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[a weight loss story]

*kathrynoh at nemesis dot com dot au*

::30.4.06::

PS.

The shoe shop had another pair of boots - same brand but just the plain, knee length zip up ones. I think I'll be back next payday. They also had some great casual shoes. I love that place - cheap shoes rock my world.

These are my boots (well the original ones - it's a very old photo).

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Go the boots!

I have a love/hate relationship with shoes myself.

Take care
Ang

By Blogger Ang, at 1:40 pm  

Love the boots, I used to have a similar pair that I bought at Pump, I loved them and they were so comfy. But I wore them so often that they died a slow and painful death and I eventually had to give them a decent sendoff and try to get on with my life!
Lucky you finding another pair the same.
Bri

By Blogger Briony, at 3:22 pm  

oh god, i understand the pain of loosing your favourite boots! long black boots are so foxy, glad you found yourself a new pair :)

By Blogger Kt, at 4:34 pm  

Great stockings !!

By Blogger Margaret, at 10:16 am  

By the way, did you want to tell us the story about why you were in the bathtub taking a photo of your boots? hahahahaha. At least that's what it looks like.
Bri

By Blogger Briony, at 7:55 am  

I think we'll have to go to that shoe shop together some time!!

By Blogger philippa_moore, at 9:34 am  

Love the boots and your style!

By Blogger Mary, at 7:05 pm  

Cheaps shoes Rock my world too!

By Blogger The Candid Bandit, at 10:02 pm  

Cool tights! When my calves finally get thin enough, I want to get a pair of boots like that.

By Blogger Jennette Fulda, at 2:48 am  

 

Boots

I used to have a great pair of boots - long, lace up ones. I loved them. When I worked in the city last year, I'd often wear them to work then change into my runners to walk home. I didn't want the extra weight of the boots weighing me down so I'd leave them in my drawer and take them home with me on the tram the next night. A perfect plan until one night: I had major crisis going on and spent the whole tram trip on the mobile trying to sort things out. I jumped off at my stop, still talking into my phone and only realised later that I'd left my boots behind. Nobody handed them in and I mourned for my lost boots (and, I swear to god, I saw a chick wearing them at a bar in the city a few weeks ago).

Yesterday I went to favourite shoe and they still had the same boots in stock. How happy was I? I *had* to buy them. You can't argue with fate. But I didn't even stop there - I had almost got out when I saw a great pair of shoes. Mary Jane style with a chunky heel. Only one pair left in stock and they fitted perfectly - I can't fight that.

***

My eating has been out of control lately. I have no idea what's going on with me. I just eat and eat and eat like a runaway eating machine. I have no idea why I'm doing this - I want so badly to get to my goal but I seem to be constantly putting food in my gob.

Everyone goes through these phases, some lasting longer than ohters. At least you're exercising to get rid of some of the food you're eating so you shouldn't see too much damage. Plus, knowing you, it's probably still healthy stuff you're eating just too much of it. I hope it passes for you soon.
As for the boots, sometimes fate just steps in and screams at you and you have to follow the directions "buy the boots", "buy the boots" hehe. At least you didn't have to choose new ones, the decision was out of your hands.
Hope you're having a great weekend!
Bri

By Blogger Briony, at 10:45 am  

The universe certainly was trying to tell you something so there's no point fighting it. Lucky bugger if you were always able to wear boots, I guess it comes with star territory.

By Blogger CaramelKitKat, at 12:33 pm  

I used to buy shoes...have so many in my cupboard that I've never worn it's not even funny any more.

But now my addiction has turned to trainers...keep seeing so many "bargains", I have to use every bit of willpower not to keep buying them!

By Blogger Jaykay, at 5:45 pm  

Being a self confessed shoe addict, I love good shoe karma - if you are meant to buy a certain pair, things will just work out. Have a great week Kathryn, Ails x

By Blogger Ails, at 12:09 pm  

I love love love shoes. I love love love boots. And I love love love food. Sorry, not helpful - I know.

By Blogger Jules, at 8:57 pm  

Boots *drool*. I would die if I lost any of mine but how cool to find the same style again! Food out of control hey...stop it :-)

By Blogger Mary, at 7:04 pm  

 

::29.4.06::

Cheese

What sort of cheese do you buy?

I'm very much on the cheese fence - sometimes I buy a yummy full fat vintage cheese thinking I'll use less because it's more flavoursome and other times I get the low fat option. I've never found a low fat cheese I really like though. Are there any good ones out there? I don't see the point in eating a non-delicious cheese though.

I missed my train so I've got more time to blog now!

Oooh, I love a greek cheese at the moment that I buy from my local deli. It start with K..Kefal...really long name. Yum! I then have to buy prosciutto, pickled gherkins and olives as well.

I love cheese but sadly don't eat much now but when I do, I eat the good stuff. I am yet to find a low fat cheese that satisfies. I don't mind Light Bodalla but that's more because of the name. It's close to idiot in Croatian LOL, old family joke ;-)

By Blogger Mary, at 11:35 am  

I'm loving lite cream cheese right now! its the best on an english muffin or bagel with fresh tomato & basil pesto. there is almost always cream or cottage cheese in the fridge. I also buy these cheese slices that are half a pt, mainland super low fat. not much taste but is nice in a cheese & onion toastie!

By Blogger Kt, at 12:53 pm  

I'm with you, if i'm having cheese I want cheese, not a slice of something that resembles the colour of cheese but tastes like soap. What's the use?
As for low fat I like cottage cheese if i'm having toast, or the 5% philly is good. I use that instead of margarine.
My favourite cheese of all time is the Castello range (Blue and White). White Castello, fresh crusty bread and strawberries (with a glass of champers or three!!). I love all cheese though so my list of favourite cheeses could be a very long post!! hehe
Low fat fetta is great on home made pizzas too.
I would be happy to hear of a low fat cheese that actually tastes like cheese!!
Bri

By Blogger Briony, at 2:43 pm  

i'm pretty easy to please in the cheese department... I normally go for the WW one. I've never been big on the cheeses tho....

now you have me craving it LOL.

By Blogger Dee, at 3:27 pm  

As far as getting bang for your buck, I don't think you can beat parmesan. A little bit goes a long way and you can put it on/in just about everything.

There are some things that should just not be messed with, and cheese is one of them. However, if I am going through a salad sanga phase and need lower fat cheese I always get Coon Light pre-sliced.

By Blogger CaramelKitKat, at 4:31 pm  

kefalotiri...hehe ... this is the cheese Mary buys! Its the cheese we greeks use in pasta, or we fry it in olive oil and squeeze lemon on top (this is soooooo good!). But it aint low fat baby!

If you like gouda though, the Milner brand is very low fat...I think it only has 30% of the fat of regular gouda. And its even tastier.

You looked amazing in your last pictures, did I ever tell you this?

By Blogger Argy, at 5:39 pm  

Personally, whenever I get cheesy urges, I'd much rather go all out and eat the full fat stuff. One thing I can recommend is those Mainland cheese and biscuit packs, I always get the extra tasty or the edam. It's nice knowing with those that the only portion of cheese I'll eat is what's in front of me (about 25 grams). I still love brie and camembert but eat them only sparingly now (or, rather, gorge myself on it for one night and then not touch it for a month!).

By Blogger Sarah, at 7:09 pm  

I'm right into the Philly 5% Cream Cheese at the moment, with some Sweet Chilli Sauce poured over the top, eaten with some wafer crackers!!

My all time favourite cheese is Cracker Barrel Vintage, but it is a rarity in our house now!

By Blogger Jaykay, at 8:39 pm  

Cottage cheese - full of flavour but probably not what you are after.

By Blogger Jadey, at 9:01 pm  

I am definitely a sharp, vintage, full-fat AND taste cheese kind of girl. I used to have a lot of the low fat cheeses but ended up not eating any becuase I didn't enjoy it. Now I have the good stuff, but a lot less of it. At the moment I'm loving shaved Jarlsberg and prosciutto on turkish bread - grilled. Mmmm.

By Blogger Els, at 9:29 am  

Just remembered another one.

I love Haloumi cheese wrapped in bacon and grilled....absolutely delicious!!

By Blogger Jaykay, at 5:43 pm  

I LOVE cheese and before this weight loss journey indulged to my heart's content on King Island Brie and Camembert but unfortunately this is one thing I've had to give up. I use low fat cream and cottage creese, Kraft free plastic slices (as only half a point each) and low fat ricotta occasionally

By Blogger Ails, at 12:06 pm  

Gotta agre with Caramel. Mat and I invest in a good fresh parmesan. we use less, its packed full of flavour and we can use it on anything if we get a cheese urge.

By Blogger The Candid Bandit, at 10:06 pm  

 

::28.4.06::

Weigh In - 74.8

Up a kilogram this week - it's not unexpected but still annoying. I seem to be hovering around this 73-75 kg mark forever. I really don't need to do much to gain at the moment - my weight is like a frail butterfly. It wouldn't be so bad if I'd gone out and had a huge binge-a-rama but it's just all the little extras.

I've had enough. This is it. From now I'm going to be the Jackie Chan of weight loss - I'm going to kick 74's arse then giving 73 a roundhouse kick to the head. I'm going to flatten the chops of 72. Near enough isn't good enough for me.

I don't know if I mentioned this before but I'm thinking of changing my goal to 65 instead of 70. When I started out, 70 shimmered on the horizon like a distant dream. It's the top of my healthy weight range but I don't know if I want to be the top of the range. I'd like to be somewhere around the middle and 65 sounds good to me.

You're a machine Kathryn - you'll get there... haaayaaa!

By Blogger Cinders, at 8:22 am  

Change the goal! Last time I did the weight loss thing, I hit my goal and didn't make a new one. Now my goal is to try and get back there, keep making new goals.

By Blogger tylersstory, at 8:27 am  

I think it is great to set a goal but keep in the back of your mind that it may change when you get there.
Are we going to see a pic of the new hair cut ?
Glad to see your sister is well and truly moved in - hopefully you can turn her into the gym junkie that you are and get her healthy along the way.
I'm with you on a the microwave - would make life so much easier for you.
Have a great weekend and good luck for the Mother's Day Classic !!
Cheers for now !
Me

By Blogger Me, at 9:32 am  

Snap - I'd set my goal at 76 (top of my weight range), but now I'm thinking 72/73). Think I'll get to 76 first though, and then decide! Have a great weekend.

By Blogger Sue, at 10:18 am  

Go Jackie Chan...lol

By Blogger Leighanne, at 11:03 am  

Gains are such killers babe. Maybe it's time to change what you are doing and mix it up a bit cause your body is getting used to the running - maybe swap it for some spin classes or something. (Im no expert LMAO)
ANyway wishing you luck! I hope all is well!

By Blogger Jadey, at 1:12 pm  

I love Jackie Chan and always thought you reminded me of him. ;D

By Blogger Margaret, at 4:18 pm  

Bwahahaha, Jackie Chan eat your heart out! I don't know if this will help but I reckon you should focus on getting to 70kg and then see how you feel. No rules hey!

By Blogger Mary, at 7:32 pm  

Good on you for whipping those kg's off kung fu style!! Glad to hear you are not living solo any more. Always good to have a bit of company, even if you don't need to talk it is helpful to know someone else is in the house.

