people not to talk to you because you are sick of hearing about their bloody prostate issues. Well you can, but murder seems like a far simpler option.

NB: I'm worried now that I've posted this that something's going to happen to him and I'll be the #1 suspect, so I'll put a disclaimer there that when I say I'm going to kill my housemate, I don't mean it at all literally.

10k - YAY!

Not flushing the toilet - Eeewwww!!

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 10:23 pm  

oooh jeez, i think it would justifiable homicide, or whatever they call it. what a grotty fucker!

sorry to hear about your worries of late... but good on ya for all the work on your novel. i hope we all get to have a squizz someday! :)

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 7:06 am  

Ugh, what a complete tool your housemate is. Where on earth did you find him?

Don't worry about the murder thing - I'll give you an alibi....

By Blogger Kek, at 8:58 am  

Yeah you do and I want to *kill* your flatmate too now!! It brings up some of my unpleasant memories. Dirty bastards. Luckily Dan is house trained LOL.

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 10:54 am  

He sounds awful. Just remember a good friend will help you move and a great friend will help you move a body. Hope it all sorts itself out without violence!
Great work with the 10km run.

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 11:16 am  

Yup total f'n tool! Selfish bastard. Needs a lesson or 2 in life.

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 8:43 pm  

This housemate.. YUCK! Maybe a milder form of revenge is required.
Congrats on the 10k.

Happy New Year, wishing you love and light for 2007

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 1:41 am  

Oh the joys of living with a prostate problemed peeing poltergeist!

Don't you just love how blokes will deny at all costs until they are so totally busted lying that they can deny no longer? Or is that just my experiences? LOL!

Hope your editing just flies past so that you can go to all the effort of finding work only to hear that your novel has been bought by some HI-UGE publishing house and they want to give you millions and a ten book deal!

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 2:06 am  

I would go off my rocker if I had to share house with someone like that! Yep, it's bringing up my bad memories of housemates and being the bad housemate myself, but I don't think I encountered anyone like that. Ewww.

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 10:00 am  

Speaking of crazy housemate toilet stories, my friend and her boyfriend were housesharing in NZ with a couple of freaks who actually asked them to pee more quietly. No joke!!

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 11:59 pm  

Oh my god - do you live with MY housemate???? We have almost exactly the same issues - he doesn't flush the toilet, his personal hygiene leaves a LOT to be desired, he always uses other people's food and stuff! I totally sympathise with you and if you need an alibi, I'll gladly provide you with one. As long as you'll do the same for me!

By Blogger Jayne, at 1:25 am  

 

Blah

I've been feeling a bit down lately. It seems like all I have to do is look at food to put on weight at the moment and, believe me, I've been doing much more than looking.

Last week I got on the scales and I'd put on 2 kgs almost overnight. I thought it must have been a mistake and I'd been retaining water but the 2 kgs is still hanging around (maybe more, I'm not getting back on the scales for a while).

When does this get easy? When do I get my happy ever after with rainbows and butterflies and pretty sparkles?

Big {{{HUGS}}} babe, I know exactly what you are feeling because I have been there lately. For me though, I have been eating rather badly and that in turn makes me feel like shit both inside and out. Sometimes we just have some down periods but most of the time, I think we're pretty alright so know that this is ONLY a phase. I hope you feel better really soon :-)

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 2:34 pm  

Maybe after 2 years of maintaining it becomes natural. That's why they say you are most likely to put on weight within 2 years of losing it. Those that go the 2 years will maintain for life. Good luck honey!

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 7:43 pm  

Sorry to hear you've been feeling a little down. Don't you EVER forget what you have accomplished!

It may not seem like it now, but 2kgs is not a lot in the grand scheme of things when you consider all that you have achieved.

If you can't put on a little weight at this time of year, when can you?

I'm sure that all those other 'skinny chicks' (that IS meant as a compliment) out there don't just all sit on the same weight all the time. I reckon their scales would go up and down just like the rest of us... at least I hope so?^&)*)&_&*^&^$

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 2:10 am  

 

::25.12.06::

Merry Christmas!

I got coffee yesterday, so I'm happy :)

Been out for a Christmas morning run and now I'm waiting for my sister to finish in the shower so I can get changed, pick up Andrew and do the presents and food things.

Wow, I timed my run to perfection - it's pissing down now.

Have a good one. Personally I'm trying to figure out if that goodwill to all men thing extends to my housemate... would it be wrong to punch someone on Christmas day?

Bwahaha...have a good one with punch and all!

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 12:42 pm  

Ummmm, me thinks it would be not good to hit someone on Christmas Day.... unless it's with a pavlova full in the face!! waste of a good pav tho. cheers

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 1:08 pm  

Merry Christmas Kathryn - have a great day :)

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 2:37 pm  

Happy Christmas Kathryn

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 2:44 pm  

Merry Christmas hun! If you need Punch enjoy it ? LOL

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 7:27 pm  

Of course you can smack someone in the chops on Christmas Day- there is no other time more appropriate because later you can explain away by saying, "I am sorry, the season just gets the better of me", then next year he will keep the h#*ll out of your way. Merry Christmas!

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 9:31 pm  

Merry Crimble :) I had to tell BB not to yell rude things at someone because it was Xmas day....T'is a day to let things flow like water off a duck's back ;-)

But then of course you could plead temporary insanity lol

By Blogger Sekhmet, at 2:49 pm  

Just blame it on too much alcohol or sugar....or an overdose of tinsel.

Hope it was a good one! The day, not the punch. Well, both really.

By Blogger Kek, at 2:58 pm  

 

::24.12.06::

Merry Freakin' Christmas

I dunno how I'm supposed to enjoy Christmas when every place that does takeaway coffee in my neighbourhood is now closed. I just went to get one and there's nothing! Looks like I'm going to have to go out foraging further afield, and that's just wrong.

If I don't make it back, have a good Christmas.

I hope you've found a good replacement coffee! I hate Christmas for this reason. Everyone goes spastic on you LOL. Have a good one babe :-)

PS. I had to buy "runners" today so now I've got no excuse not to run! I always said I couldn't run in my "walkers" but now I've got no excuse.

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 5:48 pm  

Merry Christmas and good luck on the coffee hunt- I am at the farm getting reacquainted with Nescafe!
(At least it isn't international roast)

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 6:04 pm  

Merry Christmas!

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 7:40 pm  

Hope you took your brolly. Merry Xmas

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 10:10 pm  

DOH ! How about you try makin your own coffee??? lol Good luck on the search, I'm sure you will be successfl eventually. MERRY CHRISTMAS

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 6:44 am  

 

::22.12.06::

Kathryn's Tips of Yuletidey Goodness

Around this time of year, you read articles in magazines giving you tips to make Christmas easier. Most of them are complete crap. Don't listen to them. Instead read my Tips of Yuletidey Goodness for the best Christmas ever.