By Blogger Jules, at 7:56 pm  

Kathryn - regarding protein shakes - they are very filling and come in a huge range of flavours. Good as a fill in if you don't want to eat anything.

I would definitely recommend them.

And 65kg is an achievable goal if that's really where you want to be!

By Blogger Jaykay, at 8:28 am  

 

::27.4.06::

Run

I just signed up for the Mother's Day Classic - woohoo! I wasn't sure what event I wanted to do so put down the 8 km walk. I figure I can always run it if I want to and at least I won't finish last. Is anyone else doing it?

I'm also thinking of trekking up to Sydney in August to visit my sister and entering the City to Surf.

Me, me me!!

Please come and say hello...you know that we'll all be very easy to find as we'll have pink ribbons in our hair (not sure where the guys are going to put theirs!!) and we'll be drinking champagne after the race.....yippee!!

By Blogger Jaykay, at 4:30 pm  

Ah, so we'll be able to meet, whoot! We'll have to organise a lunch/dinner/drinks around your visit :-)

By Blogger Mary, at 7:29 pm  

 

Hair Cut

I decided today I couldn't stand my hair for a moment longer so I got it cut after work. It's a worry getting a last minute appointment because you have to wonder why the stylist isn't booked out but I took the chance. I went back to the salon I went to last time -- they are very pricey but they are also good. Plus they have massage chairs. I'm a sucker for a massage chair. I also got a complimentary hand massage tonight. Score!

It's not quite what I wanted - I think it looks more like a '20s style bob than a '60s mod bob but I really like. But I think I want to change the colour now. I'm thinking some big chunks of bright red through it.

***

My sister has well and truly moved in. She wants to train with me but she is so unfit so makes it difficult. We walked to the supermarket the other day and she was struggling. I had to walk behind, poking her. She is all sickly and asthmatic as well as being unfit. But she's coming to the gym with tomorrow.

***

I really think I need to invest in a microwave. It's so hard managing without one. By the time I get home after the gym, I'm buggered so it's a major effort to cook up a healthy meal. I like having good food in the freezer that I can just reheat. And yeah, I could reheat it on the stove but that's a pain in the butt.

I also want to get a saucepan. I only have one biggish one and it has a dodgy handle. I've tried rescrewing it but can't tighten it. I had a look in a homewares shop near work today and they had a big, stock pot size saucepan that came with a pasta colinder (sp?) and a steamer for $69. It was tempting but then I realised I'd have to take it to the gym with me after work. The problem is that I go to the gym every night so it's never convenient to have a large saucepan on me.

The third thing I have to invest in is boots. Why is it when the heels are right, the tops are wrong and vice versa? I just want a plain boot with a mid-height chunky heel in black. At a reasonable price. I'm going to try my fave shoe shop this weekend - it's on the other side of the city so I've delayed going there but I have to trek across town on Saturday anyway so hopefully I'll get lucky.

***

I'm not hopeful about my weigh in tomorrow -- I think I'll have a small gain but I'm not too worried. Now I've started tracking again, I'll soon be on top of things again.

You can get decent microwaves at Kmart and Target for about $80 or $90 when they're on sale. Funky chrome ones too, not dodgy 80's looking ones!

I couldn't live without a microwave! David and I lived together for three months before our wedding and we didn't get a microwave until we got one as a wedding present! Those 3 months were hard!

It can be hard even just walking with people who aren't at the same fitness level as you!! I was just strolling along Sydney Rd with my sister in law last Saturday, only to find she was about 200m behind me, and struggling to keep up!!

Hope you have a great weekend and can find your dream boots :)

By Blogger philippa_moore, at 11:51 pm  

Whooo hoo for the Mothers Day fun run. That's brilliant. Hope first prize is a brand spanking new microwave with a great pair of boots inside.

Know what you mean re the boots too. I ended up getting ones with higher heels because all I wanted was a plain pair of black boots. No buckles, no flashy bits, no fold down bits, no scrunchy bits. But seems they aren't doing that in a chuncky heel this year - well not in my size anyway :D

By Blogger Margaret, at 4:20 pm  

You and M have seriously got to get some digital cameras! *drool* massage chairs at a salon, nice. Big chunks of red in a 20's bob, even better! I reckon that would really suit you.

Great to hear that you sister wants to join you in working out. It sounds like it'll be a little work to adjust to working out with someone not at your level but I reckon you'll work out a routine. Share some, solo others.

If you haven't bought a pan yet, can I suggest a Tefal (Jamie Oliver). They are SUPER for cooking with no oil. I use mine for everything now. I used to always buy lots of cheapies but one good investment and your set!

And boots, love 'em true. Good luck finding a decent pair! I hate *fashion* for this reason.

By Blogger Mary, at 7:27 pm  

 

::26.4.06::

Counting

As I said below, I started counting calories again today. It's amazing how it keeps you honest. I've already identified a problem area - that big coffee and chocolate mini muffin I have for morning tea. One hundred calories in a teeny muffin is not so good.

I think tonight I would have assumed that I'd not eaten a lot today and felt comfortable having a treat but now I know I am close to my calorie limit so I resisted. Well I did have a diet mousse but that's much better than what I could have had.

Over the past few days I've been feeling like I'm coming down with a cold or flu - not totally sick but not 100% either. I hate that. Sometimes I'd rather just get the damn bug and be done with it. I was like this last winter too and I'm not sure if it means I'm getting more sickly and picking up things easily or if I'm getting healthier and instead of getting sick, my body is fighting it.

I had doubts about going to the gym tonight but I went and did a huge run with giant hills on the treadmill for half hour then some fast running - I have this weird thing that my "reward" for doing the giant hills (which is a top fat burning workout) is to finish with about 10 minutes of running flat out as fast as I can. Yes, I am insane!

After that I did my upper body workout. I'm getting better at pushups - my PT had me doing them on a bar on the Smith's machine and I'm gradually getting the bar down lower. My goal is to do them on the floor - real, live pushups. I saw a chick doing proper pushups the other day and I was so impressed because most girls don't do them at all. She was even doing one handed ones (show off). I'll do that one day.

My push ups are pathetic. Mark and Jake rolled round on the floor last time I tried to do 'real' ones (supportive souls that they are).

By Blogger Sue, at 6:21 am  

Hope you don't get worse. I did the same thing last night, pushed myself to go to gym. I am envious of you running flat out for 10 minutes though. I have trouble running without stopping. I can do pushups though, but they are hard. I can do them on my toes now but probably don't lower myself as much as I should. You will soon be doing them too.

By Blogger michelle, at 7:23 am  

Yes you are insane!! And I do my pushups either against the wall or using my knees on the floor. One day I will do one correctly :D

Well done for going to the gym anyway. Hope you sweated that nasty bug out.

By Blogger Margaret, at 8:52 am  

We're all bound to pick up some little bug here and there but just hope it doesn't get too bad. Well done on all the running. Sneaky little muffins.

By Blogger Cinders, at 8:55 am  

I can't even do girly push-ups without collapsing! I really need to work on my arm strength ;)

By Blogger Els, at 9:58 am  

lol, i so cant do pushups, i can hardly do the girl ones (properly).
LOL at your reward! yes you are insane! sound like a fit girl though!
hope u r feeling bright eyed & bushy tailed soon!

By Blogger Kt, at 6:50 pm  

LOL my push ups are pathetic too but they do make a difference! You really motivate me to exercise with more intention, thanks :-)

By Blogger Mary, at 8:52 pm  

 

Floundering

Last night, I went to see Martha Wainwright. Damn, can that girl sing! It was fantastic.

But, onto weight loss. For the past month or longer, I've been up and down with my weight. Everything seems much harder and I've been telling myself it's because I'm close to goal. With only a few kilograms to lose, my weight has been reaching a "set point" and wants to settle around there.

But, you know, the honest truth is that I've been eating too much. I haven't been tracking my food and the treats - chocolates and glasses of wine - have been steadily sneaking in. It's not like an all out binge, just bad habits that need to be beaten back into submission with a big stick.

I think the only way I'm going to beat this is to go back to counting calories. I need to keep myself honest and, even though it's a pain, counting calories is the best way for me to do it.

Seeing Phil reach her goal and Angie almost there has been a kick in the pants. There is nothing *magic* about getting to goal - just honest work. Same as it is at any time with weight loss.

You are so close Kathryn and you CAN do it too. Go for it!!

I really think counting calories (or points) does work and gets us in the habit of knowing how much food we can eat and still not put on weight.
Best of luck for your new start.

By Blogger Suzy, at 8:11 am  

I have been having teh same problem. Complacency sets in doesn't it because we ar ein so much better shape than a year ago. Trouble is those bad habits creep back and the weight does to. You will get therr soon though.

By Blogger michelle, at 9:06 am  

I'm sorry, but the heading of your post made me picture you wading along the edge of a lagoon at night, torch in one hand, spear in the other, catching flounder! See, I'm still a country girl at heart. As I think you've commented, you and I are stuck at about the same impasse at the moment. Hopefully Phil's success will spark us up!

By Blogger Sue, at 12:51 pm  

Exactly what I have been thinking about myself. I began wallowing in self-pity because I hadn't reached goal but truth is I have eating too much and moving too little. BUT we can all go back to doing what is needed to be done.

You can do what needs to be done. Yep counting calories is a pain (just like counting points is) but if it helps to reasses portion sizes and types of food to eat, then it is a huge help.

If I post any more recipes I will put calorie details up too :D

By Blogger Margaret, at 1:07 pm  

exactly! i agree, honest hard work with the key word being honest! if we are honest to ourself, we know wy we are bouncing around the same weight, cause once we are back to stayign within out points/calories limit & exercising we start losing again...calories in calories out..why is it we make it more complicated than that! LOL

I too am getting serious about getting to goal, enought stuffing around!

i am going back to calories, i am a member of Calorie King (used to be dietclub) and so it is easier than me writing it down as i just search the database and record my daily eating. havign a break from points and doing this - but both are much of a muchness really.

it's funy, we feel like all is going okay, till as you say, extra treats start sneaking in, and we get to the point where this is happening more often, then everyday!

You are close and with your refreshed attitude, u will be there so soon!

u r a true inspiration! :-)

By Blogger Angel, at 2:52 pm  

Bloody fantastic post and a crucial one for anyone starting this journey! You hit the nail on the head. Whilst you're losing weight, you have to be a little vigilant but when you're maintaining, that's when you can enjoy more treats again but in moderation of course. You are so close now, keep going!

By Blogger Mary, at 6:14 pm  

counting calories is a good way to to get everything back in check, you've done amazingly well & getting close to goal, so I can imgine how a few untracked treats could creep back in.
i'm sure we'll b seeing you at goal soon!

By Blogger Kt, at 7:53 pm  

 

::22.4.06::

Fun House

Sometimes I feel like I'm living in a fun house. You know, the room with the weird-arsed mirrors. When I see my reflection, I'm either much fatter or much thinner than I am in my mind.

After the gym today, I wandered through Target with no intention to buy, after all I have no money until payday. I really need a coat though. Is it just me or do other people suffer from the cold so much more now? I have to say this for fat, it's damn fine insulation. Maybe I should have kept some it around to line my walls. All my life I've hated those thin chicks who bitch about the cold. "Get some meat on ya bones," I'd yell at them. And now I am one!

So I saw the cutest duffel coat with a furry parka style hood. I had to try it on. Just had to. I checked myself in the mirror and was like - "holy shit, I'm THIN!!!" It hit me like a right hook from Mahammod Ali. I've thought before that I look better or thinner, but never thin.

Of course, next time I look in the mirror, I'll be expecting it and I'll be amazed at how fat I am but, for now, I have the thin image of me in my head.

Anyway they have 25% off coats at the moment and it might not have been there on pay day and I've already dipped into my rent money to get my Martha Wainwright ticket so I thought what the hell? Did I mean I look like a full on 60s mod chick in it? Did I mean I love my coat? Which might be real handy when I'm using it to cover me on that park bench I'll soon be calling home.

This has completely solidified my decision to get a 60s style mod hair bob - shorter at the back with layeredy bits curling onto my face. Oh yeah, and the home colour looks fab. I really like my hair darker. (And, for M, it's a Soft Colour - semi permanent).

Priceline also had these Garnier highlight kits for pretty cheap and they looked easy to use so I think I might put some highlights in next week. They only came in various blonde shades though and I'd prefer red but then everything goes red in my hair anyway. The only time I've ever sucessfully gone blonde, it took three applications of triple strength bleach and my scalp has never been the same since.

It's almost definite my sister is moving in next week. She's sold her car and bought her plane ticket. She thought my mum would be upset but mum is pleased to see the back of her - lol. I have mixed feelings about it - she can be a burden at times (and if you are reading this, Anita, stop snooping around on my computer) but it means she can supervise the eveness of my highlights and do other girlie girl things with me.

Finally, for everyone who commented saying they don't know who Martha Wainwright is - you should check her out. In the immoral words of Molly, "do yourself a favour". You won't regret it.

whoohoo for thin thoughts! you'll have to post an updated pic.
btw, garnier multi highlights are easy as! i have them through my hair at the mo

By Blogger Kt, at 5:36 pm  

I have definitely found I am colder this autumn than I was last autumn - I was nearly 30kg heavier, so that's why - it didn't click until I read this!! I just kept thinking it must be a change in the eco system or something!! (what a nong!)

I need a coat too! Might check out Target tomorrow if they've got 25% off - thanks for the tip!

And enjoy Martha on Monday!

By Blogger philippa_moore, at 9:31 pm  

I think your hair would look phenonmenal in that bob style.

By Blogger Mia Goddess, at 12:38 am  

yeah for having the image of being thin, and for getting into the 73's. woohoo. the colour in the hair sounds nice.
have a good week

By Blogger Baby Bump Wanted, at 4:35 pm  

oooh 60s look... love love love that. i think that'd be a tops haircut! go for it!

and yes, i feel the cold more too! sitting here in ugg boots and trackies on this glorious scottish spring day (14'C)

By Blogger Shauna, at 1:04 am  

I am having less trouble coping with the cold than I used to - I think it's because I'm fitter so my circulation is better.

By Blogger Sue, at 12:27 pm  

Thanks for the update. I have been snooping around Priceline but thought I had better wait until after the Fitness Expo. I couldn't bear it if I had stuffed up AND had to meet Cath and Mary.

Whooo Hooo on thin coats. When will you realise you are a healthy sized sexy slightly crazy women who is going to look good in anything.. ANYTHING!!!

And I bought a coat in Target too. Even though the rest of my winter wardrobe is black, black, black with a bit of grey or cream, I bought a BRIGHT RED coat. And I LOVE it. LOL.

Have a great time tonight. Looking forward to the review (which I will have to read at work on Thursday as the home PC is not working terribly well at the moment)

By Blogger Margaret, at 3:31 pm  

What a great feeling to think that while looking in a mirror!!!! Wow :) Although I'm still well 'insulated' I'm definitely looking forward to the day when I HAVE to buy a new coat! You'll have to post a photo when your 60s mod look is complete! Have a great time tonight, btw!

By Blogger Ails, at 3:42 pm  

I haven't lost much weight, but I'm feeling the cold more than ever!! Its crazy!

By Blogger Ang, at 3:59 pm  

Could we be feeling colder because we are wearing less clothes to *hide* and quite possibly going out more etc :-)

Great to hera about your sister moving in. I think it's fun to live with girls (I grew up with 3) but then I've only really flated with boys, go figure. Sisters are different though. I hope it works out well for both of you.

By Blogger Mary, at 7:44 pm  

 

::21.4.06::

Weigh In - 73.8

Finally, the 73s. I've been waiting to get here for the last month. It really has been the most bumpy month in my weight loss and the first time I've had a real set back. Thankfully, I'm back down to pioneering territory.

I think the longer you spend losing weight, the less fluctuations of the scales mean to you. Sure it's always nice to see a steady decline but, when you're starting out, a slight gain one week is a huge disaster. Even a small loss is hell. I remember a few weeks in, I only lost a few grams and I was devastated.

Now I realise that weigh in isn't like getting an exam back. It's not like getting a pass or fail grade. And it definitely isn't a reward or punishment from some great scale god somewhere. All it is, is a reflection of how much I weigh at a specific moment in time and that reflection can include many non-fat related factors.

***

This isn't weight related but I decided ages ago I wanted to see Martha Wainwright when she toured. Then, because I had to wait so long to get paid, her show last Thursday was sold out. That made me very sad until I got the street press this week and saw a second show announced. Except that I again had no money and the show is on Monday night. I debated spending my rent money on a ticket - my landlords come around to collect the rent in person and I never know if they are going to turn up. I thought of ringing to see when they plan on coming around but that might remind them that I owe rent.

Yesterday, I phoned about tickets and found out Monday night's show had sold out but she was also doing one on Tuesday. I ran down after work and scored my ticket. When fate is screaming at you to do something, you have to listen.

So anyway, since no one else I know is into Martha Wainwright so I'm going alone on my own. I'm a bit nervous about that but I'd much rather go on my own than not at all. I'd much rather go on my own than drag along someone who doesn't want to be there.

Still I do get a bit self-conscious about these things and imagine everyone is thinking looking at the loser with no friends even though I've never thought that if I've ever seen someone alone at a band. Actually I've never even paid attention to whether someone is alone or not.

***


Btw. I dunno if anyone noticed this but I had a typo in my weigh in weight last week. I said I was 24.5 kg. Thank God that's not true.

Well done on getting into the 73's - good for you.
You are right - the number is just a number for you at a given point in time - I have never thought of it like that so thanks for putting that thought out there.
I have no idea who Martha Wainwright is but I hope you enjoy the show - I am fate decided to work it out so that you could go.
Have a great weekend and take care !
Me

By Blogger Me, at 8:56 am  

24.5 - how very alarming!

By Blogger Sue, at 12:58 pm  

Whooo Hoooo. That is fantastic Kathryn. And well done for going to do something you really want to do. And you never know you may see a gorgeous, hunky, straight guy who also has no friends (LOL only kidding) and he may respond well to a great pick up line. I don't have any so can't offer any suggestions though..

And how did your hair colour turn out. I am a huge fan of the chocolate and you reminded me I need to go and get my hair done. But as money is tight I wouldn't mind experimenting with a DIY kit. If you are happy with the results do you mind letting me know which kit you used. Thanks :D

By Blogger Margaret, at 2:04 pm  

duuuuuuuuuuuuuuude! i am so, so jealous. I looove Martha Wainwright. She is on cardio rotation this weekend. Gareth got me hooked on her. I hope you have a brilliant time :)

By Blogger Shauna, at 11:31 pm  

no idea who martha wainwright is either! but hope u hav fun!
73 kg, how much hav u lost in total now??

By Blogger Kt, at 9:56 am  

LOL! I often contemplate spending my rent on something else like a one off gig too. I reckon going by yourself is really cool :-)

By Blogger Mary, at 2:38 pm  

 

::20.4.06::

Chocolate

Lately I've been thinking about chocolate - not to eat but for my hair. So tonight I popped into Priceline and got a hair colour. I'm just waiting for it to process now. So, spookily enough, when I went to pay I joined their club and got a free box of chocolates. A cheap version of Guylan shells. I've put them in the fridge and keep telling myself it will be low quality chocolate so not to bother opening them.

I had breakfast with my sister this morning. Not much to eat but three cups of coffee. I guess that's excessive but I normally have a large takeaway one so I figure it's about the same. Maybe. I did feel jumpy for a long time afterwards.

During breakfast my other sister called. She's decided to move to Melbourne, into one of the spare rooms in my house. On Monday. I'll believe when I see it. It made me panic though, what if I can't sustain my new habits with her around? It's a lot easier to get off track when you have a partner in crime.

That made me wonder about what I'm doing. Is it just to fill in time? Something I've taken up because Andrew left home and I had empty nest syndrome? I don't think so. I've been lucky that I've had ample time to fit my exercise schedule into my life but, even when I've been flooded with work and other commitments, I've found the time to go to the gym and I've made the effort to eat well.

I guess whenever something or someone new comes into our life we have to work out if they are going to fit into the gaps we already have or if we are going to make those gaps wider to accomodate them - and if so, what do we sacrifice in the process. Where do I place in ME in the priorities of my life?

Now I must go wash off this colour.

oh, you'll hav to show us how the hair turns out!
maybe u could encourage your sister to get into your new healthy lifestyle?

By Blogger Kt, at 8:32 pm  

I think you should keep yourself as priority No. 1. I like KT's idea about getting your sis on board.

By Blogger Cinders, at 11:03 pm  

I reckon, just be true to yourself babe and do the best you can in any circumstance.

By Blogger Mary, at 2:35 pm  

 

::19.4.06::

Stuffed

I didn't want to go to the gym tonight but ended up doing a huge workout - running then weights then boxing. Normally boxing is more fun than an intense workout, but not so tonight. Man, are my arms sore. I think they don't want to be part of my body any more.

Afterwards, I was stuffed so was going to grab something in the city for dinner. Nothing looked appealing - Subway was an option but I really don't like their food - so I popped into Coles and got some dried apricots, cashews, an apple and a mini cheese. Ended up having a little picnic while waiting for my train and all for under $3.

Stupidly, I also bought the latest issue of Slimming magazine. I hate it so much when you pay money for a magazine and they have articles that are reprints of stuff they published a couple of years ago. I don't think I'll pay money for that magazine again.

I was looking at the Slimmer of the Year competition. A few years ago, my dream was to win Slimmer of the Year but now I wouldn't enter. Morally, I don't think I could. In order to win, you have to go basically attribute your dieting success to their magazine and screw that shit. They can keep their holiday in a tropical destination and I'll keep my success for myself.

Anyway, I don't need some magazine to make me Slimmer of the Year because I award that to myself. Not saying I'm a better "slimmer" than anyone else - you can award it to yourself too. We can all be Slimmers of the Year, kinda like when Buffy made all the potential slayers into The Chosen Ones or something like that.

Tomorrow I'm having breakfast with my sister. Part of me is pleased to catch up with her and hang out and another (big) part of me is hanging out to see if I'm smaller than her. If so, I win! I'll be the smallest in the family. Woohoo! The smallest and the leader in the family footy tipping.