1. Generic gifts, don't do them. Some friends of mine do the generic gift thing. During the year they buy up cheap candles and books from discount shops and the like then come Christmas, they divvy them for the people on their gift giving list. That really makes a girl feel special! If someone can't make the time and effort to go out and buy a gift especially for me then I don't want it. If you have friends who do this or if you do this yourself for people, then maybe it's time to stop exchanging gifts - you're only doing it out of obligation anyway and who needs that shit anyway!

2. Emergency Gifts, don't do them. You always read those hints about buying a gift or two to wrap in case an unexpected visitor turns up at Christmas time. What a load of bunk. Imagine this, right. I go home for Christmas and my mum drags my off to see old Aunty Whosit, that I've not seen since I was yay high. So she drags a gift wrapped cake of Cashmere Bouquet soap from under the tree. That's not going to make me feel all festively happy. I'm going to know it's her 'oh fuck' gift and she's going to know I know. It's going to be awkward and uncomfortable and really not worth the fuss for a cake of soap. Sometimes fine hospitality is the greatest gift of all.

If you forget to buy someone a gift then maybe it's because you don't really like them. Cut them off your list.

3. Don't get into insane gift-giving spirals of doom. So last year Mrs Jones from across the way gave you a plate of her homemade shortbread and this year you feel like you should give her something in return. It's never going to end up well. Within a few years, you'll be spending most of October and November sweating it out in the kitchen because you're giving gifts to everyone within a 5 km radius of your house. And think about it - did Mrs Jones give you those treats because she wanted you be guilt-wracked and anxious? Do you think she wants your obligation cookies? Sometimes receiving graciously is the greatest gift of all.

4. You don't have to buy EVERYONE gifts. I didn't know until this year that people give gifts to their kids schoolteachers. Who'd have thought it? Then I realised I gave them the greatest gift of all - I gave them the gift of my son to educate for the year. And that's like the most Christmassy thing of all because if you believe in the whole Christian thing, Christmas is about God giving his son to to the world. Also, teachers don't need another tin of talcum powder, really they don't.

That's it. The basic rule of thumb here is - if you don't enjoy it, don't do it. If you love spending hours baking cookies then that's all well and good but if you hate it then just stop. Eat the things you enjoy, be with the people you love. If people get offended then screw them. Hopefully they'll still not be talking to you by next year and that will be one less stress on the Christmas list.

lmao on this post Kathryn, I am so with you on all those points!!!
Especially could relate to teacher one. WTF is that about?? I have enough trouble buying for the people I have to without adding teachers to the scenario

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 12:17 pm  

heheh! I'm suffering a chronic case of the bah hambugs at the moment cause I'm stuck at work (note to self, working afternoon shift the week before Christmas does not make a happy Sarah ... but more of that later).

I have to agree with your tips, I hate generic gifts and I've been stuck in more than enough gift giving spirals of doom to know better.

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 2:43 pm  

VEry funny and oh so true Kathryn. Have a great xmas and hope it is stress free and full of lots of laughter..

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 3:09 pm  

hehe love it! At times like this I am so glad I don't actually celebrate xmas ;) Although I do still buy gifts for my friends that do... but still. I think i'm lucky.
I hope you have a good one and that you only get the gifts you really want.

By Blogger Beee, at 6:06 pm  

amen! :)

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 12:19 am  

Hey Kathryn! This is such an awesome post, and so so sooo true. If I get one more Dusk candle, box of Ferreros, pack of body lotions/shower gels or bottle of cheap (but-not-so-cheap-it-makes-them-look-bad) red wine, I'm going to feel like no one knows me at all!
Giving is supposed to be about making someone feel good, not handing over $20 to any mass-producing retailer to cross a chore off your list.
Have a lovely Chrissy - thanks for your friendship and support this year.

By Blogger Kenz, at 12:29 am  

So very true.

It is the thought that counts afterall, and if there's no thought, or at least not a caring one... then what's the point?

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 7:21 am  

ROFLMAO!! You ARE hilarious, but so darned right!
Bri

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 9:48 am  

so so true Kathryn. spot on. Have a happy Xmas, see u in the New Year.

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 10:04 am  

I agree! it was the lacy underwear given to me two years ago by my boyfriend's mother that made me realise that I could never buy them a present that conveyed my true feelings!

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 11:56 am  

I reckon you should buy gifts for teachers. Or service people, like your hairdresser, beautician, personal trainer etc If you have an established relationship with them.

We give our Garbo a 6pack of beer every year. It means he doesn't crush the garbage near our house. Before they did every week.

Maybe I think like this cause I AM a beautician though LOL. My clients get little gifts too. Like homemade choccy balls or gingerbread or whatever. It's just something small to show I care and I make them myself with love.

The rest of em are pretty spot on though I reckon. I mean seriously I am OVER Candles and Body Wash for Christmas. Do I stink or something? Nope it's just people don't think. How hard is it to think of something I would like? I'm a beautician FFS I can buy this stuff wholesale! In fact I sell This stuff!

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 6:03 pm  

Just LOVE your attitude, and agree wholeheartedly with it all. Why get all bent outta shape over things when it's supposed to be a neat time of year! Have a great time over the holidays, eat, drink and enjoy.

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 7:06 am  

Love this!

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 2:13 am  

 

::20.12.06::

Miscellaneous

I've been getting some very happy news lately re writing - two stories acccepted for short story collections. One of them I submitted over 2 years ago. Things move awful slow in publishing. Anyway, more details, if you're interested, at my writing blog.

Arrggh, the smoke from the bushfires is so awful in Melbourne today. I'd been planning an outside run but I think I'll just go to the gym instead.

I'd planned a gym yesterday but ended up spending most of the day in bed instead. I'd gotten a takeaway coffee and a snack (a chocolate coated mini Chrissie pud, bad me) then got home and my sister wanted to go to the coffe shop. I said I'd got with her but didn't get a coffee or food because I felt so stuffed. By the time I left the coffee shop, it was like I'd eaten a 20 course meal. There is no way I should have felt that bad, I'd even shared the mini pud with my sister. So I decided to lay down and ended up sleeping for hours! I've been having lots of belly issues lately. I thought it was just due to my womanly time, but that's come and gone and the belly issues remain. If it doesn't stop soon, I'll go to the doctor.

A HUGE congratulations about the short stories!!!! That's fantastic news to hear! :)

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 2:39 pm  

A HUGE congratulations about the short stories!!!! That's fantastic news to hear! :)

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 2:42 pm  

A HUGE congratulations about the short stories!!!! That's fantastic news to hear! :)

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 2:49 pm  

Well odne on the short stories. Congratulations!