My housemate is moving out tonight. I've gone from having four housemates to one. It's like living in the Big Brother house except I don't get a nice wad of cash for sticking it out. But then again, I don't have to be humiliated on national television either. Luckily I don't have to cover his share of the rent but I'm really going to miss him... his washing machine especially. First one housemate takes the microwave, now the washing machine. I have no appliances left.

I love your idea of awarding yourself 'Slimmer of the Year' - what a great idea. You are right - the slimmers of the year in the mags really have to align themselves with whoever is doing the promotion.
Sorry to hear you are losing all your appliances - at least it isn't your marbles that are going LOL !!
Have a great day and hope your arms feel better soon.
Me

By Blogger Me, at 8:55 am  

I think you are right on the money awarding yourself Slimmer of the Year. As for the appliances, our grandmothers did without!! (Said from someone whose kettle is fudged and she is hating boiling water in a pot)

By Blogger Jules, at 12:17 pm  

We can all be Slimmers of the Year, kinda like when Buffy made all the potential slayers into The Chosen Ones or something like that.

That made me laugh! Here's to the Slimmer of the Year in all of us! (and to the Buffy fans in some of us...) ;)

By Blogger Zara, at 1:41 am  

 

Soap Operas

I watched The Biggest Loser last night for the third time since it started and it seems more like watching a soapie than a show about weight loss. Is there some kind of gay love thang happening between Bob and Andro? There is some serious chemistry going on there. I was having a fit when he was making Andro lift the weights - the form was all wrong!

I haven't watched enough to know what the whole drama with the weird facial hair dude was but I had to laugh when Jillian accused him of 'water loading' - I mean where would you learn a trick like that if not for the first week of the competition?

Wow, you're lucky you haven't become addicted! It's become a really lame addiction for me, I have to watch it every night or at least every Monday and Friday. I'm thankful it's ending this week as it's becoming less about weight loss and more about backstabbing. And Ajay shits me to tears!
I heard a rumour that Bob and Fiona have a thing going on but I think Bob is gay so I doubt the validity of that.

By Blogger Sarah, at 6:31 pm  

Doh, I meant to say that it became less about weight loss and more about backstabbing and allegiances over a month ago.

By Blogger Sarah, at 6:32 pm  

I am a biggest loser addict like Rosa .. should I stand up and recite it? "Hi I'm Louisa and .. ". I've been kind of disappointed with the Aussie effort (being an Aussie myself).. because as you both have so astutely pointed out, it seems to be all about bashing each other this time around.

Oh yeah, and I'm with you Rosa .. Bob is definitely gay .. shame.

By Blogger The Knitting Nerd, at 4:35 pm  

I watch it most nights simply to make sure I cycle each night for at least 30 minutes. It kind of lost the plot but I still think the core idea of it is alright. I don't like how they're focusing on all the bitching and utter bullshit. Oh well. It's been a success for so many people though and has motivated a lot of people. I can't believe how many people are exercising in my local park now!

By Blogger Mary, at 7:01 pm  

 

::18.4.06::

Tuesday

I was going to buy myself one of those humpty dumpties with chocolate beanies - they were half price at Coles - but then I read how many calories are in them. Holy moly, I don't need that.

I went to High Performance RPM tonight. I had planned to do a quick run on the treadmill as well but I only thought that because I'm a fool. You do very little after High Performance RPM. It should be called High Pain RPM. We kept doing these rides where you bump up the resistance and stand then sit down without taking off the resistance, then put on my resistance and do it all over again. I could hardly turn the pedals.

I swear I was on a dodgy bike cos I only had to turn my resistance a teeny bit and it was insanely hard. It was hard going with NO resistance. Last week I had my resistance up nearly the full way on the bike I had. You'd think they'd calibrate these things but it seems not.

Yesterday I decided not to exercise because I wasn't feeling great but then I felt guilty so I went for a walk. It really annoys the hell out of me walking down Smith St during the weekend - the place is full of people going into the sports outlet shops buying expensive runners when they so obviously don't exercise. I've never liked or worn runners as casual shoes and I think it's damn foolish to spend all that money unless you have a specific reason for it - ie. unless you actually run. Sometimes I feel like getting behind them with a cattle prod and making them use their shoes properly. Mostly I'm just jealous because I need new running shoes and can't afford them for a while.

Also, is there any advantage to buying label name sportswear? I buy most of my gym stuff from K-Mart. I've been into the factory outlets a few times but even when it's reduced, it's so much more expensive and I can't see any difference. No way in hell would I pay $50+ for a pair of tracky pants. Well not unless there is some secret ingredient in them that would make me run faster or better.

Bugger about the Humpty Dumpty!!

I wear a pair of trackies I got for $6 from Deborah K at Highpoint for my runs, and they are fabulous! There's no way I'd pay $50 for a pair of trackies!! K-Mart's the way to go!!

But I'm with you, I need new running shoes. The old ones are getting a bit worn out. Birthday present maybe.

Hope you have a great week!

By Blogger philippa_moore, at 10:40 pm  

The only sports 'clothing' I would consider getting in the future would be a running shirt, because they breathe better than my Target hold the sweat in ones.

By Blogger Lucinda, at 11:13 pm  

E-BAY!! I went to a running specialty shop, they gave me some options, I then went to Ebay & bought the $110 pair of shoes for $36. That is some good stuff right there!

Sigh, but now that I'm getting into cycling, it seems that I will be forced to pay insane amounts of $$ for cycling shoes & shorts.

By Blogger Paige, at 3:20 am  

I'm with you. Runners are only for exercising. I only spend $ on runners and my latest pair (which I adore) were a birthday pressie from a few family members. I'm usually a Target trackie girl but last week I saw a nice one in there for $80, so not sure what they are doing with their prices..

Well done on the RPM class.

By Blogger Cinders, at 9:14 am  

I've gradually built up a small wardrobe of good quality running stuff, which I wear when I enter a race (well it's more like a fun run to me) and wear all my old t-shirts and 3/4 length tracky pants when I'm training.

The Dri-fit tops really do take away the sweat, and they breathe, which keeps you much cooler.

And Ebay is definitely the way to go. Or try the Sale rack at Rebel or one of the other sports stores. Sometimes you can score a really good bargain!

Got my current trainers in Athletes Foot for 1/2 price, down to $100 from $200 because the new model was coming out!!

By Blogger Jaykay, at 4:17 pm  

I reckon wear what you're comfortable in! I have funny feet though so I need to make sure I have a decent pair of shoes. JayKay has some great advice there!

By Blogger Mary, at 6:52 pm  

 

::17.4.06::

Easter Stuff and Running Meme

Andrew and I did the easter thing yesterday, mainly because I wanted to go over and the latest eps of Veronica Mars he'd downloaded and I didn't want to wait. Andrew had tried playing the - I shouldn't buy you anything because you are trying to lose weight - card but I told him I fully expected chocolate from him.

Every year for easter, since I was a kid, I get a humpy dumpty with chocolate beanies. It's my fave easter treat. So I thought that's what Andrew would buy me this year but no, I got a chocolate rabbit. I asked him why he didn't get me the humpty dumpty and he told me he'd planned to but he'd won the rabbit in a skill tester so gave me that instead. I was surely wiping the tear from eye at that sentimental gesture, let me tell you. It was pretty yucky chocolate and tasted kinda stale but I ate it.

***

My weight has been doing weird things - I weighed myself Saturday morning and had dropped another 2 kg, down to 72.5 kg. That freaked me out. I don't like the scales being all wacky on me. I think it was because I'd been drinking on Friday night (a bad, bad move). I didn't even drink that much but I'd had a late lunch and forgot to eat dinner... bad, bad move.

Alcohol always does weird things to my weight. And my blood sugar. Well to my entire body. I'm thinking of quitting again, it's just not healthy with the diabetes. It also wrecks havoc on my moods - I seem to have a huge bout of depression after drinking. Who needs that? My moods have been wacked out enough as it is.

So anyway the scales were back up in the 74s this morning so I have no idea what's happening. I think I'll put the freak loss down to dehydration and skipping meals. As much as I'd like to be in the 72s, it was a relief. I kinda felt like I was disappearing there for a minute.

***
I had the worst run today. I decided to run along the city circle track to Princess Park, do a lap or 2 then home again. That works out to be 9-12 km (depending on the number of laps). My legs felt a bit heavy, then got heavier then really started aching. By the time I was finishing my lap of the park, I was in agony and thought I'd pulled a hamstring. I had to limp home and, since I'd expected to be all hot and sweaty from my run, I hadn't taken a jacket. I froze in just my tshirt. Seriously, I had trouble putting my key in the lock because my hands were so cold.

It was so nice to get into the shower and warm up. I gave my legs a good massage and they are fine now so I don't know what was going on with them. Damn legs.

***

I'm knicking this running meme from Jaykay:

1. What time of day do you run?

During the week, after work at the gym. On the weekend, when I get up and motivated (so usually after lunch).

2. What are your favourite runs?

Definitely not on the treadmill, but it's easy. Maybe Albert Park - can't wait to get my car fixed so I can go places to run instead of the gym and around home.

3. What is your favorite song(s) to run to?

Rosalita - Bruce Springsteen
Get Your Hands Off My Woman - The Darkness
(He'll Never Be An) Old Man River - TISM
Defecate On My Face - TISM
She Riff - Magic Dirt
Bow River - Cold Chisel
Paco Doesn't Love Me - The Spazzys
Jailbreak - ACDC
Gone Away - The Offspring (and yes, I do feel embarassed admitting that)
Just Ace - Grinspoon

4. What book are you reading at the moment?

None

5. When did you start running?

The end of last year.

6. What's your post-race/post-run ritual?

None, unless I'm at a fun run with sausages. I love sausages.

7. What do you eat before you run?

Nothing special.

8. What's your favorite running accessory?

My ipod.

9. What's your motivation for running?

To get fast enough to steal things and run away. Especially when people are barbecuing sausages. I had planned to run really fast so I could steal an ipod off a fat kid but now I have my own so I'm thinking of targetting one of those rich private school kids who have laptops in their school bags.

10. What are your running shoes?

New Balance 766 (I think). I need to buy new ones soon cos my sharp toe nails are starting to tear through the mesh on the top.

11. What is your next running goal?

To run 5 km in under 30 minutes.

lol @ Andrew - so sentimental huh ;)
i didnt get anything! though there were always little eggs around so at least i got to eat a few, even if they were not "mine"!
running meme is great, its nice to know what motivates people ;)
hope u had a nice break!

By Blogger Kt, at 11:57 am  

Oh, boys!!

The running meme was great reading - it's amazing to think of yourself as a runner now, isn't it? I know for me that fact is still sinking in.

Go and get yourself a Humpty Dumpty egg I say, if you can find one! They should be cheaper now anyway, heh heh!!

By Blogger philippa_moore, at 12:16 am  

Hope that your legs are OK after that strange experience with them. Maybe it was just too cold?

Take care.

By Blogger Suzy, at 12:44 pm  

Alcohol does strange things to me too so I reserve it for nice dinners or weekends but you can sure lose some serious amounts of weight if you drink for an entire weekend! Definitely not promoting that in any way. Thanks for sharing the running meme :-)

By Blogger Mary, at 3:35 pm  

There's half price Easter Eggs everywhere now so I reckon you should buy yourself a Humpty Dumpty! I'm the same, except it's Creme Eggs with me, and this year I didn't receive one, so yesterday afternoon I bought one and enjoyed all it's chocolatey gooeyness.

Booze does weird things to my weight as well, although it doesn't really affect my mood(unless I have a stinking hangover). I'm laying off it for a while as a pseudo-detox (not cutting out anything else) and see how I feel in a couple of weeks.

By Blogger Sarah, at 9:33 pm  

 

::15.4.06::

Photos

BDO 2006

Me, looking like a hard faced old scrubber on my way to the Big Day Out in January.

Me in tiara - Jan 2006

Me in my tiara - Jan 2006

Makeover Expo

Me with Jadey after the Makeover Expo.

I really should get myself one of those newfangled digital camera things so it doesn't take 4 months for me to post photos.

You so don't look like a hard faced old scrubber!! LOL. You look very slim and very funky. Happy Easter. Have a great day.
Bri

By Blogger Briony, at 9:17 am  

While I was on the lookout for a scrubber I couldn't help but notice how great you look! Esp those stems - a benefit of being a star I suppose.

I agree w grover, you'd never know you once weighed 110kg. Are there any friends left to surprise? You would have to forgive them if they ignored you in the street. Oohhh, the possibilities have got me all excited, thanks for taking my mind of chocolate today!

By Blogger CaramelKitKat, at 2:36 pm  

These look like still shots from a kick ass rock video! Love it - you look great!!

By Blogger Zara, at 1:33 am  

 

::14.4.06::

Weigh In - 24.5 kg

Woohoo - the weight is going the right way again. I remember the heady days of 26 March when I weighed in at 74 kg and thought I'd soon be into the 73s. Three weeks later, I'm still not there and I'm not going to jinx things by saying I will be next week.

Something I've been thinking about lately, instead of setting a specific number as my goal , is giving myself a 10 week challenge and giving it my all for those 10 weeks then going onto maintenance at the end.

I'm only 4.5 kgs from the top end of my healthy weight range and in 10 weeks I should lose between 5-10 kgs. I figure this way to my body will find it's own level rather than me imposing a number on myself.

One thing I have to remember, this close to goal, my calorie input should be slightly lower. Not that I've been counting calories lately but for most of my weight loss I've stuck to around 1,500 calories a day. I'm smaller now so I need less calories and have to be more careful with my eating (discovered that the hard way over the past few weeks). I can't get away with too many treats any more.

So for my challenge I want to:
  • eat around 1,400 calories a day 6 days a week, with one day to ease off a little
  • do around 500 calories of cardio 5 days a week
  • run 5 km in under 30 mins
  • increase my strength training - I'm making a list on fridge: legs, arms, belly, legs, arms, belly - and I will check it off as I do the training
  • get adequate sleep.

THese last few kgs are so hard to shift aren't they! I think the 10 week challenge is a great idea. I am positive that by the end you will be at goal! Great planning too! I think the sleep is a BIG thing I have to work on!

By Blogger Angie, at 9:07 pm  

I'm finding this 1kg to goal very pesky to shift!! I did a 10 week challenge from January to April and managed to shift 5.5kg so I was happy with that. Doing something like that just gives you a bit more motivation and challenge, because ironically it's when you're nearing the end that it gets hardest!

Hope you have a wonderful easter :)

By Blogger philippa_moore, at 11:17 pm  

I really like your approach to your 10 week challenge! It certainly takes the focus of a certain 'number' to reach, instead you can concentrate on doing the best that you can! Your list of challenges is definitely something you can do, yay!

I hope you are having a great Easter Kathryn :)

By Blogger Ails, at 7:03 pm  

The 10 week challenge is a really great idea!

By Blogger Mary, at 3:26 pm  

 

Down

I planned to post a few photos tonight - I finally got the pics of the Big Day Out and the Makeover Expo developed and took them to a printing place to get them scanned, but the guy scanned them all together and the file is too big to open in the graphics program on my dodgy old computer! If I take them over to Andrew's when I go to pick up my Veronica Mars fix, I'll use his computer.

I've been feeling mighty down today. I think it's because I've had so much on every weekend for the past month or so and suddenly I have this whole four days stretched in front of me with nothing planned. Everything seems flat and empty. And cold and friendless and blah. I guess I'm just in a sulky poor-me mood.

I've been awfully tired too. I find my Tuesday night class knocks me around a lot - I don't finish until 9.00 then I have to get home and it takes me a long time to settle. So on Wednesday I just want to come straight home from work but I make myself go to the gym and so on for the rest of the week. Being tired and in a sulky mood at the same time is the worst. I'm all shitty because I'm bored and have no plans but I don't have the energy to do anything anyway.

I went to the gym, planning to do spin class but I just wanted to run so did that instead. I definitely didn't have the energy or inclination to face a perky instructor yelling inspiring shit from the front of the room. At least on the treadmill, I'm in my own little ipod coccoon.

After that, I thought of going somewhere to eat. The city was filled with couples and groups all brimming with first-day-of-a-long-weekend excitement off to do fun things. Sometimes it seems like everyone leads a more interesting life than me. I ended up buying some rice paper rolls to eat on the tram and came home and read my book instead.

I start reading my book, The Perfect 10 by Louise Kean, and this is the beginning of the first chapter:


Here's what they don't tell you when lose seven stones in weight.

They don't mention the loose skin. They forget to tell you that you'll end up with a rice paper-grey stomach that wrinkles and crumples beneath pinched fingers like tissue paper. They don't divulge that on the upper inside of freshly toned thighs two flabby folds of stretched skin will stand guard over your pelvis, like a pair of spitefully unskinned chicken breasts, with a Stalinist determination not to budge. They don't let on about the pubic pouch that they guard so angrily, that refuses to deflate in line with the rest of you, lending your naked profile a hermaphrodite edge...

That made me scream -- I don't need to know that stuff, I don't need to think about it. And I hate it when someone writes really well about something I could have written. The story is about a woman who loses a lot of weight but her life isn't as perfect as she thought it would be. it really does hit a bit close to home at the moment.

I think that is something that we all battle to deal with - just because we have managed to lose the weight and get to goal - it doesn't get rid of any of the cr*p that you have to deal with - it just means that we are thinner and having to deal with the cr*p.
I wanted all my troubles to melt away with my weight but unfortunately, they seem to have increased and I now have to try to deal with them without using food as a crutch - not easy !!
I hope that you do manage to find something interesting to do over these 4 days - I completely understand how you feel about not having anything planned.
Regarding what you said re being tired after Tuesday's workout - would you be able to swop that to a Thursday or Friday night then you wouldn't be drained for the rest of the week ??
Chin up and hang in there.
Me

By Blogger Me, at 9:38 pm  

arrgh! i struggle with the skin thing too, gets me down at times. i look like a half-deflated balloon in places... but fark, i'd take that over a size 26 any day. i dunno, i'm not striving for perfection. the stretch marks and skin are more like battle scars, i'm proud of them in some perverted way.

btw you are looking damn foxy in the new pics. good on ya tiger!

(PS i am totally up for a 10 week challenge! i have 6.9kg to go and i have been faffing around for SO LONG! aaaaaaaaaaarrrrrgh!!!!)

By Blogger Shauna, at 8:46 pm  

OMG - I bought that book at the book market at Fed Square yesterday. How bizarre!!!!

By Blogger Ails, at 7:05 pm  

I've heard it's best to wait a year AFTER getting to goal and exercising to see if you really need any surgery. The body needs time to get used to the change and our bodies can be amazing at the self healing process but it needs a bit of time. See how you go hon :-)

By Blogger Mary, at 3:25 pm  

 

::11.4.06::

Star

I bought the Herald Sun today for the first time in my life so I could get my race time for the R4tK and scrolled through the lists for my name. I checked and double checked. Nothing. So I emailed the paper and they told me that they take responsibility but there was a disclaimer that they don't guarantee to publish all results.

Then later in the day I got an email from a friend asking if I had even gone in the race because she hadn't seen my name in the paper.... arrrrggh! It said on the front of the paper - results for all runners, not all runners except Kathryn and Linda.

I don't care about my time being published, I just want to know what it was. I'm so disappointed about that.

***

I have the most weird-arsed body shape. The magazines and people in the know call it apple shaped. I have thin extremities and carry all my weight around the middle. I don't think apple is the right way to describe it so today I decided I'm not an apple, I'm a star!

Whilst thinking all that, it dawned on my that my body shape is never going to change. It's going to shrink but I'll always have the same shape. This wasn't what I planned. In my mind, the thin me wasn't a 'Honey, I shrunk the Kathryn' version but my face on someone else's body. I want my money back -- do I get a refund for this?

I think abs are the hardest thing to reduce (although I can imagine everyone thinks this about their least favourite body shape). The thing is, with other bits you can work on reshaping as you reduce them but with abs, you basically have to strip every smidgeon of fat off your torso before the results even show. By that time, my arms and legs will be sticks. Surely there must come a time when my belly decides to give up it's fat. My dream is to one day know for certain if my belly button is an innie or an outtie.

In the meantime, I just have to remind myself that I'm star and I shine.

Can u believe I had an email from the marketing d*ckheads in our Head Office asking me to return the T-Shirt because I hadn't entered the run... Lucky I overtook a guy from work and bumped into a couple of others who could vouch for me... Stoopid Herald Sun - I also emailed them and got the same response as you.

I am always going to be a pear.. No matter how 'small' I've been in the past I still look like Jessica Rabbit. Keep on shining..

By Blogger Cinders, at 10:18 pm  

You are a star. And you should be pissed at the paper. I would have been. When I do the C2S they bloody put my name in there. Perhaps I should start writing to them now LOL.

I've been wondering about the abs thing. Mine are non existent and I wonder if I will ever have them. Does having children exclude you from having good ones?

I like your star shape idea. Who wants to be an apple anyway :D

By Blogger Margaret, at 10:22 pm  

If you are a star then I think I am a lava lamp blob. I know what you mean about getting thin bits. My hips and ass are stuck at the same size while my boob and back disappear.

What a pisser about not getting to know your race time. Muppets.

By Blogger Lainey, at 10:38 pm  

Hmm, can you come up with a better name than "pear" for those of us with that body type. I mean, I like pears, but when I look at one I don't necessarily want to think, "Yep, that's my body alright."

Unlike the apple, even if I don't have a 6-pack, I can often feel the fat coming off my tummy almost immediately after I start eating well and working out. However, it takes absolutely forever for me to see a reduction in my bum and saddlebag thighs.

By Blogger Kelly, at 5:31 am  

Hey - thanks for that - I feel much better saying I am a star rather than an apple !!!!
Sorry to hear that they didn't publish your time - have you contacted the organisers - they would probably be the people who would give the names and times to the newspaper to publish (or have I missed the point and The Herald actually organised it ???)
Have a great week and I hope you find out your time somewhere along the line.
Me

By Blogger Me, at 8:47 am  

Bummer abvout the results. And I love your apple metaphor. I seem to be a pear and will never lose my big middle. You are right lets ask for a refund, only who would we ask? I am sure I need to blame the children and the surgeons. When they cut me up they should have tightened things for me not just left it all to hang out.