I Know about he tummy problems I think. I awoke last night at 2am feeling like I'd eaten out the whole pantry. I couldn't get back to sleep because I was so FULL!

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 6:19 pm  

Congrats Kathryn. Do u think Ails is excited for you?? Well done.

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 9:38 pm  

Greta news re the stories!! Hope your tummy has settled down.

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 8:00 am  

Look after yourself Kathryn! Cool about the stories.

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 12:36 pm  

I am soooo happy for you on the stories!!! *grin* I can't wait to read them!!!

I hope your stomach gets better soon. And that the smoke clears up before I get there ;)

I'M COMING TO MELBOURNE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

By Blogger Beee, at 4:59 pm  

Congrats on your stories, you must be totally wrapped!!

Hope you are feeling well soon, you can't, just can't be sick over Christmas :-0!

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 6:18 pm  

CONGRATULATIONS with your writing Kathryn, this is AWESOME news!!

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 5:51 pm  

 

::18.12.06::

The Game Plan

Okay, this is the plan. I'm going to be very good for the next week. No treats (well except for the fruit mince pie I got this arvo from Bakers Delight but I had to test drive them for Christmas lunch -- two thumbs up!) and extra cardio. No greasy pizza breakfast at the market this week, no chocobana balls with coffee.

Then come Christmas day, I'm going to enjoy myself, foodwise without fretting over calories and such. We've got a relatively healthy lunch planned - just your basic turkey, ham and roast vegies - with some yummy desserts.

After Christmas I'm right back into it. I need to shake off the extra weight I've put on plus get into training for the half marathon.

I've almost finished Christmas shopping - woohoo! I just have to get a stocking of lollies for Andrew and that's it. Oh and maybe a fan. My mum told me to stop buying him stuff because I've already given him cash for Chrissie but I'm his mum, if I don't get him socks and jocks and stuff like that he'd wear the old ones until they disintergrated!

Oh and on Christmas shopping - do folk stay at home all year practicing their most annoying behaviour for this time of year? Why do people think it appropriate to stand around chatting with their friends in the doorway of shops?

I think the worst thing I saw was a woman buying her teenage daughter clothes in Dangerfield. She kept asking the daughter questions while the daughter chatted on her mobile. I'd have slapped her up the side of the head and left the shop without buying her a thing but then Andrew would have never dared treat me like that.

Time to go for a run then some creativity. I got a pad of these thick blank postcards and I'm planning to draw pictures on them then send them to my aunties and my nan with Christmas greetings. Much nicer than a card, I think.

rGood plan for xmas :) You should enjoy yourself on the day, why not!

And as far as spoiling Andrew.. you are his mum! You are supposed to spoil him :) and you obviously enjoy it so no harm done!

By Blogger Beee, at 10:40 pm  

I love the personal touch on xmas cards. The last couple of years, we got the traditional cards, but Lucas had fun painting them. Just adds a little something extra, and it's his contribution to saying hello to everyone!

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 9:35 am  

I love your postcard idea...very original!!
Your plans for christmas sound great...good luck!!
And christmas is a time to spoil the kids - have fun with it:)

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 10:07 am  

Buy Andrew whatever ya like, you are his Mum! some people are sooo ignorant out shopping, I can't wait till I'm so old I can hit them over the head with me walking stick and get away with it! lol

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 7:13 pm  

 

Floating Thoughts

I've wasted many years of my life and countless opportunities thinking other people were better than me or more worthy because they're thinner. One of the insights I've got since losing weight is that that thinner doesn't make you better, it doesn't make your opinions more worthy and it sure as hell doesn't make you more interesting.

There is no great cosmic scorecard that rates you on your clothing size or the colour of your skin or the prettiness of your face. We're all in this place, trying to survive and rise above the muck.

Maybe being stick thin is an asset if you want to be a supermodel or a prima ballerina, but it doesn't make you a better accountant or a better computer programmer or a better writer. It sure as hell doesn't make you a better person.

It can change the way you relate to the world - you take on the fat persona. You become the peace maker or the pleaser or the angry fat girl. You feel like you have to work harder for acceptance, you feel like you have be more grateful when you are accepted. What a load of shit!

We're all multifaceted people. No one is perpetually cheerful and putting on a happy face to cover up your true feelings just causes that whole cycle of repressing feelings then overeating. How much more satisfying is it to tell someone to go fuck themselves when they deserve than to simmer away then scoff a family sized dairy milk in secret.

So last night I had a weird dream. I won't go into great detail, other people's dreams are rarely interesting, but I dreamt about a guy, someone I had a huge crush on it must be well over 15 years ago now. He was a good friend but never anything more, then he moved overseas and I never saw him again. Unrequited love is interesting in stories but a real bore in real life.

I've been trying to make sense of this dream - I haven't thought about this guy in years and years - and I felt like the dream had to mean something. That's what everything tells us - books, television, movies. Dreams are signs.

Since I woke up, I've been wondering if I've been harbouring feelings for him all these years, that there's something there, buried deep down inside. I've thought about it and realised that it's definitely not true. I've not even thought about him for years. In reality, if we'd got together it would never have lasted. I think he'd have driven me insane and I'd have brained with a rock within weeks. It's amazing how we believe something is true because thats what we see on tv. There are no feelings, nothing at all. Still, if I run into him while I'm out shopping today, I'll have a fit.

Thank you for putting into words what so many people need to read. No, it sure as hell doesn't make you a better person to be thinner. prettier, whatever... Now about that dream?

By Blogger caroline, at 1:18 pm  

Thx for this insight into myself!

And please let us know if you do see the guy of yr dreams. I do think that we dream about things for a reason, but who knows what it is? LOL

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 12:24 pm  

 

::17.12.06::

Fat

Is it an insult to call someone fat? I've been thinking about this lately. You can say someone is tall or short or skinny but call them fat and them's fighin' words. It doesn't help that the word fat is often paired with 'cow' or 'bitch' or 'slut'.

Why has fat become so emotionally charged? It's like the most cardinal of sins in this world is to be overweight. You hear it all the time - I might be a selfish, puppy-dog-hating, klepto crack whore, but at least I'm not fat.

Personally I'd rather be called fat than any of the other eupherisms - heavy, big, pleasant plump -- arrgghh, spare me!

Bitching about fat seems to go in direct proportion to actual fat. At a size 26, I thought I could ignore my size and no one else would notice. Now I'm happy to proclaim to the world that I'm having a fat day. If I were ever to become a size 6, I'd never shut up about how fat I am. Some people think this is because women are never happy with their bodies, but I think it's because you can't admit to being fat unless you aren't.

At a size 26, the most traumatic event in my life was someone commenting on my size. Even if it was totally justified. I remember going skiing and not being about to get a ski suit to fit. If I'd been too tall for them, no drama. But I was just too fat. I hated the people in the shop, because they insulted me!