By Blogger michelle, at 11:54 am  

Bummer abvout the results. And I love your apple metaphor. I seem to be a pear and will never lose my big middle. You are right lets ask for a refund, only who would we ask? I am sure I need to blame the children and the surgeons. When they cut me up they should have tightened things for me not just left it all to hang out.

By Blogger michelle, at 11:56 am  

I can't believe how jibbed you were by the Herald-Sun - I didn't really care that my name was in there, it was good to know my official time, but what I found the most interesting was my time, but also my placing amongst the thousands. Stupid paper.....

Love your star/apple analogy! I like I'm like Shontie - no arse, (slowly slimming torso) but big arms, legs, head/face.... ~groan~

Happy Easter!

Ails x

By Blogger Ails, at 7:13 pm  

You are a star beautiful! As for the abs, I am now a firm believer of crunches and the reverse kind, absolutely. I haven't done any for 2 weeks now and noticed the difference. Back to it tomorrow!

By Blogger Mary, at 8:23 pm  

What a pain about not getting in the paper!! (love Lainey's comment though!)

You ARE a star. Keep shining!!

By Blogger philippa_moore, at 8:43 pm  

You ARE a star, and don't your forget it. I've had to accept to that this 'middle-age' thickeing arund my waist will be damn hard to budge!

By Blogger Sue, at 6:02 am  

 

::10.4.06::

Monday

We had three people walk out of RPM class tonight. I've never seen that happen before. One girl walked out for the rest of the class and the other two pretended to go to the toilet, like that fooled anyone.

I felt like yelling out - Hey, you. Did you run 14.7 km yesterday? No? Well get your butt back here on that bike and keep pedalling.

And then, at the end of the class, I did the very thing I've been bitching about. I walked out before the stretching. I had a very good excuse though. My foot started cramping up something fiercesome so I had to get off the bike and put weight on it. Then I missed half the stretches so decided it was better to leave and do my own.

The results of the R4tK are in the paper tomorrow. I might actually buy it instead of waiting until Thursday for them to posted online.

Did I mention that I think you're a machine??
LOL. Have a great day!
Bri

By Blogger Briony, at 7:57 am  

I've been one of those people who has walked out of an RPM class never to return! I admire you for sticking with it, I couldn't hear a word the bloody instructor was saying over the thudding techno beats!

By Blogger Sarah, at 8:01 am  

sob.... my name isn't in the paper... i reckon she didn't zap me properly at the end. i knew it! my 5 seconds of fame - gone! but official time of girl I walked with was 2.19:36. yeah me and yeah you on doing an RPM class yesterday. You're a machine!

By Blogger Cinders, at 9:58 am  

oh no... I can't believe they screwed yours up also... what tha??

By Blogger Cinders, at 2:41 pm  

 

::9.4.06::

I Did It!

Not only did I finish the Run for the Kids, I did it in under 2 hours. And that's including the 10 minutes or so I spent in the queue for the toilets. I really thought it would take me at least 2.5 hours but I got to the 10 km mark and decided I wanted to finish in under 2 hours so I pushed myself to the end.

I also thought I'd be walking most of the 14.7 km but ended up running (well jogging) for most of it. The only time I really didn't run was at the drink stops - I don't think I'll ever master drinking and running at the same time.

Every other time I've done a fun run, I've been holding out for the next km marker... thinking it must be coming up soon but today I passing them and thinking - have I done another km? I just seemed to be doing it so much easier. The only time I was looking out for the marker was at the 9 km mark, then I saw the 10 km marker so I'd gone past 9 without realising.

Some of the high points of the race:
  • At the 1 km, hearing the little Asian girl in front of me turn to her friend and say - have we only done one! Poor thing, but I had to laugh.
  • Running up Flinders Street and hearing the church bells ringing.
  • Running down the West Gate with all trucks hooting their air horns at us.
  • Crossing the finish line!

Some of the bad points:

  • Queuing for over 10 minutes for a toilet then realising the dude before me had left it in an unusable condition so having to wait for the other toilet.
  • Having the 4.5 km runners join up with us and having to dodge around people especially the mums with prams walking 4 or 5 abreast. Some people really need to get a clue.

There are a few things I'd do differently next time. For starters, I'd check the train timetable. I thought I'd left myself plenty of time but got to the station and it was over half hour wait for the train, meaning I got to the run with 7 minutes to get ditch my stuff and get to the finish line. I sprinted from the train, which was an unplanned warm up.

I should also have checked that the special Run for the Kids playlist I made for my ipod was actually on my ipod. I put it on to charge last night but it didn't update. And I forgot my water bottle.

Oh yeah, and maybe I shouldn't have walked the 3-4 km home! Yep, I'm that much of a glutton for punishment. Still it was a good cool down and I think my legs were on auto-pilot by that stage.

I can't wait to read how everyone else went.


Well done matey, yet another entry into the "Kathryn is a bloody machine/legend" journal!!!!!
You must be on top of the world right now. I hope you don't have anything too strenuous planned for this afternoon.
Bri

By Blogger Briony, at 12:48 pm  

I agree with Briony, you are a legend!! Look how far you have come on this journey! Well done, excellent job to day :o)

By Blogger Unknown, at 1:07 pm  

Well done Kathryn. Fantastic job!!!!

By Blogger Suzy, at 1:46 pm  

well done Kathryn. i'll update soon. weren't the church bells great!

By Blogger Cinders, at 3:04 pm  

Well done Kathryn, I am so uber impressed! LOL and in classic style, you had a number of challenging things happen along the way but hey, it wouldn't be your life any other way :-) Glutton for punishment, absolutely. I hope you enjoy a well deserved rest now.

By Blogger Mary, at 3:22 pm  

***And the crowd goes wild!!***

You rock! The view from the West Gate is amazing and it would have been great to get to take your time (compared to driving over it) up there. As for walking home, that's some cooldown.

Last night I stumbled across the clip of you talking about Lustre Magazine and wowee! It looks like you had lost some weight there, but the difference between then and now is incredible. This might sound silly, but is your voice still the same? On the tape you sound like a voluptuous woman and I just can't quite gel the voice with your new figure. Told you it was silly!

By Blogger CaramelKitKat, at 3:48 pm  

ukvWhat a fantastic effort Kathryn, and certainly that's a time to be really proud of! I am so in awe that you jogged most of the 14.7km too, wow! I'm currently reading everyone's take of the run and it's so great to read it though other people's words. And quietly, I do agree with you about the prams - the extra ducking and weaving did make it all the more difficult :S Have a great evening winding down, Ails x

By Blogger Ails, at 5:24 pm  

You're a machine girl!

By Blogger Jadey, at 6:33 pm  

Congratulations Kathryn. That is fantastic. And to do it in under 2 hours, with a sprint before, and a walk afterwards. You are a mad woman. But a really awesome mad woman. LOL.

So glad it was a great day and now you have set your benchmark for next year. WOW can you imagine the time you'll set then. Can't wait to read about those results.

By Blogger Margaret, at 10:08 pm  

Well done on a great race - you really are an inspiration to us all !

Keep up the good job and have a great week !
Me

By Blogger Me, at 8:38 am  

Sounds like you had a great run Kathryn. Congratulations on achieving another of your goals.

Toilets...what can I say, not enough at the start line (huge queue at Telstra Dome) and definitely not enough on the course either.

Pity that we couldn't have met up. Maybe next run? Are you doing the Mothers Day Classic?

By Blogger Jaykay, at 3:55 pm  

woohoooooooooooooo! good on ya, legend :)

By Blogger Shauna, at 10:39 pm  

Congratulations! I envy your time.

By Blogger Melissa, at 12:52 am  

 

::8.4.06::

PS.

I had another weight loss first last night. I've NEVER been to see a band and bought a t-shirt before. I've always assumed the women's fitted styles wouldn't fit, well mostly they are tiny fittings, and I've not wanted to spend money on a baggy men's style one. But I got the tiny, fitted women's one last night. Woohoo! It's tight and the t-shirt selling guy was a bit worried about the sizing - I wasn't about to explain my weight loss stuff to him over the noise of the crowd but it does fit.

Oooohhhh, a skinny T - that must be incredible! I hope you're prancing around in it right now.

My Dad still does the concert thing and has been known to get in a mosh or two. Probably not great for his dicky knee but excellent for the ego!

By Blogger CaramelKitKat, at 12:27 pm  

So funny, my son went to that concert. Now I wonder what he got up to. bet you sweated off any gain. Good luck tomorrrow.

By Blogger michelle, at 2:34 pm  

cool a skinny shirt good on ya
have a good weekend

By Blogger Baby Bump Wanted, at 6:30 pm  

Oh, well done! What a great feeling to be able to buy one of those skinny T's.

By Blogger Suzy, at 10:20 am  

Whoot! You really have to get yourself on Flickr (or any photo account) so you can share visuals :-)

By Blogger Mary, at 3:11 pm  

Whoops, you already ARE on Flickr "red spelt backwards"!! Sorry matey, I just sent you an invite and then realised :-/

By Blogger Mary, at 3:14 pm  

Whooo hooo for the t at the gig. I have never been game to do that. Way to go...

By Blogger Margaret, at 10:06 pm  

 

At my age...

You know, I've been alive in this body for many years and I should know its workings by now but it seems not. Let me just say, if I'm bitching about too much snacking and not losing weight in four weeks time just give me a gentle reminder that us women have menstrual cycles. As my sister and I used to say when we were kids (oh, we still do as adults too) - "spell red backwards". Yep - I'm a big DER!

I decided yesterday to have a massage before my run on Sunday to loosen up my lower back. I was planning on getting it done today but the only free appointment was at 6.00 last night. Fine by me.

I had a different girl from last time and she seemed a bit vague before she started but damn it was a good massage - she really focussed on the pressure points. I walked realising she'd fixed pain I didn't realise I had. Not just the massage either - she really knew her stuff. One of the things she told me was that my lower back problems are likely to be because my glutes are under developed compared to my other muscles and I should really work on them and my abs to help my back.

She also told me I had problems with my left hamstring. I told her no way so she touched it and I nearly jumped through the roof - had to agree with after that.

Now the sensible thing to do after a massage is to rest up and drink lots of water to flush out the toxins. So where was I a couple of hours later? In a hot, sweaty mosh at The Darkness. Oh my god it was great. I can't remember the last time I saw a band where the kiddies actually moshed. This was like old skool '90s stuff - crowd surfers even. And damn violent too. I lasted three songs before I was out of there. I figured it's better to watch the band than spend the night fighting for my life (well for my shoes anyway - they kept coming off).

I found my friend, Dave, and watched from a safer spot. Then someone had a seizure in the crowd so they stopped the show and mucked around on stage until they got the guy out. I've never seen a band do that before - they seemed genuinely concerned for his safety. You have to respect a band that does that. You have to also respect a band that rocks!

They came back on and I just had to run back up the front for my favourite song, like the big kid I am. A few songs later, I was ready to leave but they played a few AC/DC covers so I had to stick around.