Another time I was checking the clothing sizes for a giveaway in a magazine and the largest was XL (14-16). They insulted me.

If I tried to squeeze into a booth in a cafe and couldn't fit, it was an insult to me. Not to mention airline seatbelts and dodgem car rides and anyone who randomly mentioned my weight.

I'd get that prickly eye feeling and that prickly throat. I'd feel like my innards had turned into a black hole trying to suck the rest of me through.

But it's not personal. It's not something someone has purposely set up to humiliate me. I'm sure if i were 4 foot nothing, I'd have similar problems in a world where one size doesn't fit all.

I have all manner of problems getting hats to fit because I have a bizarrely small head but I don't take that as an insult.

Fat, is it wrong? Really?

I have the opposite problem of an abnormally large head and so hats sort of just park on top and look desperately STUPID on me.

I hate being called fat. I can call myself fat but no one else should make that reference despite it being true. I hate that I know when people describe me it would be "You know the big girl"

I hate it because it's true.

I hate the other stuff too. But I can take puppy-hater with a smile cause it's all false. But when it comes to it the truth hurts sometimes.

By Blogger Jadey 0:-), at 4:17 pm  

great post! & so true!

By Blogger Kt, at 10:01 pm  

I don't mind the word fat. I AM fat. It's a fact. I react to the word fat as I react to the word blond, no difference. It took me time to get to this point, though. There was a time when I was not able to even say it aloud. Not any more. It's part of accepting myself the way I am, I guess.

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 12:56 am  

killer post :) i just love how your mind works and then the thoughts get out and down on 'paper' for us to read :)

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 2:52 am  

I always think it's weird that people can tell you to your face that they, *in their expert opinion*, think you are too thin. "Don't lose any more weight", "I think you looked better with a bit more meat on you" and so on. I also find it strange that I'm often asked how much I weigh (WTF?). No one would have dared do that when I was a size 18!

I feel insulted at being called skinny (I'm SO not... do skinny gals have biceps like these?), but somehow it seems that if you're not overweight, it's OK for everyone in the universe to endlessly discuss your size...

Why the hell IS that?

By the way, I hated the "F" word too, when I was you know, F.A.T.

By Blogger Kek, at 7:44 am  

You know, I don't mind people calling me fat. It's when people are being falsely polite that gets up my nose. "Larger lady" or "extra cuddly". Or my mother - "you know you really should dress for your size". Aaaarrrgggghhhhhh.

So what is the politically correct term for a fat person? Weight challenged?

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 10:12 am  

I've always thought the hurt behind being called "fat" was the intention behind it, just like anything else.

It's funny how we are like a "race"; we can call ourselves fat but if anyone else does it? WATCH OUT!@

By Blogger snackiepoo, at 2:25 pm  

I think it's the connotation of the word "fat" that makes it insulting. Plus the tone in which the word is used. When someone comments that you're fat they're not saying it as a fact (ie You're tall) it's the inferrence that you're less than person (how's that for irony) because of your size.

My Uncle who I saw maybe 3-4 times between my childhood and starting to lose weight 2 years ago (he lives in NSW) commented a few weeks ago that I was a "completely different person" now that I've lost weight and that I was basically a horrible fat person and now I'm a cheerful not so fat person (I'm paraphrasing there but you get the drift).

I was totally offended mostly because he didn't know me before anyway so who was he to judge! Then I thought, geez if he felt that way I'm willing to bet there are others who do too!

Anyway, the world is a flawed place!

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 12:13 am  

 

::12.12.06::

That Aint No Grizzly...

I didn't mention this before, I don't think but I've agreed to something stupid - early in the new year, I'm doing the Mountain to Surf run at Lorne. The run itself isn't so stupid so much as that I'm going to be camping there! Me, in a tent. Not good. The bush is full of critters (although prolly not as many as my roof prolly - the possums love it in there so much, they are holding raves for all their possumy friends).

I really don't like camping and this is real bush camping. My friends said there is no shower block and it's taken me a while to click that means no toilets! Arrrgghhh! Does a bear shit in the woods? Maybe but I sure don't. I think we'll be making a few trips into town.

I've also registered for the Run for the Kids. Woohoo. I'm so excited about this run and am going to start serious training after Christmas. My target time is 90 minutes which I think will be challenging but doable.

On a completely unrelated note, I mentioned a few posts ago that I heart Supernatural. if you're a fan of the show, check out this site. It's the funniest thing I've ever seen on the internet.

And, to answer Kada's question about my short story, it's a paranormal erotic story. Something quite different for me, since I'd never thought of writing paranormal before then I thought, why not? I love paranormally type stuff like Buffy and Supernatural and Heroes. Anyways, I'm looking for some feedback on it so if anyone is interested and has the time to do some reading in the next couple of days, email me - kathrynoh at nemesis dot com dot au. Thanks.

Love to have a gander!

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 12:45 pm  

I'm in love with Jared Padalecki (Supernatural)!!! Although I have to say some of the episodes are so true-to-life that it gives me nightmares :(

Thank you for the advice on WW. I'm committing to at least 4 weeks of meetings, and will go from there. It all depends on the meeting leader and the other people that go.

Keep up the great work, and good luck with the camping ;) I'm so not a camper whatsoever, unless it's in a cabin with running water, electricity, and plumbing! LOL

By Blogger Michelle, at 12:46 pm  

Camping? have fun, especially before a run like that one. I'd be too nervous to sleep. I haven't decided on the Run for the kids yet - glad you're looking forward to it.

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 2:32 pm  

Camping? have fun, especially before a run like that one. I'd be too nervous to sleep. I haven't decided on the Run for the kids yet - glad you're looking forward to it.

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 2:33 pm  

Good luck with all the running. You are very brave!! I am so impressed and jealous :) Hopefully i'll get my A back into G and get running again soon too.

By Blogger Beee, at 4:47 pm  

Sounds like a reasonable goal for the Run for the Kids, and you are very brave for camping at the other run... I like camping, but the thought of all the nasties here compared with Blighty... *shudder*.

Possum raves, what an image! :o)

B.

By Blogger Beakus, at 9:00 am  

Nope, not really a comping girl either - at least not without some pretty flash amenities. And a fridge for the tonic...

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 9:35 am  

YOu are a crack up - why on earth are you camping when you could find a motel or something? LMAO I am not a camper either. ESP without a good toilet block.

By Blogger Jadey 0:-), at 1:17 pm  

camping aint so bad, expecially if u get together with a group of ppl who havea solar shower and a porterloo! ;)

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 6:40 pm  

Would usually love to have a read of a bit of paranormal erotica, but all are sick in our house this week and not a lot of spare time.

Would love to take you up on the offer if you're looking for readers in the future, though. Just let us know.

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 1:21 am  

 

::11.12.06::

Chin Ups

Yesterday I went to the gym - we were supposed to do a spin class but it was totally full. Who knew so many freaks went to the gym on a Sunday morning? So instead we did some cardio and weights. My goal at the moment is to learn to do chin ups because they look damn sexy.

I got on the chin up machine at the gym - I'm not sure if that's the actual name - and did a few sets. Did you know it's the only machine at the gym where you work harder the less weight you load? I did it on 45 kgs yesterday and I'm hardly even sore today.

I totally kicked my friend's arse at the leg press. I can leg press a shitload of weight and it worries me. I think I have severe muscle imbalances in my legs - my hamstrings are killers and my quads are like steel but my glutes are like limp spagetti.

Today I'm going for a run and maybe some yoga. I've just finished a short story that I've been working on for the past two weeks. At the moment I think it's a freaking masterpiece but I'm sure I'll get over that. Then later today we are going to see Pan's Labyrinth. Free tix, woohoo.

So can we call you "Arnie legs" now!!
Just tried to email you and it bounced back. Do you have another address? I remember you saying something about it????
Yay for free tix!!!
Bri

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 1:49 pm  

I did spin class on Friday with two other people -and that includes the instructor! It was great but there was nowhere to hide, I was a sweaty sweaty mess at the end.

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 3:03 pm  

Go you! LOL at Bri! *chuckles to self* Arnie Legs! *snort laughs*

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 3:23 pm  

Our Sunday morning Spinning class is also packed. Must be a world wide phenomenon :)

By Blogger Beee, at 4:54 pm  

Swiss ball frogs for the glutes - they rock! And chin-ups? Girl, you're a legend; I can't even do 5!

By Blogger Sue, at 6:33 pm  

I just read that Jana Pitman can do 300kg leg presses and she's 8 months pregnant. She better be careful, she just might push the baby out during a leg press. 300kg that's huge, freaky scary.
As for glutes I don't know if I have any 'cause they're covered in a huge mound of fat.

By Blogger Debstar, at 6:37 pm  

I do chin ups at gym as well. They kill. Love the idea of your Arnie legs.

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 9:06 pm  

Love the assisted chin up machine! The less weight you "put on" it, the more of your own weight it's letting you lift.

I agree, chin ups are sexy. Can't weight til I can do them again. Have always been strong in the upper body thanks to gymnastics and swimming, but for some reason my lower body sucks! Even at my fattest I could still manage at least one pushup, but the leg lifts, forget it, I was doing something extremely wussy! LOL

Short story? What kinda story?

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 4:19 am  

You are a machine! I still load up a tonne of weights to do chin ups - I think my best was 72kg! And I thought I was a machine doing that!

Go Hard Girl!

By Blogger Jadey 0:-), at 3:53 pm  

 

::9.12.06::

Fun and Games

I went to Andrew's after the market yesterday and played on the Wii (the new nintendo console). It rocks so hard. Normally I'm crapola at gaming - I find the controllers hard to co-ordinate with my brain - but the Wii is so much fun. It's not actually his Wii though; somehow he'd managed to convince his mates to leave theirs (he had TWO of them) while they were at work. Damnit, I wanna play more.

I finally got some money I've been waiting on this week so was a bit flush for a while. Spent almost all of it on Christmas pressies though so none left over for me. At least I've got the present buying out of the way though so that's a good thing and paid for some of my upcoming fun runs.

It's so damn hot in Melbourne at the moment. I slept most of the day. I seem to be getting into this horrible pattern of late nights and early mornings until I just crash and burn. I spent all day yesterday running around like a mad thing - Preston market in the morning then picking up the freezer for my sister then taking her to an appointment, playing the Wii, back home to change and head out to Mt Waverley to visit a friend for a run around Jells Park (a very short, slow run in the heat), home again.

I'd planned an early night but my sister and I decided to make a new tape for the car (yep, cutting edge technology here) and we wanted a playlist of embarassingly bad, yet oh so good songs - lots of foreigner and REO speedwagon and eagles and stuff like that. So I didn't get to bed until 3.00 am. Oops.

I've worked out my new years resolutions for 2007 - it's coming fast, isn't it. I've got three:

  1. Get my weight down to 65 kgs (this was going to be lose 10 kgs but I figure I don't know my 2007 start weight yet so could be less)
  2. Run a half marathon
  3. Get my novel finished and published.

I think that's definitely doable.


The Wii sounds cool, but I have a PS2 I don't even have time to use so i'm not even looking at it. The old me would have bought one already (that's the me without kids - not the ancient me!!hehe).
Hope you're having a great weekend. That tape sounds awesome, I love all those old songs and singing in the car to crappy but fab songs is so much fun!
Bri

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 6:34 am  

The Wii is on my 8years old Christmas list which I think Santa will bring him :-).

Good luck with those NY resolutions. I am still thinking about mine. I never seem to keep mine which is really annoying.

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 7:42 am  

Yay I bought the Eagles best of cd the other day - they have to come back into fashion soon! Hee hee

By Blogger Miss Pink Lotus, at 9:22 am  

I love the look of the wii - it's the first gaming thing I have actually WANTED. Oh other than the eye toy. That too. Give me interaction!

When you worked at Timezone as a kid you really need to step up when it comes to computer games.

By Blogger Jadey 0:-), at 4:32 pm  

Eagles are one of my guilty pleasures as well. Only know a couple of foreigner songs, and WTF is REO speedwagon? LOL

The only game I can play on PS2 is a modern version of space invaders called strikers. Love it!

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 3:25 pm  

 

::7.12.06::

The Hello Kitty Advent Calendar Massacre

I did a bad thing last night. I violated Hello Kitty. After 6 days of good Advent calendaring, I binged and finished the whole thing off. Advent calendars - never a good idea. I wish I had a camera so you could see the gaping holes that remain.

The whole problem was that I'd eaten very few calories all day, not by design, then went for a big run. After that I had some chilli for dinner and even had a couple of spuds to fill me full of carbs but it wasn't enough. Oh yeah and I had my period. 'Nuff said.

Then today I had to go to Baker's Delight and I got some date and coffee bread. I now call it Evil Bread, it's just too delicious.

***

There is something that is really shitting me at the moment. Why the hell do stores put out catalogues then, when you go to buy stuff, they don't have the stuff in the catalogue and the people in the shop have no idea what you are talking about? Surely that's just a waste of money. That happened with my mum's potential present, but then the girl in the shop seriously would not have known her arse from a hole in the ground. She gave bimbos a bad name.

Then today I went to KMart to get a freezer for my sister. They had freezers in their catalogue but were sold out. The girl told me to go to Campbellfield. I have no idea where that is but I'm pretty sure it's a long way away. I asked her if they had any at Greensborough and she didn't know - that made me even madder. It was good enough for her to ring the Campbellfield store for someone else but not for her to ring Greensborough for me!