A sweaty, bedraggled me finally limped out for the encore. I figured since I missed the gym yesterday, at least I got a bit of a workout. And yeah most of the kiddies up the front were younger than my son but there were a few old bastards (and at least I wasn't playing air guitar like them).

My sister and I used to go see bands often in the '90s. You'd think being thinner and a lot more fit now, I'd be able to handle the mosh better. But I realised last night it doesn't work that way. The one and only ingredient that makes a difference is booze. When you're drunk, you can get hurled around by the crowd without caring but sober you try to protect yourself.

I'm not sure what I'm doing today - was planning to do Pump class but I'm feeling less than ideal this morning. I'd put it down to a hangover if I'd had more than one beer. I have a horrid feeling I'm getting a cold. It's hard to know how much is illness pain and how much is from my battering in the crowd.

On the one hand, I didn't do a workout yesterday so feel like I should today but on the other, I want to be all fresh and peachy for the R4tK tomorrow. Maybe I'll just do some weights etc at home later today. I might even do my yoga dvd. Then I think a quiet night with a carb heavy dinner and an inspirational movie - maybe Rocky or maybe Gallipoli. What are your legs?

Ha ha, "springs, steel springs" and they're going to hurl you down the track as fast as a leopard!!! OK showing my age now, that's enough.
Sounds like you had an awesome night out, even if you did get pummelled! Personally i'd rather lick a dead cockroach than be in a mosh pit, no matter how drunk I was!! Good luck tomorrow!
Bri

By Blogger Briony, at 2:39 pm  

Sounds like you had a ball and all on 1 beer. You are one brave chickie to get into a mosh pit - well done. Good luck tomorrow.

By Blogger Cinders, at 4:18 pm  

GALLIPOLI! but remember how that ends!

sounds like a top concert. and how cool to fit into a band t-shirt! that has always been a dream o mine :)

have a great time tomorrow!

By Blogger Shauna, at 1:47 am  

LOL thanks for the review, it sounded like a really good gig. I can't do mosh anymore either. Toomany kicks to the head, ha and I was usually photographing!

By Blogger Mary, at 3:10 pm  

 

::7.4.06::

Weigh in - 76.6 kg

Arrrgghhh - another gain this week. I'm not too fussed because I've been a little constipated lately but this gaining trend is stopping right here. I'm going to go back to counting calories - I've not done that for a while and it's too easy to forget what I've eaten. I can't afford to do that... I'm determined to get to goal.

You'll run it off on Sunday Kathryn. Good luck!

By Blogger Cinders, at 8:48 am  

snap for lindas comment..

By Blogger michelle, at 11:53 am  

Use your determination and run hard!!! We know you can do it. Try getting some Benefibre into you too. That's gotta help! Adn we'll see you in Fed Square Sunday!

By Blogger Jadey, at 3:22 pm  

Bugger about the gain but like the girls said - Sunday should see most of that come off you.

Whooo hoooo for getting smaller tighter pants. Way to go Kathryn.

And you will be SMOKING (not in the cigarette sense) by the time the joint 40th comes around. Do you think people will actually know who you are??

Good luck on Sunday. Have a great weekend :D

By Blogger Margaret, at 3:40 pm  

You will reverse the gain in no time, it's something you are great at.

Judging by the pics from the blogger's dinner you look amazing! Nothing like the lady in your before photos and it is truely incredible.

By Blogger CaramelKitKat, at 1:34 am  

Yep, you know what to do.

By Blogger Mary, at 3:07 pm  

 

::6.4.06::

Pants Rock!

I was so cold today that I popped into Katies after work and got some pants. I've had no work pants since last winter and I threw them out ages ago. I put them on after the gym - it's so much more bearable waiting in the cold for the tram than it is in a skirt.

You know what else rocks? When you try on pants and you know it's better to get the smaller, slightly tight pair than the larger, looser pair because the small ones will end up loose anyway. And, woohoo, the smaller ones are size 14.

I've so not felt like going to the gym the last few nights - it's been so cold and I've been so tired - but I've forced myself. Sometimes I deserve a frigging sainthood, I really do. I wasn't so good tonight though. Normally I am so hungry after the gym but wait until I get home, or if I do buy food I get a sushi roll. Tonight though I decided to get dinner in the city so went to a Japanese place on Swanston Street and got a bento box. You'd think that would be a safe choice but oh no. It came with fried spring rolls - very oily ones. Damn it. I could have left them but didn't. They weren't even that nice. I was just famished. It also came with this stuff like cold mashed potato - I wasn't hungry enough to eat that.

I've decided I need to try much, much harder with my food intake. No more mucking around. At the end of May I'm going home for my sister's birthday. Last time my family saw me I was just under 90 kgs and this time I want to be at goal. Then, in July, two old friends I haven't seen for years are having a joint 40th. Much incentive to look dazzling!

Hey chicky- sounds like you might need to set some more goals to work towards.. check out my blog as I have just written my new goals- I alwys need something to work towards as I get a bit complacent if I don't..
xx

By Blogger Unknown, at 11:10 pm  

hot damn, that is a great incentive. to be skinny and dazzling in front of one's family! to say, IN YOUR FACE, suckas! or maybe you're not vindictive like me hehehe.

well done on those tiny new pants! 14!!! and i must say katie's pants rule for work, i bought 4 pair when i was in melbourne and they just last forever, if you don't shrink of course :)

By Blogger Shauna, at 12:12 am  

I'm quite certain you look dazzling anyway - but dazzling AND at goal will be a sight to behold! The change in season does seem to affect motivation - having distinct issues dragging my sorry ass to the gym too!

By Blogger Sue, at 2:54 am  

It is great buying clothes that are tight and feeling confident that they will fit better soon isn't it?

By Blogger michelle, at 5:52 am  

I've always been jealous of your ability to just get in and do what needs to be done. You're like an exercise machine!

OMG @ 14s OMG!!!!! I'm so friggin' excited for youuuuu. YaY!!!Kmart have hot clothes right now? I need some work ones... maybe need to check that out hmm.

how fun @ seeing people you haven't in a while, my family haven't seen me in ages, I can't wait to surprise them heh.

You can so do this, On the side here cheering you on :D

Go Kathryn GO!!!! ;D

By Blogger Dee, at 7:33 am  

Alrighty, May's your marker now and I know you can do it!

By Blogger Mary, at 3:06 pm  

 

::5.4.06::

Too Cool For School

I had to laugh at Shauna's comment below about people who run out of gym classes without doing the cool downs. So many people do that at my gym - it's like it's just not cool to cooldown. Not me, I'm a real cooldown geek. Even if I intend sticking around to do some cardio or whatever after the class, I'll still stay around for the stretches. When you get to my age, your wrecked old body needs to wind down slowly.

My favourite cooldown is in Body Balance classes because you get to have naps. They call it meditation but I remember nap time from school (it was my favourite subject - in the words of Ralph Wiggum - 'sleep, that's where I'm a viking').

***

I went to boxing class today for the first time since before Christmas. Boxing is definitely my favourite exercise class. My gym has just put out a new timetable and this is a new session. It went great because we started with the basics. Everyone in the class I used to go had been doing it for ages and so the instructor would give us complex combos that confused the hell out of me so it was really nice to be able to keep up. And the teacher said my upper cuts were perfect!

***

I so didn't want to go to the gym tonight but after yesterday's post felt like I couldn't NOT go. It's good to have these public declarations to keep you on the straight and narrow. Now I just have to cut back on my snacking - I've been having far too many "tiny" treats lately.

ugh, I hear ya on the snacking! I've restarted last night after a binge on stupid snacks. heh good for you Hun for coming good with going to the gym.

I've always been curious about boxing classes, I swear every time I read about your adventures I want to run out and sign up to the gym with all these classes.

I'm such a cooldown fanatic. If I set a 5min cooldown EVEN if I'm totally set by 3mins I have to follow through haha, hell I even stretch between pilates... when they're all about stretching haha.

By Blogger Dee, at 7:10 am  

lol - i used to love the cool downs from body balance too. Once i got over the weird things the instructors would say and the hippy voices they use, it's great fun to nap! lol

Also, i think it's so RUDE when ppl walk out before the warm out... i always stay - but i enjoy the rest!!!

By Blogger Madamx81, at 4:01 pm  

Kickboxing i smy absolute favourite exercise session...must be all that punching releasing the stress. I missed mine this wek so I am going to go on Sat morning. Good luck on Sunday at the run.

By Blogger michelle, at 4:12 pm  

I think some people miss the point hey!? Great to read that you are able to do a class you really enjoy.

By Blogger Mary, at 3:04 pm  

 

::4.4.06::

Advice

I was having a think the other day, about the best bit of diet advice I could give (and this is something mentioned by Dietgirl and M recently, but I thought it before I read them... I'm not ripping them off, honest injun).

The one thing that works, that equals success is to start and keeping going. Keep going no matter what. Not letting a bad day or a bad week or the hugest boulder in your path stop you.

A year ago, I thought I could lose a few kilograms. I knew even losing 10% of my body weight, would have health benefits as far as my diabetes goes. So I started... like I had so many other times. And the only difference is, this time I didn't stop.

When I was young, I went to a tea leaf reader and she told me I'd lose a lot of weight. She said I'd meet a man who'd support me and he'd say things like - if you can diet for a day, you can keep dieting. I've never met that man, and for a long time I couldn't diet for a day. I couldn't diet until mid morning. But then something clicked (and who listens to tea leaf readers anyways?)

Even after I started losing, for a long time I waited for the "magic" to stop. I found it hard to trust I could keep things up and, even though I was losing, I didn't even mention my goal to lose 40 kgs to myself, let alone anyone else.

It amazes me just how far I've come - not just me but so many others. People who's blogs I've been reading over the past year. I read recently only 10% of weight loss efforts work. I'd love to see the statistic on that for bloggers - I bet we'd kick the butt of those stats. I can't think of anyone on my link list that doesn't show steely persistance.

About a year ago, I challenged myself by walking to the local 7-11 and home again. It seemed like a huge thing to do and, for the last half a km I felt like dying. If a cab had been nearby, I'd have flagged it down to get home! I felt like that on Saturday too but this time it was 12 km not 3 and I ran most of it. That's just one of the small changes in my life that astounds me.

Anyway, I'm interested - what other advice or wisdom do you think has helped you change to a healthier life?

*puts hands up*

I show steely something. Right now it isn't weight loss persistence, o maybe it is.

Great advice.

This really links into something a friend of mine said recently when I was sobbing my heart out about 'starting all over again' after pregnancy.

He said "You've already started, ages ago, just finish it".

Those words floored me.

and they match your advice perfectly dont they?

I hate saying this, because it sounds cheesy, but I am inspired by all you have acheived. I am the girl who would call a taxi to come home from the corner store.

My hat is off to ya Kathryn.

By Blogger The Candid Bandit, at 1:25 am  

you have said all that can be said...just keep going is the key. But definitely what helps me keep going has been two things, bloggers and exercise. Like you I cannot believe I now love exercise and it really helps pull me out of a slump if I fall ino one.

By Blogger michelle, at 7:14 am  

What a great post - I too would like to see the stats for bloggers who get to goal and then maintain.
You are right - the thing is to just keep plugging away at whatever it is that is working for you.
Have a great day and take care !
Me

By Blogger Me, at 8:24 am  

For some reason my comments don't always appear on your blog - very strange.
My piece of advice is something I really thought I'd never say. That touchy-feely visualisation shit actually works!