I stormed out in disgust which made me even madder because I'd wanted to buy this cool cowboy hat and a pirate disguise kit for my sister and a Mario mask for Andrew but I left them behind in my hissy fit.

On the way home, I stopped at a little shop a few blocks from my house and got one heaps cheaper than KMart so I felt totally vindicated.

By the way, I'm not so rich or generous that I'd buy my sister a whole freezer. It a family present but I'm doing the running around.

I had something else to rant about but I've forgotten what it is. Maybe I should change the name of my blog from iDiet to iRant and Talk a Lot of Shit.

I heard a rumor that Hello Kitty has been violated before, so I think you are okay ;)

By Blogger snackiepoo, at 5:23 am  

Rant away Kthryn, I am sure it uses up calories. LOL at Hello Kitty, I raided a xmas present on Wed that kept calling me to steal the choccies from it, perfectly allowable at times like this.

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 6:48 am  

KMart are so crap! That happens to me all the time - I arrive before they open on the first day of the advertised sale and they don't have whatever it is I want from their catalogue.

Then they give you attitude about it when you dare to ask for a raincheck and point out (with a smirk) that the catalogue says "no raincheck". I love to point out to them that there is such a thing as false advertising. And that I'm not afraid to call Consumer Affairs....

I'm a cranky consumer today. And I'm going Christmas shopping. Grr.

By Blogger Kek, at 7:31 am  

I was thinking along the similiar lines about catalogues and shopping. Why do they run out of stock at this time of year. Don't advertise it if you've only got 5 of the things to sell... p*sses me off.
Campbellfield is the massive 24hr Kmart just at the Sydney Rd/Hume Hwy junction past Fawkner Cemetary. Massive.

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 8:32 am  

The Campbellfield store sucks pretty badly, I've been there before. It's up on the Hume Highway way out near Craigieburn. K-mart used to be good, now it's pretty shitty quality stuff, and not all that cheap. Target used to be cheaper too, now they're like the David Jones of the cheap stores. Sheesh!

Rant away! Better to rant than to kill the anger with food in ya gob.

Well, Hello kitty has said Goodbye. Don't have to ponder ravishing her sexy innards anymore, she's already given you all she's got to give. lol

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 9:56 am  

Sometimes they do that on purpose so you come into the store and buy other stuff. My brother used to work for a store that did that. This is the reason why I refuse to buy anything from them :)

By Blogger Beee, at 4:56 pm  

iRant has a really cool ring to it, I reckon.

I've learned that peanut M&M buckets are the devils work and should NEVER UNDER ANY CIRCUMSTANCES be stored in your fridge under the guise of present giving. Last year I had to re-buy several buckets over the course of December coz we kept unwrapping them whenever an urge hit, and then once they're open.... well, you know the rest. Maybe I should just get me an Advent calendar, it'd be a whole lot kinder on the hips! LOL!

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 3:21 pm  

 

::5.12.06::

Human Dynamo

It's taken me a long time to realise this, but I think I'm really a very energetic person. Who'd have thunk it?

I started out life as a ball of energy apparently. I was 15 months old when my sister was born and would tear around the house getting into everything while Mum was diverted by the new baby. I never wanted hugs and cuddles - just to explore and be on the move (Andrew as exactly the same, even as a newborn baby, he'd try to push you away so he could gawk at stuff).

Then I broke my leg and so was restrained by a plaster cast for a few months. Mum reckons I started putting on weight then, well that I never got a chance to lose my baby weight, but lately I've been thinking that maybe it was easy for her when I became less of a dynamo.

I'm not saying she consciously fattened me up, Hansel and Gretel style, but maybe as a child I was rewarded for being still and sedate. Somewhere in the murky depths, I think that quiet = good and tearing around = bad. Or in Mum's words, I should just 'sit down and shut up.'

As I got older and fattened up, I didn't have the skills or fitness to do well at sport, or even do average, so I avoided it and stuck to the things I'm good at. High school is evil in that way - you don't get points for trying, no matter how much they try to suck you into thinking that. The teachers can tell you to 'just have a go' but having a go gets you laughed at and humilated.

Still, even at my biggest when I hated to walk two blocks, if I had to walk, I'd walk fast and scowl at anyone getting in my way. I'd fidget and bounce and have always been annoyingly impatient. I 've never been able to sit at my desk for long periods of time without a break. Being sedentary drives me nuts.

I've tried to repress my need to be active, I smothered it with food like a big layer of squidgy butter slapped over the top. I knew I needed something and assumed that something was food but it really isn't.

The whole thought of me as someone who's energetic and loves to move is weird to me. Even with all the running and gym over the last year or so, it's only just sinking in.

PS. Because I was such a tubby kid, I've never been able to get out of the pool without using the ladder. I never had the upper body strength to heave myself over the side. So last week at the pool, I decided to demonstate my rubbish pool-getting out skills to my sister and DID IT! I'm never using the ladder again.

***
The job interview went well but don't think I'll get the job. They are looking for a very specific skill set and it's stuff I can do but not do at guru level. Still they are a big IT recruitment agency and they have my details now if anything else comes up so that's a big plus.

***

Last night I woke up at 2.00 with the killer stomach ache from hell. I thought I would vomit so stumbled to the bathroom, very unsteady on my feet. I heaved a lot but nothing more then went back to bed then back to the toilet and back to bed. This went on for about an hour then stopped as suddenly as it started. I'm fine today but still a little queasy.

***

And yes, I did mean my grandad had mad skillz at cattle farming, not mad cow skillz. Oops.

Oh good - I was starting to think you might have a touch of mad cow there yourself LMAO
I am soo mean!

By Blogger Jadey 0:-), at 7:56 pm  

Congrats on getting out of the pool. Now I am REALLY impressed! You are still a nobody unless you can get out of the pool without a ladder!!!! (Hmmm must try that next time...)

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 8:23 pm  

Good on you! It's been ages since I could do the without a ladder trick. I probably could do it now with much effort but I wouldn't want to make too much of a scene trying to beach myself. The ladder seems a much more dignified thing at my weight. And the swimming and walking home is plenty of exercise for the moment. But yes, one day again - a ladderless exit.

Interesting contemplation about the energy levels and the potential causes.

I have often wondered myself whether I secretly am hi-energy person underneath my leisurely exterior - I have always felt maybe - because I am also so restless and fidgety and my mind is so wild. And I do love being active. But then maybe not, I also have always had that Taurean slowness and plodding about my physical movement. Except when I am daggy dancing. Then I go wild.

By Blogger jo, at 11:04 pm  

I'm glad you've discovered your energetic self :) I have a feeling i'm kinda that way too... I have just been programmed to be lazy.

I hope that whatever was making you feel so sick is long gone!

By Blogger Beee, at 7:42 pm  

Love this post, Kathryn. I used to LOVE exercise, and never felt better than when I was completely tuckered out. You've given me something to think about here. Thx!

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 3:29 pm  

 

::4.12.06::

Taggy McTaggart

I'm being tagged all over the place so thought I'd better get my butt into gear on this one, but first I've got to tell you about my current brilliant idea.

Miniature cows.

I was going to get one as a pet then I realised I could milk it but my Ma said I need to get it knocked up to get milk so BINGO! Cattle breeding. I know heaps about breeding cows on account of my grandad had mad cow farming skillz. I know you can't let them eat clover which is a total pain cos our backyard is full of the stuff and that they get mastitis so you have to rub stuff on their teats. My sister's offered to handle the AI and birthing parts of it on account of 'it's fun' (her words, not mine).

I figure I can hide my cows in the laundry when the landlord comes over and when the backyard is bare of feed, I can talk them grazing along the Merri Creek. I will put them on a lead.

The only setbacks are I can only find stuff on Minature Herefords and I totally want a Fresian since I have the outfit to go with it and I need $20,000 to get my first head of cow. Plus I need a totally cute cowherding outfit, something like the awesome cowgirl costume I had as a kid I'm thinking. Plus some electric fencing. I don't really need that but it would be hella amusing when the housemates go near the cows.

I'm going to call my first one Moona Lisa.

Okay Michelle tagged me for my top five Christmas songs which is hard for me because I had Christmas songs mostly. Especailly Last Christmas by Wham! That song doesn't make sense. It's like 'Last Christmas I gave you my heart, the very next day you gave it away. This year to save me from tears, going to give it to someone better...' or something like that. But if you gave something away last year, you don't have to give away this year, unless you totally bin-scabbed it. Actually I could totally believe bin scabbing of George Michael.

  1. Santa Baby by Eartha Kitt. I think Kylie did a cover of this a few years ago but - boo hiss, Kylie. Btw I read in the paper yesterday that Dannii is going to be hosting a talent reality show soon. I nearly exploded from the irony. But Eartha rocks and so does this song.
  2. Walking In My Winter Wonderland - because you can sing walking in my winter underwear instead and it's funny.
  3. And so this is Christmas, War is Over... whatever, you know that song by John Lennon.
  4. The Final Countdown by Europe
  5. That Christmas Song by Kevin Bloody Wilson

The only time I ever owned any Christmas music was Andrew's first Christmas. I lived in Hobart and had to run into the city and do some last minute shopping before driving to the other end of the state. When I got home, Andrew had a Christmas tape in his pram! Theiving lil bugger. I didn't have time to return it so setting him on a life of crime.

The other meme is via Kada:

4 Jobs I've Had

  1. One time when I was very poor, I rang up about a job being a 'patient' for medical student exams. It paid really well but I had to have about 40 wanna doctors do a breast examination on me!
  2. Phone psychic
  3. Computer Nerd
  4. Public servant

4 Movies I watch over and over

  1. Royal Tennenbaums
  2. Bill and Ted's Excellent Adventure
  3. Wolf Creek
  4. Rocky (and woohoo, the new Rocky movie comes out in Jan. I've been holding out buying the box set until this is released. Plus the dude who played Jess in the Gilmore Girls plays Rocky's son. Hot!)

4 places I have lived

  1. North Hobart
  2. Footscray
  3. St Kilda
  4. Northcote

How boring am I, having to name the different suburbs of Melbourne.

4 Tv Shows I watch

Like Kada, I don't often watch tv but I buy stuff on DVD (or download it). Boo for network tv.

  1. Veronica Mars.
  2. Buffy
  3. Supernatural
  4. Gilmore Girls - this show bugs the shit out of me and I hate Lorelai Gilmore but I have to watch it to yell 'you're too good for her' every time Luke comes on screen. Cos you know that makes all the difference!

4 Places I've been on Vacation

  1. London, Paris, parts of Ireland and Barcelona
  2. SE Asia - Cambodia, Thailand, Vietnam
  3. Utah, LA, Las Vegas
  4. Apollo Bay

4 Websites I visit Everyday

  1. Bloglines
  2. Ausrun forums
  3. Myspace (yes, sad I know)
  4. www.bom.gov.au - I need to know the weather!

4 Favorite Foods

  1. Chocobana balls
  2. Andrew's chicken casserole - I haven't had this in years but it's his speciality: layers of thinly sliced potato and chicken breast (sometimes with a tin of peas and carrots added as a passing reference to vegetables), can of cream of chicken soup over the top and a cheesy crust.
  3. Raisin/fruit toast - only if it's the fancy stuff with big hunks of dried apricot and stuff like that in it.
  4. Apricots at the moment, and pink lady apples and nectarines and strawberries and raspberries and plums and watermelon. Let's just say "fruit". I think that covers it.

4 Places I'd rather be right now

  1. Sitting at the pool bar at on a tropical island with a margarita in my hand
  2. In bed asleep
  3. Mexico
  4. My cattle ranch in the backyard

4 Favorite Band/ Singers

  1. Beth Orton (I'm playing one of her CDs right now so that requires little thinking)
  2. Beasts of Bourbon
  3. Bruce Springsteen
  4. Flaming Lips

4 Bloggers I'll tag: (if you've already done it, or don't wish to, that's fine!)

Briony

Smaller Sue

Hayley

Jadey


I love the idea of owning miniature cows, but as an American, I had a brief start when you said your grandad had "mad cow farming skills"...it took me a second to realize your grandad didn't raise cows with mad cow disease, but rather he was a cow whisperer. Ha!

By Blogger Amazon Alanna, at 12:13 am  

oh man, i busted a gut laughing at this entry of genius :)
the cows, george michael, the final countdown... the hits just kept on coming!

your son's casserole sounds good and so does this fancy fruit toast you speak of! doesn't sound like that stuff from woolies in the purple wrapper (i forget what it's called!)

By Blogger Shauna, at 12:17 am  

3 words - 'Mad Cow Disease'. Very funny.

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 8:36 am  

Bwahahaha....you cow whore! Hide them in the laundry when the landlord comes over LOL and Linda's got me ROFLMAO. I hope that's the right acronymy thingy.

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 3:06 pm  

mwahahaha please tell me you can't really get miniature cows? Or if you can, please show me a picture!!! I want one too!!!!!! I'm sure I could fit it on my balcony?

By Blogger Beee, at 4:13 pm  

Awww, shucks! You're the first person to o-fishully tag me! And everyone knows how much I hate memes (NOT, i've got about 10 sitting there as drafts waiting for lazy days to post them - LOL)...

I think that you're onto something with the miniature cows. Electric fences are FUN!