By Blogger Sue, at 8:36 am  

Great piece advice came from 'Dory' in Finding Nemo - she says "just keep swimming, just keep swimming" or the Penguins in 'Madagascar' which say, "just smile and wave boys, just smile and wave". Now obviously these aren't health or diet related but they are my "get off your bum and continue" phrases. Well done on the 12kms on the weekend

By Blogger Cinders, at 9:36 am  

Aaaaaaah so true. That's really what it's all about, isn't it. You've gotta keep going. It's the only secret to success! And it's the only reason why so many people fail! They STOP! hehe

I reckon you're right about blogging too. I think it's played a HUGE part in me sticking with this. There's so much motivation and support, plus it makes you feel accountable too - in a way...

Go us! all of us! w00t!

By Blogger Jac, at 10:49 am  

Just keep at it...it is so true. I never thought I would last this long, when I get to a year and the scales are lower than a year ago, it will be a great day!

By Blogger Lucinda, at 12:55 pm  

What they said!

I think fully embracing the dieting lifestyle is what is working for me. Every day I read about the way in which bloggers are pushing and testing themselves and if they can do it - so can I!

And just keep going - if I stopped or gave up now - where would that get get me? And how would it make me feel?

By Blogger Lainey, at 7:31 pm  

I think we would blow the stats sky high. In fact they would have to have separate stats just for us.

And I probably ripped the idea off you first LOL.

There is so much advice out there and other than just keep going I would have to say to find what works for you. Points are not for everyone, counting kilojoules will suit some and a combination of both may be what it takes. But be comfortable and stick to it. And realise that it is not about the diet, but about the life.

Way to go on your running Kathryn. You are a very inspirational person :D

By Blogger Margaret, at 10:18 pm  

I totally agree with what you've said about keep on keeping on.

It really is the way to make a dent in it all. never giving up hope.

I think one of the things I've had to learn is not to be an all or nothing girl too. I shouldn't expect to be 100% perfect all the time or 0% if I'm not.

I was curious about those stats too, and I think you're right about people with blogs, because this little community we've built seem to push and support those within it.

As always, very thought provoking.

By Blogger Dee, at 7:06 am  

What an awesome post Kathryn. You have come so far and not only have you helped yourself achieve great things but helped others by writing about your journey. Cheers to you babe!

The three things I always tell people...

By Blogger Mary, at 2:58 pm  

 

::3.4.06::

Gym Bitching

I saw the funniest thing at the gym today - have you ever watched people do Body Jam class? It reminded me of that Fat Boy Slim video from a few years ago. The instructor was getting so into it but he just looked so wrong. I was trying to do my stretches but I kept cracking up.

Lately, there have been some things bugging me about my gym. Do these things annoy anyone else:

  1. Instructors who rush through the stretches at the end of the class? You always get told to told stretches for at least 20 secs so how come it's okay to do a 5 sec quad stretch after spin class?
  2. Instructors who put on music so loud, you can't hear them over it? I've been caught out a few times in spin class - I just follow the instructor and don't realise they are showing us what NOT to do.
  3. Or even the music in the gym being played really loud. Sometimes I have to have my ipod up full volume when I'm on the treadmill to drown out their shitty dance music. I'm sure that isn't good for my ear health.
  4. Personal trainers who do their personal training close to my head when I'm stretching (or doing that lying on the mat trying to get the energy to get to the change room thing after stretching).
  5. Instructors who sing along with the music. Don't. Just don't.
  6. Instructors who want class participation. In the singing, not the exercise.

But I do like that we now have yummy Nivea apricot body wash in the showers instead of that generic soap stuff.


OMG!!! I am so with you on instructors who SING....sooo sooo bad!

By Blogger Angie, at 8:30 pm  

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgh!

yep i am with you on all of these. was only raging the other day about the loud gym thing, i am sure it's not healthy for my ipod to be up so high.

hate the quick stretches too. also hate people who leave for the stretches OR halfway through the stretches. is your life SoooOOoo important you can't stay another 30 seconds!?!

By Blogger Shauna, at 9:34 pm  

Just yesterday the my bodypump instructor split the class in two and made one half shout "Pump it" and the other half "Louder" along with the music.

What? No thanks - this isn't much fun on a Sunday morning without you being a pain in the arse to boot!

By Blogger Lainey, at 11:31 pm  

Add to that list - people who douse themselves with perfume before there workout and people who don't wash their gym clothes!

By Blogger Sue, at 7:20 am  

Believe me if you want.... I used to do modern dance about 15 years ago and the 'fill in' instructor lit up a smoke.... no bullsh*t.

By Blogger Cinders, at 8:45 am  

And another thing.. When a personal trainer is taking their client on a session and they hog 3 machines because they are doing circuits and one of them is the last machine you need to do before you are finished and then they get shitty because you dared change the weight on one and interupt them whilst they are poncing on the other machine.

Well excuse me.

I feel better now. Thanks :D

By Blogger Margaret, at 9:33 pm  

Bwahaha gym bitching, so it's all true! Now I have to go off and put on that Fat Boy Slim album :-)

By Blogger Mary, at 2:52 pm  

 

::2.4.06::

More Sunday Thoughts

I've had a good day - been full of beans, must have been that extra hour of sleep.

I decided to clean the bathroom today - the housework in this house gets so neglected. I guess that's the problem with share houses. So I went to grab my ajax from the kitchen and it's gone! I can't imagine anyone scabbing a thing of ajax... it's not like it's chocolate biscuits or anything good. I scrubbed as best I could without it but it was not easy.

It's so nice to have a weekend at home to get things done - laundry and cleaning and all that boring shit. The past two weekends have been such a whirlwind that things have got so unorganised.

After all that, I went into the city to do an RPM class. I got there early so popped into Borders and browsed through some running books. One of them said that the basic strength exercises you need to do are squats, crunches and push ups - if you don't have the time or inclination, then they are the exercises you should focus on. So I'm thinking on concentrating on those for the time being.

The RPM class was strange. We seemed to spend a lot of time doing recoveries. I don't go to class to recover. We had two instructors. I think one was new because she looked like a spotlit rabbit for most of the class. The other one seemed like he'd come straight from a nightclub and his party drugs hadn't worn off yet - he was all with the woops and woos! I kept expecting him to pull out a disco whistle.

After that I went to visit my son and got the latest episodes of Veronica Mars from him. That show is like crack cocaine to me.

On the way home I went to the supermarket and stocked up on food until payday. I have been having trouble thinking of meals - and not having a microwave at the moment doesn't make things easy - then I remembered stir fries. I haven't made one in ages.

Also, this is so stupid, but I never buy sausages because I figure if I buy a pack at the supermarket, I'll show no self control. But I was at the butchers today and realised - der - I can just buy one or two there. I got chicken and chive ones. Yum.

I had a chicken and hoisin stirfry for dinner and watched the latest Veronica Mars and got everything sorted for work tomorrow. That's about it. Not an exciting day but I feel content and like I've acheived a lot.

That's how I feel about my weekend too Kath - not a great deal achieved, but my house is clean, my fridge has food in it, and I got a few things done that I wanted to do. It's good to have weekends like that when you're on the go a lot.

I'm with you on the needing new clothes for winter, and for work!!

Hope you have a great week, and enjoy your sausages :)

By Blogger philippa_moore, at 8:55 pm  

i love weekends like that! I had an awesome weekend too. Don't ya just *love* housework. I didn't get around to doing all of what i wanted, but i will do the rest tomorrow. But sounds like you had a very productive and fun day! The sausages sounds yummo! i love the different flavours they come in, and the butchers ones are so much niced (and less fatty) than the basic thin sausages at the supermarket.

Take care and have a great week chicky :-)

Nat xo

By Blogger Angel, at 10:16 pm  

I hope to have that feeling in about 2 wash loads time. LOL. Will still have 3 to go but at least I would have made a huge dent. Isn't it amazing that just one weekend or two missed makes such a mess in the house!!

I am a huge fan of the butchers when it comes to sausages. I have been known to split a Coles bulk pack and quickly freeze the sausages in 3's (1 for me and two for him) but then again I am also known to cook up the whole lot and eat far too many. I think it is safer going to the butchers.

And re your last post I realised I needed new clothes when I went to get a long sleeved top and didn't have one. Or a jacket. Only trackies and work clothes. Thank goodness for 20% off sales at Target and decent styles (finally) at Witchery and Portmans. I am now officially set for Autumn and hope I can drag most of the clothes through to Winter.

Way to go on the running. You are just kicking butt at the moment. :)

By Blogger Margaret, at 10:24 pm  

Dont know about the RPM class - strange. Now, do u prick your sausages??? It's the age old debate hey? Apparently you leave them so the flavour stays in but I reckon you prick them so the fat can escape. What do you think?

By Blogger Cinders, at 10:01 am  

LOL at the gym experience (and the AJAX), I always wondered about the instructors and if they were for real :-) Sometimes I miss the absurdity of living in a share house.

Veronica Mars hey, I'll have to get myself some. Have you ever seen Dead Like Me? We got the whole 2 seasons (now killed) but I think it'd be right up your alley. Very dark and very very funny.

I wish I could make stir frys! It always sounds, looks and taste delish when someone else makes it. Time for me to try again LOL.

By Blogger Mary, at 2:50 pm  

haha... lol @ the RPM instructor!

I had 3 comments to make and now I can't think of a single one. DAMN!

I love those weekends where you feel organised and content. (not that I've had one for a while!)

By Blogger Ang, at 5:41 pm  

Veronic Mars .......... that is the BEST show ever!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

By Blogger Ang, at 5:42 pm  

 

Sunday Stuff

I couldn't get online all day yesterday. How damn frustrating!

I went for a run yesterday. I figured it was around 12 km - 3 km from my place to Princess Park, 2 laps of Princess Park which I think is around 3 km per lap, then home. I ran most of it except for the 3 km home. I'm not too sore today either, but I know which bra I won't be wearing next week for the R4tK.

Speaking of which, I realised I have to do the most important part of my preparation - make a playlist on my ipod. I'm getting pretty sick of all the songs I have on there so I might see what Andrew has on his computer, if I can track him down -- he seems to spend his weekends hanging out with his mates now.

I'm really hanging out for when I start getting paid regularly from my job - I desperately need winter clothes. Last night I put on the vinyl jacket I lived in last winter and it's huge on me! I need work clothes too, I'm getting very sick of wearing the same two outfits.

I'm thinking of getting up earlier and doing morning exercise now that daylight savings has ended. I figure if I start now, I can get up at 6.00 and still think it's 7.00. That's the theory anyway, I'll see how I go.

LOL, I was thinking the same thing with exercise and winter clothes! It's long sleeve weather now and I threw out all my fat clothes. Any excuse to shop really but mulla, gotta find some :-/

By Blogger Mary, at 7:03 pm  

 

stats:

current weight:
76.6 kg

start weight:
110.1 kg

total loss:
33.5 kg

goal weight:
70 kgs

 

measurements:

boobs: 100 cm

waist: 81 cm

hips: 109 cm

thighs: 50 cm

 

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