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 5:03 pm  

Geez I HAVE been slack and away for a long time, sorry!
Do the little cows come with their own inbuilt attachments for rotisserie placement? Mhhhmmm yummy - little cows!! I'll have a couple! hehe
Bri

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 4:34 pm  

 

Stupid Run

I went out for a run althis morning, intending to do an easy 5 km but was enjoying myself so kept going. Ended up doing 11.5 km -- oops! I did end up walking the last couple of kms. My damn running shoes - every time I go for a long run or a run when it's hot, my feet must swell and the shoes get very very tight across the toes causing blisters and pain. I so can't afford new running shoes at the moment so I'm just going to have to put up with it.

Woohoo, I just got a call about a job. Interview tomorrow.

Yesterday I worked out the runs I want to do for the next six months. The main ones are:

1/5 Lorne Mountain to Surf


7/2 - Sunset Series 1 @ Zoo (running through the zoo, how cool is that?)

1/4 - Run For the Kids - I'm so excited about this one.

20/5 - Great Ocean Road Half Marathon

That's a whole world of challenges.

Hi Kathryn!
great to meet you on Saturday - it was so fun and Beck is amazing! 11.5km?? you legend!!
I did the zoo run last year - it's great fun (note to self - must do it in 07). Good luck with your training :)

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 11:24 am  

oh and good luck for the job today!!

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 11:25 am  

Fingers crossed for the job. Very easy to see how you could mistake 5kms for 11.5kms..... not! Have a great day.

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 11:43 am  

Oh Kathryn, I have been raking my brains trying to think of a race to do before R4K. I completely forgot about the Sunset Series. Thanks :-)
Good luck for the job!!

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 4:39 pm  

Those runs sound great :) I haven't even tried my new running shoes yet!!! eeek you can borrow them if you want :)

Good luck for the interveiw tomorrow!!!

By Blogger Beee, at 5:49 pm  

On the blisters - check your socks. Cotton isn't the best fabric - it absorbs sweat, stays wet and tends to cause friction, resulting in nasty blisters.

Go for running socks in a synthetic fabric that wicks the moisture away from your skin.

Of course, shoes that fit well are a must too...but as you say, expensive!

By Blogger Kek, at 6:12 pm  

ooh good luck with the interview, fingers crossed for ya! toes and eyes too X-)

Those races sounds great, especially the Great Ocean Rd half.. that'd be spectacular!

By Blogger Shauna, at 12:10 am  

Not sure how 11.5km is stupid!! I'd love to get swept up in the swing of things and suddenly realise I'd just run 5km more that I intended!!! Unfortunately I'm still at the stage where my lungs rather noisily remind me I have done enough.

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 11:18 am  

 

::3.12.06::

Partying

Whoa, what a bunch of party animals those blogging girls are. I've been waiting to see photo posts since I don't have a camera but I think everyone's too 'tired and emotional' to be up and blogging!

It was great to catch up with everyone and omg, did everyone look stunning! We were definitely the best dressed bunch of woman in the place.

The karaoke queen award had to go to Beck for her rendition of Big Spender. I think everyone in the place stopped! Think there are many pics and video to come.

I left early, planning to do a fun run this morning but woke up sniffly and achey and pre-menstrual so had a fierce internal debate and went back to bed.

Oh Kathryn, thats no good. Hope you are feeling better soon.

Sounds like you had a blast last night :-)!!

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 1:44 pm  

Great catching up last night.. You looked fantastic and I loved your hair. Bummer about the fun run and hope u feel better soon.

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 6:38 pm  

It was SO good to see you last night. I will send off some piccys to you.
I had a ball! So busy reading everyone else's blog I cbf updating mine yet LOL

By Blogger Jadey 0:-), at 8:12 pm  

How fun! I need to get together with some bloggers up here or in Chicago soon. And no worries about the tagging thing :) It's not mandatory!

By Blogger Michelle, at 1:47 am  

Sounds like a great time was had by all. You're the first post i've found on it, am still waiting for piccies.

Beck's Big W**ker is great isn't it?

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 12:14 pm  

Definitely sounded like a great night!!

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 3:04 pm  

 

::2.12.06::

Glass Slippers

I didn't think I'd be making it to the Blogger's Dinner tonight but things have fallen into place and I'll surely be there, just like Cinderella going to the ball, except I'll be taking the Festiva, not a couch made from pumpkins and I'll not be really wearing glass slippers although I am thinking of wearing my ruby ones (ala Wizard of Oz).

Woohoo! Happy me :D

I'm starting to Christmas sorted too. There are two things my mum loves: the Saints footy team and coffee (well she also loves gangsta rappers, I kid you not. She's staying home on Christmas day because if she goes to my auntie's for dinner, she'll miss the cable special on Tupac!) Anyway in one of the catalogues for the local shops, they had 20oz AFL coffee mugs. I've been trying to figure out how much 20oz is cos I only wanted to buy if it was HUGE! I finally converted it and it's like 550 ml. That's definitely huge. Mum will love it. She's weird and loves cold coffee so sometimes she makes two cups - one to drink hot and one to have cold. With her huge AFL coffe mug, she'll be able to do both!

I want to go to Acland St because one of the cake shops sells these nougat logs she loves so I figure I'll fill the mug with them and she'll be one happy Mum.

Andrew wants cash. That's boring but he needs to get ID and that doesn't come cheap. I'm glad, it means he wants to do normal things like go out drinking and seeing bands rather than being a gaming nerd.

I'd not been planning on doing any decorations but the church around the corner is selling Christmas trees and I so want to go get one. I think when I moved, I threw my decorations out but I can improvise. I'm just waiting for my chronically fatigued sister to wake up so I can tell her the idea.

Cool gift for your Mum. Mum's are so hard to buy for aren't they? I still haven't worked out what to get mine. She lives in a motorhome and has no room for anything - and I'm lacking in creativity. A mug full of chocolates is as good an idea as any - thanks Kathryn!

(Hope you have a good night tonight Cinderella... Don't go kissing any Princes.)

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 10:32 pm  

Mmm, Acland Street cakes....I'll hopefully be in Melbourne sometime in January so I might ask you to take us on a *a-hem* cake tour :-)

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 3:03 pm  

 

Email Update

My old email addy isn't working - I think the account has been deactivated or something. You can reach me at - kathrynoh at nemesis dot com dot au - if you have been trying email me (or if you just want to send an email saying 'hey kathryn, you rock' that's cool too).

Hey Kathryn, you rock! I'll work on those question this weekend :-)

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 2:42 pm  

 

stats:

current weight:
76.6 kg

start weight:
110.1 kg

total loss:
33.5 kg

goal weight:
70 kgs

 

measurements:

boobs: 100 cm

waist: 81 cm

hips: 109 cm

thighs: 50 cm

 

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